idk man.
sumtimes when u thought that things wud go the way u wanted..
it doesnt at all.
even though u pray day and night yea.. it still not gonna change.
well.

to farhah:
i juz hoped u do ur best on tuesday. juz pray hard that u wud pass this phase test.
juz dun think that its gonna be thy end of ur life k. maybe there's a gud thing to y this happens la.
juz enjoy urself. loosen up abit. u've been stressing too much. nanti gt wrinkle da tk vouge lagik..(kk sumpah tkde link).. so yea.
the main purpose to y maybe jah wanna go out tomoro is maybe dia nk relax everyone la.
coz puase is juz arnd the corner kn. sumpah i tot that this actual plan gonna werk out.
but nvm though. its juz the way it is huh..
i feel kinda pissed but im not.
seriously.
maybe bcoz we planned to go karaoke fer soooo long but end up like this.
ok la. i mean i oso kinda broke la. but at least watching movie wud be ok kn.
lama tau kita da tk kua sama2..
yes i noe its not like we're tearing apart la.. (sound soo les) but.. its juz dat.
i dun see us going out together anymore.. where's all da laughter we had?? where's all da fun dose we had yest?? well. i noe ppl have been bz la. with skul n everything.
k im understanding. i noe. sigh!
i really thought that tomoro im gonna bring u guys meet rony.
well. fer several attempt of meeting up with rony, always failed.
no matter wad tomoro.. im still going out.
im not gonna make this mood of mine conquer my day tomoro.
yes. SITI DUN GIVE UP!
i dun care if its rain or wtvr.. im still gonna mit him.

ok i noe ur gonna make it up to us. okok.

to jah:
i dun care if things juz doesnt goes the way it is ok.
i juz hoped that WE, me u n farhah and hannah..
are as close as yest (not literally)..
and i noe that u r trying very hard to make things werk.
juz have faith ok girl. dun stop trying. hey u oso a SITI.
soo.. DUN GIVE UP.
but if u really dun wanna go. juz tell me k.
juz dun make me wait fer plans.. or make me wait fer u to reply da msg..
"hey bsok jadi ke tk??"
i dun wan answers like "aku tk tau uh. tanyer farha.. dadada.."
i wan to noe are u on or not.
ok. i think u told me ryte tomoro u werking with ur makcik?
so yea. if ur tired or no mood. juz tell me k?



so yea
THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS..
im sad la.. serious shit la.
coz I TOOK DA DAMN OFF FRM WERKING JUZ TO SPEND TYMES WITH U PPL.
I EVEN TOLD THEM. I MEAN LIE. SAYING MY RELATIVE SAKIT TENAT.
LIKE WTH KN. SO YEA.
I JUZ HOPED MY "LIE" JUZ PAYS OFF.
but is it worth it? yea maybe. haha. coz maybe rony ade.
but lau ngan rony2 skali tk jadi??
mangkok siak aku!!!
gi wayang uh srg.
and i mean seriously...

k. seriously.
today was fun2. but i was kinda cranky la.
coz panas giler sia.
sot je aku.
dari tk slekeh smp slekeh.
and wen we went fer thy excursion.
skali terserempak ngan..
Luke. Anisah Jerry, syazwani..
hmm..
pey ramai budak skola kt situh.
ishk!
so yea. bukan kite dapat naik pas tuh rounding spore.
eleh. but it was cool shit la.
so yea.
at last dpat naik bus.. balek skola.
tros balek.
and infact kt bustop nampak wakk kang wit the gurl.
haha. kekek la drg. mcm tk kene.
so yea.
kt lam bus. nurul mcm siak. gt tiz "young nyonya"
i belive is retarded. the moment she step into da bus, she sat and mumbled sumthing.
skali nurul ter-giggle. ape lagi. kekek siak. aku tahan jer sia ketawe.
abey teringat "kau yg ku kata syg" lagu ya allah!.. haha.. kite mepek2 la.
fid da ketawe kekek2.. jg ketawe la krg. at last dia yg ter blast sendiri.
haha.

