mangkok sia..
tak habis2 aku kene saman..
ape? tak cukop2 pe..
haiz, partly my fault oso la..
tapi da bagos2 im cutting down smoking..
was realli sincere to quit..
like, i can make it man without smoking in weeks..
at least i cud try..
wad hapen last two days was..
wanted to cip in money to help nurul buy cigges..
i dun mind cipping n i dun smoke at all..
but tot again.. y not haf da last few puffs or last ciggs..
so we smoked..
and we chose da perfect place to smoke...(im being sarcastic)
haha..
well.. aru stengah sia.. skali cikgu disiplin tangkap..
sial la..
ngan nurul2 skali kene..
anyway nurul if u read tiz.. its not ur fault ok syg.. dun blame urself..
things juz hapen the way its suppose to be..
maybe bcoz of karma..
yea.. ni smue ah sal fadly.. knowing that tiz wud hapen to me i wont give him hopes sia.. honest mistakes uh..(k seriously part fadli ni.. mmg takde kene mengene ngan
kene tangkap sap rokok.. mmg takde link langsong.. haha)
ok..
well..
today cum to skul cpg lesson..
ja0p lagi break tyme aku n nurul kene gi jumpa head course, mr seah..
hoped noting bad like kene saman again wud hapen la..
hmm.. insyallah.. hope so la..
hmm.. aku lak nga dtg bulan.. lambat sia.. sot sak otak.
tu takpe.. kene malam smalam.. n i haf to endure da stoopid\
cramps all da way in skool today.. wad a day man..
but,
realised sumting today..
aku mcm tak rasa takot ke bingit ke.. furstly bcoz of nk kene jumpa seah..
n another thing is, aku lupa bwk ezlink(and my ic)..
haiz..
sakit sak perot.. shit uh..
kk gtg.. chaw..

aniways..
got to noe sum guy name zulfadly..
nice guy..
super funni..
well..

hmm..
wher shud i start furst??
well.. gt bad news bout fie..

nie la kan.. budak2 da takder keje suka carik pasal ngan member..
ah, umor je makin meningkat.. tapi prangai lagik mepek dari budak2 kecik...
haiyo..
one thing, lau org bbual sal org lain. yg kau terasa tu apasal???
nampak sah kau guilty of sumting kan..
da tau kau buat salah tu take da fact je ah kau tu mepek..
ape??! MALU? tau pon malu... da tau asl buat gitu?
huh.. sape yg suroh buat gitu??
nampak je mcm budak baik.. dpn org smue ckp baik.. smpai org junjung kau...
tapi ini per kau bikin? haiz.. kesian kan..
ni nama nye siapa makan cili dia yg terasa pedas.. haha..
pls la.. lau nk setel pon, setel uh sendiri.. asl nk kene tarik2 org..
abey yg krg smue mcm side dia tu kenapa?? i dun get it..
kate dia da bukan member??? tapi asl back-up dia?? ape? dapat per setiap malam...
haiz.. ker sal tak dpt..
i dunno la.. fer wad i noe.. sebagai member QIL aku akan back up member aku..
another thing..
krg lau da tak suka si dekni asl tak tarik diri je? asl kene bbual mepek2 blakang dekni? abey bile dekn i ader.. krg bukannya nk sound dia.. smue step baik.. mepek uh!! kalau mmg da benci sgt ngan dia, asl tak kua je? asl ber-dua muka dgn dekni...
byk ehk crite sal krg.. prangai tak ubah seperti budak yg belum matang.. prangai hypocrite siak.. i dun get u ppl uh..
aku kesian kn org yg tertua kat situ.. kalau kau mmg anggap drg mcm adek2 kau.. sepatut nya kau bimbing drg.. bukan dgn kau skali terjerumus dalam hal ni..
haiz.. padahal krg ramai members.. lau kat luar lau krg jalan together2.. kan lawa da mcm satu family.. jg bilang aku semenjak dia buih krg abey krg benci dia?? haiz..
ni confem ade org ketiga.. tu pasal smue berubah btol takk?? haiz...
i reali dunno wad to say sey..
i juz pity dekni...
ppl juz tak tau kenang jasa budi org... tak guna jadi manusia...
haiz.. i juz pity da guy dat haf to see this everyday of his life..

