guess wad ppl..
sumthing shocked me juz naw..
hehe..
wan suddenly masok msn chat ngan aku..
first dia tanye aku if we can still be frens ow wad..
den i said aniting..
den he asked me if i still gt heart fer hym...
but i said no..
den after chatting on msn..
he suddenly asked my number
den ble aku da kasi dia..
nombor dia maseh same..
ckp je da tukar nombor..
nie lagi satu WORLD..
haha..
tu takpe..
yg paling shocking..
dia mintak aku jadi adk angkat dia..
ya allah..
da kenape ngan budak ni..
i realli dunnno la..
aku rasa dekni tak penah ade kwn tak..
haha..
sial la aku ni..
which i accept.. i dunno y...
haha..
blaja motor ah ngan dia..
ape lagik..
haha.. naw dat we're being frenz..(bt i realli find hym weird and "sarcastic")
i juz move along in life..dats how life is!!
and im heppi bout it..

fafafafafafafa.....

hey..
shit la..
today i kene uzor first day seyy..
my stomach cramp giler...
abey my pantat is like swollen or sumting..
hmm..
abdoment pon nga cramp seyy..
i da makan pill pink color tu..
panadol menstruation..
but hope it werked..
yeah..
hmm... guess wad...
fadhli
is getting hys result in an hours tyme..
realli hoped he wud passed hys result..

AMIN..

well..
eventuali ppl are feeling the love today..
like farhah juz naw..
rauf met her..
but be balik nye tyme.. member mcm..
"y muz he cum back to my life again??"
then i asked..
"are u like in love with hym bck??
then she said..
"are u crazy?? i dunno la..."

haha.. well
i asked her y muz we feel like theres sumone out der fer us.. but we dunno who??
like exampale fadhli he is very nice guy..
been der fer me.. realli make me feel ur da fren i wanted all along...
but is he fer real ???
i dunno la..
den fie lak..
msn ngan dia member letak..
"bacin tdo sey...sedey sey fie"
hahaha..
den i asked her...
"sape bacin?? sharil ehkk??"
den she replied..
"yes hunney"
haha.. den i go..
"are u like relli in love with hym?? or isit juz infactuation?"
abey member ckp aku giler..
btol pe..

bile aku in love drg lak hampa dalam cinta..
bile drg in love.. aku lak kesunyian..
but wad i hoped fer the best is dat..
they find their true love and be done with it..
make the guy the last guy fer them.. no hurt animore..

well..
mari kite berdoa agar mereka..
termasok jah(who hve been missing-in-action lately and majok wif us)
dapat seorang jejaka yg akhirnye dapat memikat hati mereka
dgn budi pekerti, tanggugjawab dan kesabaran..
dan bukan keegoaan, nafsu khalwat dan sebagainye
na'uzzubillah!!!
hehe..
AMIN!!


i love u ppl!!!
im always here fer u guys....

this is wad hapen juz naw..
farhah msg me asking if i wanna cum along wif
jah to meet up wif yaya..
den i said aniting..
den moments later fizaH replied my msg..
she said fie nvr go skul today..
due to my rushing situation
(coz farhah wanted to borrow my lappie and my lappie lom charge)
i reali forget fizah's msg..
den wen i was rushing-ly eating,
fie called and asked me wad i doin..
so i told her..
den member mcm sedih dia ckp asl tak lang dia.. boley dia turon..
but everything hapen last min..
abeh bile kol, dia cume bbual ngan farhah n jah.. never me...
so im kinda sad..
hmmm..
but im ok.. naw..


btw thanks to nurul's present..
i realli love the "B" bling2 u gave to me..
realli sweeeet of u.. nanti bdae 19 kau aku li kn "NJ" K??
hehe...

yeah..
MD RIFDI AMSYAH IS REALLI KIUT!!

guesss wad??
yaya da bersalin!!
woohoo!!!
i became a frenz aunty!!
haha..
da baby realli look like bob...
her baby boi haf da eyes n da nose like yaya and overall like bob.
realli was a cute baby..
Yaya child: born on 24 feb 2008, at 12:15 i think..
cool huh..
naw i feel like having a baby
hmm...
den after jumpe yaya..
me farhah n fie went to 32 to practice our dance steps..
i n fie showed our dance moves we learnt last nite..
yeah we dance great!!!
haha..
had a lot of fun..
fie, u gotta polish ur steps
hehe...
bye.. gotta go!!