my day was great la.
overall.

k now i noe.
nurul gt told me once bout tiz sumone..
well now i noe wad u meant.
ala. u noe i noe.. they dunno. maybe lily noe.
so yea
sumtimes ppl juz think that da whole world revolve arnd them,
so wadever they think kononnyer btol la kn.
well..
sumtimes we dun mean to criticize ppl..
but we juz wanted it to look like a "joke"..
mayb sumtimes we and i mean WE go overboard la.
but. we had fun rite. mane tau drg pon kutuk2 kite kn kn kn??
wadever happen we r sorry fer it la.
juz dun take it too hard yaw. take a chill pill..

we live to haf fun ryte??


aniways.
i'd study hard in skul juz naw.. hohoho..
so yea. mcm semangat gituh tau.
sad nurul wasnt there to study with us.
aniways i wonder how her court thingy goes..
okok.
in fact juz now in class.
sid was bored la.
so i started giving them jokes.
wow first tyme nampak bob ketawe rabak2.. kiut kaper.
haha.
lily u noe i noe eh...
haha!!

the joke of da day:
"there's a robbery happened at a bank.
thy only eye-witness was this mamak techincian.
he was repairing da atm machine wen it all happened.
so wen police was investigating...
tiz particular malay police asked this mamak technician
"kau nampak ni smue berlaku? drg bawak lari duit dalam kereta.
kau nampak dia nyer licence plate number tak??"
so tiz mamak happens to understand him but dunno how to reply in either malay or english language la.
so he juz nodded..
the policeman asked again..
"apa license plate number dia??"
as he only knew some malay werds.. he replied..
" Lapan Takda Habis. Satu Tiga Yea!. Pat tada Pat tada. Itu Church Pey Atas.."
(tiz was da part where he laughed soo kiut-ly.. haha. ni uh sid da blast dulu. paisey siak aku..
and si haprak tu was kinda ciut uurrggh! hehe..)
Question: so wad was the plate number????

haha. wen u noe already tell me kk??
haha. funny.
yg pasal gorrilla uh kekek giler.
haha. i can feel like my face merah. haha..
kk.
aniway after skul went sim lim square.
trade-in bro's monitor.. den mama bought himself a 630 bucks lappie.
haha. aiyoo! now tiga2 beradik da ade lappie. mangkok.
den da best part..
mama bought 3-in-1 printer!! woohoo!!
heppi siot.
now da ley buat aniting at home.
tk ya gi kedai. ehhe.
pemalas mcm babi tol!

aniways. nk jumpa rony ke tk eh?
haiyo.
bad day la.

ouh.
i was awaken by da ringtone of my phone.
was wondering since wen i set my alarm.
checked my phone and it was fluffy who called.
allah! aku pey sot. kol 623 am tau.
kimak boiling jap aku. aku buat bodoh. aku silent hp aku.
den he called me twice again. siallah aku sot tau.
den it rained..
wahh..
best sia tdo. mcm babi.
bgn kol 1 or 2 plus uh. haha.. kecoh kn.
i ate many stuff today.. hehe. was reali hungry la.
today is ma hindustan movie marathon. haha.
was fcuking bored la.
watched:
Josh.. shahrukhan acted.
Na Tum Jaano Na Hum.. esha deol and hrithik roshan acted.

wel.
i think im gonna eat stoopid stuff again.
gtg. i'll blogg soon yea.
bsok skola.