nie siape2 yg bace.. abey terasa jgak.. tu krg pey pasal..
lau tak tau crite, b uat hal tak tau k.. takmo pandai2 buat hal ehk..
last warning sak ngan krg yg da tau crite yg involve in this matter..
lau aku dgr crite sal fie or sape2 yg involve QIL.. watch out..
ley bbual per.. tapi dpn2 uh.. takmo blakang2 okay!!!
dun be a bitch.. and dun be mepek..
be urself..

these are some cool braids i saw over da internet..

been bz wif skul..
actuali aku mcm malas nk gi skola coz..
skola slalu start kol 8 abey abes kol 4 la.. kol 5..
mcm mepek gitu kn..
abey lau blaja all da way n fun takpe..
nie.. skejap blaja.. skejap tak.. n not fun at all..
i admit dat i've not been close to my ite frens..
coz.. i dunno y..
hmm.. sumtimes their jokes i dun understand but i laugh along.. haha..
ok la..
den...
been hot nowadays.. making me sicker.. shit sia.. skejap sejuk.. skejap panas..
random giler seyy cuace..
well..
been not contactting fadhly coz.. i realli malas..
seriously, i dun see him as a lover.. but as a frenly love..
hmm.. how to say it man!!
damn it...
den..
been lepakking wif farhah an aisyah juz naw.. meet hannah fer a while.. den member chao.. blaja o level pon mcm bukan blaja.. haha...
pract dance wif farh n sya.. fer their nurses day audition..
den me bored. go webbie check out some cool braidings..
later another blogg i show ayte..
well..saw aisyah basyir and fateha.. drg furst yr infocom..
haha.. terkejot skejap aku..
haha..

well.. back to skul again..
since last week aku sakit tak dtg skola mc 2 hari..
well..
i did a gd job in shifting my bed and lappie..
its like a room makeover..
kk.. not tat makeover la.. juz mengalih2 kn benda je..

naw im skul doing tiz freaking dmt subject..
kinda boring.. all about computer again..
but its a gd thing its not latha.. naseb la ms ho..
although she can be realli irritating..
but nvm..


kk gtg.. kene bikkin sum stuffs..

guess wad..
nari is da big day fer abg azmi..
haha...
our hard work payed off today..
smue da handsome2.. especially moi partner..
and am.. and amar.. and my loved bro.. fendi..
haha.. kite practice2 sampai berpeloh2..
fie.. farhah and aisyah.. u ppl did a gd job yea..
walaupon pada kite dance cock up...
abg azmi ckp perfect.. haha..
padahal. dia nga makan sey biler kite nga joget..
macam paham la dia..
well..
after all of da embarassment and cock ups..
we had a gd meal.. okay la.. sedap jugak.. at least better den da day b4..
nasi putih?? ape sey..
abey tu takpe.. time ertunda-tunda.. mepek2..
karaoke sana sini..
kite gi tempat gelap jap..
practice lagu church, get loe, bounce..
pass tu.. kite gi jumpa fendi kat dj pey tempat..
aisyah kene nyanyi. haha.. had fun.
den.. patah balek umah fendi.. tunggu dia pack2 stuffs fer ns..
den patah balek lagi kat dj..
kau pey penat aku..
den tak habis habis drg nyanyi.. naik giler sak aku.
pey la pening.. memang la suaranya sedap.. tak bedek..
but berpadah2 la.. haiyo..
den..
took picture wif abg azmi again.. wif all da LWS..
den salam2.. den chaw..
we took cab wif abg fendi to pasriris.. anta dia gi ns..
den.. salam fie.. took mrt wif farhah..
dalam mrt.. farhah n me mcm lapar gitu kn.
so da turon bedok, kite gi inspirasi beli mkn..
farhah beli mee rebus.. i bought mee soto..
well.
balek tros makan.. pey la pedas.. but standard.. maseh ley tahan ok..
haha...
den waiting fer abg fendi to msg bout da gst offset thingy, member tak msg..
so i end up sleeping..

wake up fer a while..
eat sum titbits den naw nga nk tdo alek..
so yea..
bye.. chaw..