WELL..
WE MET UP WITH LWS!!
and god damn!! they koyak my baju!!!
haha..
eventuali, my abg bought along he's 2 other hunks..
well..
am was there.. amar was der.. and.. hehe.. Jeff.
he's thy papua new guinee guy..
cool huh?
dam everything suddenly went so hawt..
i was kinda nervous seyy..
haha..
farhah knows...
hehe..
damn they dance baik sakk..
wow..
realli took my heart..
oh jeff
haha..
hmmm...
we went simpang bdok, met up with black and yati..
tanx to yati.. i love her.. she blanje me n fifie.. farhah oso...
yea..
eventuali black went off early..
gi ZOUK katekan..
den me farhah n fie went 32 bck..
we tok2 wif fendi on da phone..
kekek sakk..
fie went bck home with me..
we ton..
we took dance steps..
mepek2 tau.. we had our gd laughs..
den tdo nye tyme fie berdengkor pey la kuat..
wa piang!!
haha...
hmm..
had gd tymes with my babes..
realli...

well..
today i i gt my sw theory test thingy..
i was late coz i didnt noe dat today ade..
so yeah..
naseb fida lang aku..
tanx fid!!
k..
den i went into thy auditorium..
i was kinda shocked.. i stunned at abt 5 sec..
den saw lily kat atas skali..
den i sat wif amanda n fid..
well the question is kinda lame ah..
pasal bola la.. basket ball la..
mepek seyy..
btw.. i hoped i pass..
den..
after dat,
i met up wif farhah n fifie..
we're supposed to go survey jacket..
we went to queensway...
it was like 45 freaking long journey.. naseb straight bus...
den, wen we reach der ade org gile ni mintak kte rokok..
sak.. mane2 kite pegi confem ade org mcm gini..
den, we went in saw farhah's fren.. den we went to da kedai..
kimak ramai sak bdk2 sec sch..
abey tu apek layan kte mcm nk tak nk..
i can see farhah was mad..
imagine ah 45 bucks per jacket..
n taukey nk 10..
rabak kan???

tu takpe..
da makan kat macdonald kite nk pegi bras basah..
abey main a-z nye game.. kite terlajak bustop..
actuali my fault haha!!
den farhah ajak us go LEGENDS..
haha.. we went der fer a while.. and guess wad...
caught farhah fie in legends red handed!!
HEHE..

btw tomoro we shud meet up wif fendi...
n LWS..

finally i got a new skin..
well..
im staring a new life nw..
so yeah..
all the posts b4 tiz all da hilang...
i dunno how to retrieve it bck..
so biarlah..
now im gonna sleep..
reali fucking sleepy...
im proud of my blogg..
yeah..
furthur edits will be done...
maybe few days later frm nw..
kk.. choaz!!
te amo!!

sob sob..
im sick...
i've been sneezing non-stop since last week...
shit ah..
obat seleseme aku pon da dis..
i really dunno wad to do..
nk pegi doctor duit kene keluarkn..
shit ah..
erm...
nanti tak amek MC, aku nye attendance makin turon..
mampos la..
shit skrg aku nga sakit perot..
mcm2 terjadi... haiyo..

i wonder wad my classmates are doing ryte naw...
aku tak dtg2, knowledge pon makin turon..
bsok ada cheerleading lagi..
naseb bsok tak skola...
erm..
i reali ned to smoke ryte naw..
aku nga tungggu fie abes skola je..
den i go out fer a while
den i can smoke..
stoopid smokers


haha...
aku da edit frenster aku..
da rilek ah...
malas aku nk gi edit wif black background again..
lagu pon sedap.. lagu bubbly by colbie..
besh.. naw aku da kene sampok ngan lagu2 slow..
ok la... songs like the man who sold the world...
lagi2 lau JORDIS UNGA san that song..
haha..
speaking of which, aku tak sabar nk dptkan dreadlocks!!!!!!