hey hey..
guess wad??
today was fun-day..
met up hannah at whitesands. bought fusion berry cheesecake and himalayan tea frappe
and hannah bought herself oreo cheesecake and caramel frappe..
later on jah met us at mac oso. kesian dia, tunggu kite 15 min aha. sorry jah.
skali teringat. we can go mac cafe kat downtown sey.. haixx.
eventually we went downtown and eat summore.
haha.. in da middle of that..
me n hannah had thiz guy conversation.
bout having a guy name..
mepek2 uh kite make-up..
haha... tiz da result..
Jah - Ijad (guy name) Ijad_sparrow(mat rep name)
Hannah - Han (guy name) Han_achik(mat rep name)
Farhah - Farj (guy name) Farj_kecik(mat rep name)
Me - Afad (guy name) Afad_spade(mat rep name)

kimak name btol2 pey typical mat rep..
wakaka. meraps kann????!!!

well.. so yea.
we went downtown nyer mac cafe.
bought thy sandwhich. puki pey org..
dia pikir aku tk tau. they gave us da multi-grain bread.
but supposingly they're suppose to give thy foccacia bread unless we ask to change la..
when i ask y they give us da multigrain bread.
the person replied.. "urrm today is like dat.."
-____________________-""""
dia pikir aku ni baru beranak semalam per sia.
omg da bread so not tempting at all!!
ahha. tapi kerana lapar sgt.. we did finish it all.
haha.
later the pixx i put up kk.
so after that we studied fer a while..
maklum hannah and jah amek their o and n level.. aku pon mcm sibok2 tolong buat maths kn.
padahal tk tau. step macam paham la.. ahah.
skali nurul kol tanyer coffee bean yg paling dekat ngn national library kt ne.
so i said.. kt bugis sane.
den short while later she msg.. dgn penuh confidence..
"pack sia.. tkda org."
aku mcm ter-stunn jap. eh da kate pack pastu tkde org??
haha. skali dia reply.. ouh maksud aku pack. ramai org.
haha. jah nampak msg tuh jah ketawe kekek2..
so.. after that we teman hannah go to hai sing sec sch.
supposingly she's gonan take her o level eng oral.
skali dpt tau its at 2 pm. but she came at 430 pm.
omg! how careless can she be.
cheered her up. went chai chee lepak n tunggu amirah there.
farhah and zana came short while after me jah n anna reach 32.
kimak drg basah kuyup. ahah.
farhah went home tukar bju, zanah go meet ted.
so lpak at 32.. amirah came with nasi ayam and satay.. kecoh sia.
da mkn.. kite mkn lagik. haha..
da kenyang kite chill. today farhah gt a bit slow..
haha. maybe penat sgt kn.
skali arrive thiz 2 abg2 with "Harley-shaped" bicycle..
kewl la sia. tayar da mcm tayar motor.
skali check2 KHALID was member drg!! omg first tyme face-to-face ngan dia.
senyum lak tuh!! omg!! si papan nie..
haha..
lpak till 9 plus den go home.

wad a tiring day.
many stuff happen la.. juz dat i malas nk blog panjang2..
aniways.
bsok "keje"
go tgk bunga api.
hoped to enjoy!
maybe rony turon!!

(: bought bju yg ada gigi tuh!!

Aku nk sgt2 tgk criter ni..
aiyoo..
crite tajuk Best Friend?
haaa..
ni criter bout tiz two girls..
frm two diff werlds..
They end up becoming bestfrens..
but did they took their friendship too seriously??
or they juz plain les??
hahaha.. tu la.
im curious.
aku nk tgk sal aku nk tau kesudahan criter tuh.!!
dammit! muz find da cd or dvd!!
urrggh!!

meanwhile.. while searching fer the movie online....

Saw thiz movie... nampak mcm best kn..
ni kisah2 cinta ni smue.. ish!
u shud watch this movie la.
best jugak.
very sedih.
but a bit complicated. aku sendiri tk paham sgt.
but overall i give *** 3 star je.