well..been sick as per normal..
kepale mabok..
i think ders sumthing wrong wif me..
coz i've been having headache since last week..
its eiher sumthing wrong wif ma brain or my body is juz weak..
hmm..
well..
woke up quite late..
mandi all..
den teman my mum go tekka go see her gelang..
den.. me n mum went to mustafA center to search fer da flower clip..
but mahal gila seyy..
satu clip gitu cost $6.90..
wadda hell sey.
den.. took cab home.. kpale pening giler seyy..
den.. singgah khan saab's shop.. mum minom teh jap..
den go b uy sum stuffs at kwong seng shop..
den go home..
on da way home terserempak wif nizam.. haha.. abg wati..
aniway.. da perfomance is juz realli arnd da corner.
hope no cock-ups..
hmm.. i jz remembered.. i bought gelang india fer 10bucks..
well lawa la.. but i plan to buy more..
den im gonna change my room image soon la..
tunngu da baik sakit den i'll do.
bsok tak skola..
nari tak skola..
wow.. its like im having another 1 week xtra holiday..
haha..
well..
later lpas maghrib gotta help aunty tulis kad jemputan.. yea..
k la.. gotta go. pening sakk..
bye..

seriously..
today is such a fucking bad day..
aku keje da tak btol..
at least bile aku sampai tempat dance atleast dance la ehk..
ni tak.. smue buat muke taik..
pikir aku suka pe..
yg satu, aku tak nk point fingers or sebut2 ah..
buat muka taik tak sudah2..
haiyo..
fer once wen i joined tiz team is bcoz i tot u ppl
are matured enuf to dance with and make ur own decision..
but my my.. i sympathy u ppl.. tsk tsk.. cant even make a gd impression of urself..
tu takpe.. i can let it go ah..
fer once i tot the day wud go well..
abg fendi ajak gi bowling.. den saw lisaa.. den we tot nothing wud go wrong..
coz she was wif two other guys.. tau la fendi mane suka..
den there was a commotion.. den dat boy gi stare abg azmi.. kau wrong person sak..
umor aru stengah jagong.. haiz..
den.. we go bugis n eat.. thanks to abg fendi.. he blanje me n others makan...
coz he wanna make it up to us.. TAK MCM SESETENGAH ORG YG TAK TAU JAGE HATI ORG,
KITE JUGAK YG KENE AMEK HATI DIA.. JUZ PISSED ME N OTHERS OFF!!
tu takpe..
den bile kite nga haf fun lam bus.. kite kekek2.. realli thousands n million kisses n thanks to fifie n farhah... they make my night seyy..
abey bile da turon bus..
sumone msged farh..
smue macam salahkan kite seyy..
ape nie.. man! i was blowing out of my mind sia..
man! ppl! are guys been FORCED to dance in thiz dance??
if u guys are.. den dun bother to dance la.. we're not forcing anione sia..
btw if u guys are being forced.. y accept.. haiz..
well..
like there's a quote frm sum ppl "its all days of our lives.. we cant blame others.. juz blame ourselves.. wad to do.. its life wad.."
wadda tuuut....


well.. sape2 yg membace ni.. harap anda tak terasa..
dun worii.. we wont make da same mistake like wad we are doing naw..(dancing wif unknown ppl in da first place)
hmm.. wad is passed means passed.. lau aku ader buat silap dgn krg..
harap dimaafkan..
i forgive u..
but fer some egoistic ppl whu thinks they never make mistakes.. go get a fucking life.. ur OLD enuf to think wads gd n bad..
well..
realli... i've tried my best..

well..
guess wad..
da beli!!..
new dunks beb..
haha...
well..
now i feel more relief..but i haven buy barbell la seyy..
cam ne nie..
haiyoo..
need to buy!! dun care if i dun eat....
but must bo pian beli jugak...
hmph..
bsok keje... abes kol 3..
kene tros gi queensway..
hmmm..
mane sakk nk beli.... hmm..
well... but bsok must buy!!
kk..
hmm..
two more days till skul reopens...
baju mane aku letak ehk?? hmm..
den kene gosok lagi.. haiyo..
penat sakk..
kk... i need to go bikin schedule fer my week..
bye!