new day today....
as i open a new experiment in life...
back to square one..

hmmm..
my while day went well...
i had my phase test..
furst one to finish..
i dunno y drg buat lambat..
hmm..
i met elfie, jah, fizah and farhah..
we lpak at 32 mcm biase...
i bought viceroy coz ada xtra duit..
we bbual n played stoopid games..
had fun with them..
i tot i wanna eat donut but farhah pemalas nk belikan aku...
huhuhu..
hmm....
msg with faddy..
haha..
dektu buat ku gelak je..
mcm2 benda seyy..
haha.....
well..
im not gonna go fer a relationship till i realli2 noe tiz guy...
seriously...
seriously..
i need a break frm all tiz..
tyme fer me to pierce my tongue, smoke, drink, pubb...
do all da shits first..
NO SEX!!!
haha..
well.. u did not see dat..
hmm.. im msg wit him rite naw...
well..
i dunno..hey we're juz frenz ayte...
hahahaha..

kk...
im over it..
chill....
gotta go..

hey..
i broke off wif wan..
member first2 cuak ak..
bt dia tak puas hati ngan aku..
dia ckp ngan fie while i was "away"
dia ckp...
lau dia nampak aku kat luar dia nk tgk..
if im wif other guy..
sial kn...
man..
he threatens me..
tau malu ke tak..
abey step aku nk gi patch things bck ngan dia je..
buto ah..
ni boi mintak simpati seyy..
mentang2 dia cume ade kwn kite2 je
abey ape tak der org nk lepak.. abey nk pakse fie..
dia step fie nk gi bilang dia everything sal aku je
mepek ah.
padahal padahal...

hmmm...
i dunnno ah wad to say.
he said dat he dun understand me. den wad??
da ah..
its over and done..
asl tak puas hati...
watever la..
he's so not being 24..
i think im da one who is da guy n he is da girl....
fuck...
i reallli nid a break frm tiz shit..
hmm..
wad to do..
things hapen..
hmmm...
and fadhli wants me to be wit him..
haha..
funni ppl..
i nid to die n born alive again...
i nid to change ma image..
be me again..
im no more biol..
im free..
im fatin again...
i realli need a shoulder to lean on...
i juz cant believe im tiz heppi..
again...
tanx..
alhamdullillah...
amin aku tak buat maksiat2 lagi...
well..
i need a life..
so lets open a new book!!!!
no more shitings again....

hey..
im pissed again..
sape lagik lau bukan ngan wan..
asyik2 smue sala aku..
wad did i do to deserve this?
aku tak jawab soalan dia, dia majok..
aku tak jawab pon bley jadi satu isssue tau..
ape seyy aku bikin selame ini sampai ni aku kene tahan? aku da cukop bersabar ngan dia..
ape lagi yg aku kene diuji?
nk uji kesabaran aku takpe ah..
bt this thing keep happening tau..
aku pon bley breakdown sakk..
i juz cant bear it animore neither will i wanna break things up..
but..
plz ah..
takkan smue aku bikin salah aku?
aku nyanyi salah..
aku tak reply salah..
abey dia dulu..
tak reply aku sampai satu hari suntuk membuta aku tak bingit tau..
aku simpan jer..
aku dendam je..
siakk ah..
nak ku tinggalkan terasa sayang..
poodah!!
aku berterima kasih ah lau dia ada tolong aku ke ape2 ah..
but ape yg dia bikin..
kate2 "manis" dia smue..
all bullshit..
aku nk je...
but.. i juz dunno how.. help me sumone....



FUCK THIS SHIT MAN!!!

THANKS BABE..(JAH N FARHAH)
FER CALMING ME DOWN...
I FEEL LIKE TIZ WORLD IS KINDA CRUEL IF
IT WER TO TAKE MAMA AWAY FRM ME..
I WILL DIE MAN...
YEAH....
I LOVE U PPL....
THANK FER BEING DER FER ME...