(: enjoy..

well today as per normal wakey2..
730 alarm rang. but snoooze till 8.
skali check2 tyme kol 830. ahah. aku gi snooze my tyme till 8 pm.
wth!!
luckily i was in tyme fer skul.
rony called. he's at polyclinic. aww. kesian deylo.
sakit yer??
kk. den..
masok class da sejuk. tot of bringing my jacket skali takot panas..
so juz bear with it la.
lesson as per normal. ms ho katekn.
her short ans question is soooooooo not-short ans.
haha. babi tol.
so yea aniway. sumone... like reali sumone cut thy hair. omg! ahha.
lily and nurul.. n sid.. u noe i noe yeah!!
hehe. so... did lots of qusetion. i juz hoped i pass my exa dats all.
insyallah dpt masok poly. even if i dun wan to... -_-"
i was waiting fer farid to cum skul. ahha. nk rokok aku pey pasal.
den at last da dpt. check2 tinggal 5 jer.. waliau! i contribute money byk sey.
but nvm la. lesson to be made.
kk.
saw kamal otw home. its like.. Kamal! class da bis sia. takpe2 gi amek kau nyer test.
haha. btol la ni anak ni.
aniways. saw shamir twice today. his face is soo the "goggle-guy" frm pendeks clan.
hahahx..

went home. saw mama karaoke-ing srg2. ate. den checked my tagged and friendster.
haha guess wad!
taufiq katak view aku. kimak member makin tembam per. or shud i say da naik badan!!

haha.. kekek uh. nk step shy2 mane konon. piiddaaHH!!
ni da bukan katak siak ni turtle.
hehe.
hmm.. i wonder hows jah doing kt mac cafe tuh eh. hope all thy best to her.
ouh ya!
today i keje. im werking.
frm 6 till 11. gosh! macam tk nk gi skola bsok.
but wtheck. gi jer la. CPG muzz complete. although i da anta everything.
so take a chill pill yall.

aite. i'll blog soon aite.
(:



YESTERDAY STORY:
aniways yest i watched this indonesia movie. radit and jani.
my gosh so exciting. bt so sad. kesian la.
the sacrifices they made fer each other.. no one can beat that.
gosh. ratings ***** 5 stars!
tiz only include those who love indon movie yea!

haha. actuali today skul.
but....
bcoz yest we finished our phase test.. so class mcm no one wanna go ryytee??
so yea.
den tomoro, skool at ite bedok. my gosh.
dat skul again..
haha.
well i realli need to go coz, i realli wan ms ho to go thru da answer fer thy test paper.
i realli wanna score well sia.
i mean like i flung every paper fer this module sia.
omg! i realli nid to buck up siak.
kk. fer wad i noe, my phase test i did very well.
but as fer my theory, i realli nid to study hard la.
i need to maintain da 3.2 gpa la.. like sapa sia nk flung..
okok.
so yea. i've scheduled my study weeks
frm 25 to 31.. i nid to concentrate on dmt stuffs..
den frm 1st till 7.. i nid to concentrate my nms..
naseb multimedia ade 2 subject aje. tk yah aku nk gi pecah kepale blaja.
insyallah! i pass tiz module yea?? i juz hoped even if i do badly, my gpa tk turon below 3..

k so yea.
today i woke up at 1230. msged jah. ate bee hoon soto wif mama.
den go out. pikir nk gi bedok corner but smue da mkn
so juz meet up with hannah and jah at bedok phone booth.
rounding2 kat bedok. i bought myself new mascara. ahha. teringin.
den walk our butts off to 32..
skali check2 farhah bwk turon aisyah, faz and fadh.
haha. da sedap drg lpak ngan kite??
hehe. enjoy my tyme with them.
den.. we plan uh tiz sat gi tgk bunga api..
my gosh! tk sabar sey, farhah was like wondering wad to wear.
haha. kekek la.
den fadh and aisyah da balek. lpak ngan ted and faz.
haha. fun ppl la.

aniways!! i gt a joke.

there's this father and son wanted to go overseas..
they need to take plane there.
so they travel frm their place right to their destination la..
den wen they land at that particular place..
there's this pilot shouts "hey that's my son"
Question: what is da relationship between the pilot and the son???