DAMMIT..
IT HAS BEEN LIKE 3 DAYS STRAIGHT IM SICK..
well..
my stomach haf been giving ma probs...asyek2 kene gi toilet..
den my nose n my throat.. is rather sore..
da tadi buang kahak da kuning takpe... abey ade darah skit la..
haiz..
mak aku da sound aku.. its as if she noes i smoke.. coz my symtoms is so da smoker..
juz came back frm work..
later gonna tok on da phone wif fad..
well.. me n him okok la..
but to think more than dat.. im not readi yet...
well i still have like 7 yrs of enjoyment..
haha..
sat gt dance pract..
me n farhah plan to wear da dance pants..
man! we're gonna look hot..
firm ass..
wakakak..
den tomoro im not werking..
im going to buy shoe.. not ani shoe.. but nike dunk beb..
must buy sia!! if not... i wont go to skul..
hehe..
toking bout skul..
im left wif three days till skul reopens.
hmm..
gt maself a new bag.. shoes!
hmm.. im changing my image thiz module..
hope im gonna like it..
well toking bout changing image..
may hair now realli sux la...
da sblah pendek.. abey grow lambat..
sttoopid sakk..
hope gonna grow faster, longer and thicker..
k takmo pikir mepek2 ehk..
hee..
k la..
chaw..
gtg..
bye..

well.. guess wad..
my colleage named zhang yun.. chinaman..
confessed that he liked me..
haha..
kekek la sia..
i realli tercengang siakk..
haha..
after werk..
went home realli quickly den siap2 smue..
den bile part nga tunggu jah..
lambat..
called her.. den she said dat.. fie wanna talk to me..
so we confrenced.. fie ckp tak jadi ah sal tempat tu tutop siang giler..
den mcm wasted kn..
haiyo..
hmm..
i realli dunno ah..
hmph..

so we changed our plans.. went to 32 and lpak fer a while..
actuali b4 dat me n jah gi mkn.. well me alone la..
i ate chicken chop.. not dat mengenyangkan la.. but i juz eat it..
den went 32 to meet up wif fie n farh..
but end up farh turon lambat skit coz dia gi antar comp kat umah shira..
den..
went everyone was der.. we kinda lpak fer a while..
kenangan amek gambar fer straight 4 days was recalled back..
kimak da genap one yr la sey gambar tu.. mcm skejap je da one yr kn..
hmm..
rindu la sey bdk2 bcra..
den yest nampak mat n matair dier.. we talked fer a while..
actuali we met mat after me n fie went "shopping".
haha.. i shopped a half-hooded jacket.. which was kinda cool..
and a black dress.. which was ketat wen i tried on..
haha..
but kinda worth it la..
hmm..
we did manicure.. fer 9 bucks.. kaler lawa but fer me it doesnt last long coz..
im werking remember.. so susah nk jage kuku..
den.. lam train nk alek ternampak dino.. our ex-bcra.. haha.. he's like da realli old timer nye bcra la seyy.. wow.. realli glad to meet him.. but i doubt that he saw us..
teringat dulu.. dia la yg ajar aku cam mane nk sumbat R1 and R2 kt lam cart BC..
haha.. kenangan beb.. den dat stoopid mat go n talk bout peicai.. haha..
kinda miss hym la.. da jokes we made dulu.. haiz.. wadd a night..
den..
kinda went home and sleep.. yeah..

well.. aku tau da lame aku tak blogg..
but wad to do..
da bz keje.. dance lak tu..
hmm.. i try not to be mia in blooger ayte!!
outs!

well..
today was such a long day..
bangon je mandi.. breakfast koko krunch...
den went meet farhah n fie..
dance practice beb...
kene joget ngan habiel wakakakaka..
eye contact dia maut beb..
gua tak ley angkat sakk!!
HAHA..
den after dance i went to munchy donut werking beb..
den at 9 gitu fie n farhah went to munchy donut..
isap rokok ngan drg jap den went to werk back..
haha..
farhah told me sum funny story..
kekek sakk..
farhah u noe i noe..
zhang yun realli make my day..
sad to say dia da ade gf..
dia suka nah kacau aku tau..
pentan sane pentan sini...haiz.. abey nk buat aku jatoh..
dia suka ckp "beautiful girl"..
haha... pantat..

naw da bis keje im at home..
mak aku masak sotong tinggal skit jer..
tapi aku bersyukor ade makanan di umah ku ini...
amin..
den tok on da phone wof fie n jah skejap..

i dunno y but naw im thinking bout 3 guys..
fadhly...
habiel... and
zhang yun...

kimakk gotta go siakk..
kk pape bsok malam aku blogg lagi ya..
bsok tak keje.. off..
going shopping wif my mum..
bye..