LOVE FAFA....

EH..
PLEASE AH..
AKU LAU TAK CARIK PASAL NGAN ORG2 MCM KAU,
JG CARIK PASAL NGAN AKU..
AKU TAK SUKA EH..
JAGE TEPI KAIN ORG..

PLEASE EH..
DEFINE WANKERS AH..
LAIN AH LAU AKU SKEJAP CAKAP AKU SKIN..
SKEJAP RUDIES..
SKEJAP MAIN BAJU..
SKEJAP RILEK..
DA BODOH PE TAK TAU WANKERS..
ABEY ADA HATI NK CKP AKU WANKERS..
DARI KAU ORI!!
NK STEP ORIGINAL..
LEY BLAH LA..

LAU KAU PK AKU BBUAL MCM MINAH2..
TOLONG EH..
ZAMAN BILE EH..
CHECK2 KAU YG WANKERS..

ADA HATI NK CKP AKU WANKERS..
SAP AH..
SIAKK ORG TAK BUAT PAPE KAT KAU, ABEY NK CARIK PASAL..

WADZ WRONG WIF TIZ PEEPZ..
IM TRYING TO LIVE MY LIFE OUT ABEY NK POTONG RYHTHM..
DARIPADE KAU TAGG AKU STAKAT NK TANYE AKU BENDA MEPEK..
PUAS HATI CAKAP DEPAN2 AKU KN..
SAPE2 KAU EH..
JUZ MIND UR OWN BUSINESS LA..
JAGE TU DIRI BAIK2..




PEACE YAW!!!

yaw..
im freeaking out..
i hate to say tiz bt..
all guys are da same eventualli..
i haf to admit dat ppl make mistakes..
yeah..
like me..
i shudnt haf done it..
everytime i tried to tink of it..
my parents face appears in ma mind..
i cant bear seeing them sad like dat..
especially my dad..
is having on satisfy another's heart..
or lust??
y muz der be one if all u need is juz love..
y muz u give it if u juz wan pamper tat is lost??
i sometimes wonder how these ppl cn live wit sins around them..
dont they think of Him animore..
well..i do, of course..
i wud realli wanna change ma course of life..
juz dat things happen too much around me..
i can bear it maself..
am i talking to much?
neh..

hmm..
i cant be sighing all day long..
im feeling like juz stay at home.. take care of mumy..bt at da same tyme..
umy allow me to got there..so juz enjoy my day der..
am i making a mistake?coz i haf a bad feeling as to wad gonna hapen on a later day..

hey..
im bored..
sick and tired of waiting and being patient enuf..
i felt like im being test on my patience..
test in any way la..
im looking in my life naw..
and i see shits all around me..
i want to clean these mess up..
but, i felt like im not da one who's suppose to..
its them..
bt as a human being with feelings,
i feel guilt to even think bout it..
let it if i would want to tell it..

i may sound merepek
but im actually telling off my feelings..
i cant stand it anymore..
but im suppose to be patient..
so ya..
im giving my best to give and take..
i will never cause any inconvenience arnd me..
let it be peace..
im heppi with things are..

hey..
im bored.. and its thursday nite..
im fucking bored..
msged by but i think he's drunk..
coz he msg me tellin me tat he drunk..
well.
i replied tellin him dat if he's ok already onli den he cn msg me..
hmm..
so im kinda waiting fer his msg or call actuali..
yeah.. i juz gotta noe bout mirAH..
she's feeling guilty... bout wad? i dunno..
she havent told me bout dat yet..
but certainly bout her wan..
hmm..

well..
tomoro im supppose to go out..
i need an outing coz i skipped skul today..
malas ah.. gd thing i didnt came coz latha was late again and it was all slacked..
hmmm...
yey me!
k..
tomoro im suppose to temaning farhah to her interview..
but jah told me dat im suppose to meet her at 4 at chai chee..
i dunno la.. see ah if im able to wake up early..
den i wud teman farhah.. if not.. i'll wait till 4 fer jah2..
kk..
im going back to watch who's line isit anyway..

tata..