think hard yaw!!
da tau answer dia diam2 eh!
if u dunno feel free to ask me personally.. ehhehe..(:

ps: da joke is actuali realli straightforward la.
a IQ test. if ur smart u'll noe da answer. haha.

hey yaw.
so yea.
y bother bout my life?
why view my blog if u juz love to tagg about ur "opinion"??
y call me a desperado if u dun even noe bout me?
dun u haf a better things to do?
i bet ur life sux fucking 100 times worst then mine..
if not y hate tagg?
haha.
tak ku sangka ade jugak org mcm kau idop lam dunia nie eh?
like hey! i dun hate u ppl, y hate me??
i dun make enemies.. y make one with me?
if one day i gotta noe who u are.. juz see wad i cn do yea.
well..
all i noe is dat.
tiz ma blog. i post what i feel.
call me names or curse me wadever shit. i dun give a damn.
coz to me all hate taggers are juz too coward to talk face to face.
action speak louder than words aite!!
so yea.
gth with ya.
im heepi. so dun be fucking kpo. prangai takmo mcm mak nyer!


aniways my day today was okey,
except fer layan-ing soo many customers..
lots of stuffs to do..
bsok 2.4 nye run.
so yea. i nid to rest..
hope i pass.
peace out!!

wow.. long tyme tk blog..
haha..
aniways.. have not been werking fer thy last few days..
haha. went kubor yest.
visit my dad.. well.. still miss him..
so yea..
den after dat, jumpa jah n farhah.
at a later day, i meet up with LUKE!!
haha.. soo skinny.. yet so weird. soo loikkee..
haha.
he's a fun guy la.. seriously. i feel comfortable. juz maybe da tyme not yet.
so yea..
aniways we go watch the mummy3 ..
haha. crite okok uh. i slept fer a while. ahha. tu pon luke mcm ckp"eh u tdo eh?"
haha. skali terbangun den i say.. urrmm no la..
haha..
den we go bedok south lpak jap. storyy2..
hehe..
aniways i miss rony.
haha.
i sense im like falling in love wth him. but
i realli wanna meet him!! must make a day with him.
haha.
so yea.
all da guys i used to contact. most of them da attch. i mean recently la.
wahh.. all the best u guys!!
haha..
so yea..
wens my turn??
i dunno lei.

aniways! bsok napfa. lari 2.4 km!!
haha
must be ready fer it! i bet mayb fid, sid or nurul da standby gi jogging ker..
haha. lily? entah lak eh??
haha...
wel meet u peeps tomolo.
nari keje. frm 5 till 11.. gosh!!
okok gtg.!

i'll blog soon!

helo..
u noe wad tiz had suck a bad week fer me..
well. after i was left hanging.. he end things up..
ok i can take it.. i dun mind.. but suddenly he msg n kol me..
mcm tkde pape gitu.. eh siall la.. prangai tkmo mc pukimak bley tk??
haiyo.. den da maki2 aku..
dia ckp ape..
dia nk baik2 ngan aku, aku yg prangai.. waduh sedapnyer bahasa tuh..
eh. kau yg end things up.. abey nk take bck ur werd? eh nono hunney.. no such things..
well..
so moving on. i was afraid that i wud see him in skul..

kk in between of that..
i gt to noe thiz guy name hazwan* not a real name*..
i kinda like him. seriously. tot that me n him cud make it.
but suddenly one day he went pissed with me.. waduh!
aku pon peng uh. siall la. da kenape sia ngan lelaki2 ni smue??
tk puas2 per nk sakit kn hati aku?
eh.
den tkpe.. dia mintak maaf smlm..
he said wad.. that he was soori. he didnt noe wad he was doing.
he said sorri again and again. so yea.. i forgive.
(am i a gd forgiver? or am i juz being too nice?????)
gosh!...
den bout rony.. he soo cute.. i soo like him haha..
luke?? well.. i was touched by his werds la smalam.. eheh.
fer once la, he tok or shud i say sweet talk me.. haha.. kekek uh dia.
so yea.

den! tiz morning afetr nms lesson..
im suppose to go canteen.
and becoz of tiz.. my mood went down..
kk.. here wads hapen..
sumpah i ddnt see him cuming towards my way..
dia halang aku. sial la.
den he was like." asl u avoiding i?" puki la..
den i said hey! u said it already.. den aku move to the ryte dia ikot. to the left, dia ikot jugak..
u get wad i meant?? haiizz..
den he was like. eh takot per. aku nk ckp aje!
den i said. sape takot. den he said. tk tkot sini uh!
den i juz give my peace sign.. and juz walk off..
as i was mumbling and pissed off.. dok kt canteen nampak sai.
den sai ckp. kau da tk contact dia lagik? i said yea. dia prangai mcm pukimak.
den sai said.. aku nampak dia tegur minah rep tuh..
*i was wondering sape eh.. skali it ticked me!*
sai ckp.. ala pussycatdolls tuh.. haha..
ni confem anisah uh.
haha.. omfg!!!
of all ppl he contact that girl? tk de mata per nk tgk. haha. tk de otak per nk pikir.
haha. i juz couldnt get over it. haha..
so yea. he jollywell noe that everyone hates that girl. seriously.
omg! eh khai. tkmo jadi merepek ley tk. ape? dpt per hari2 ngan dia..

waaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiitttt!!
why am i being so bitchy bout tiz..
kk nvm. well. juz enjoy ur life yaw.
tk de kau pon tkpe. aku maseh ley hidop.
pelan2 aku bley bangun sendiri.. tk mcm kau.
k.
so yea. gd luck.
so much fer "ur thy only one that wud be in my heart forever"
or..
"one day u wud noe why i nid u here beside me.. y i nid u soo much... da da da da.."

gth with that.
luke.. rony.. or sape2 uh.
im on with ya.

haiz..
mendak shia..
skul ends at 430 i guess..
yest mmg patot aku tk gi skola coz yest end at 130...
so yea. den tomoro end at 11. no cpg lesson.
aru pikir sok nk cabot. skali ade test. theory test.
so juz forget bout cabot-ing..

aniways saw elfie juz naw.
she and her usual self..
nk beli ayam 15 kg kape?
isnt dat a bit toooo much??
tell kakak! da giler eh??
hehe.
hope to meet everyone soon on friday!
tak salah im not werking. yea.
omg
tday werking.
im werking at macd cafe kat kallang now.
yes ive quitted airpot BCRA already.
took ma pay. ala. skit je. tot byk.. haixx..
84 bucks on my over times and few bucks on my 5 days.
haix. bursary on the way..
yeap! tomoro! 730 at kaki bukit cc. hey hey.
soo heppi.

urgh. feeling siak now.
crankry sia.
maybe coz sum ppl juz dun bother huh.
let it be uh.


yey! nari keje.

i knew thiz gonna happen..
i knew it one day.
im aware of it actuali.
and i told myself.
if thiz were to happen, i juz hoped im ready.
juz da thing is dat. he's full of fun dose.
i realli enjoyed every single bit of it.
but sayang he juz cant stand a few driftings..
i can see how much patience he has.. he has a few onli.
hmm.. i juz dun noe y am i tearing.
im so disappointed.
ape dia bley suka suka hati testing aku??
abey aku tk ley uh.
tanpa sebab dan alasan kau main kn perasaan!!!
ape nie?
do i deserve thiz all?
after all that promises? wher all that gone thru?
i can see how stoopid i am.
wait fer a guy whom i noe not gonna be mine!
i feel like slapping fafa!!!
im juz so saadd.
he dun haf da balls to tell thiz on da phone. padahal dia slalu yg akan kol aku.
ni tk. he told me off at msn.
i think i juz let this go..
juz let this goo..
now i feel like hugging slenger and badot..
da hujan da lam bilik aku..




thanks fer all thiz.
dun worry i will get over u soon..
i hoped..
wad a life. heartbroken always.



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