FaFa_buZz

this gonna be my last post ppl. pape tkmo carik aku lagi..

2008-10-29T14:34:00.003+08:00

I GIVE UP.
IM SORRY PPL LAU AKU ADE HATE TAG KAU KER..
AKU ADE BBUAL BUROK SAL KRG2 KER.
HARAP DPT DIMAAFKN.
AKU JANJI AKU DA TK NK ADE KENE MENGENA NGAN KWN KRG2 AGI.
AKU ANGKAT PAISEY LAU AKU ADE MENGUPAT SAL SAPE KER.
MAKI HAMUN SAPE2 KER.

AKU MINTAK MAAF ONCE AGAIN.
HARAP FARHAH N JAH PAHAM PRASAAN AKU.
KRG TAKMO LAK NANTI CKP AKU NI TKDE PRASAAN NGAN KWN2 NANTI.
I JUZ HOPE U PPL ARE VERY HEPPI RITE NAW.

COZ I AM.
WAD MORE CAN I ASK FER.
I GT A NICE BF.
2 GREATEST PREZZIE THAT IS FARHAH N JAH.
A WONDERFUL FAMILY.
AND A WHOLE WORLD OF SURPRISES...
THANK YOU ALLAH FER GIVING ME ALL THIS.
FER TESTING ME FOR WHO I AM.
FER SHOWING ME WHOS GD AND WHOS BAD.
AND I NEVER EVER REGRET ANITHING THAT HAD BEEN DONE.
I APRRECIATE ALL THOSE MOMENTS AND THINGS YOU PPL HAVE DONE FER ME.
WHITHOUT ALL THESE TINGS HAPPENING, I WONT BE WHO I AM TODAY!!

someone's in love..

2008-10-28T15:36:00.002+08:00

yeas..
and his name is muhammad raihan bin abdul rahman..
hmm.
seriously,
i muz say i realli loving this feelings.
but sumhow. some stoopid pig once said that he penah like her or sumthing.
but i dunno man.
watever it is, thats da past.
and guess wad..
a fren of mine seriously make my blood rise sia.
how can she do this.
but like i said to farhah, im not mad at her.
i pity her uh.
mengupat sal org.. kau pikir dia suka dgr kau mengupat sal org lain.
ape?? da tk de keje lain per sia kau.
aku diam2 kau naik lemak la.
nk story2 tu kau pey pasal uh.
but telling other ppl outside our circles of frens and story2 pasal sedare2 org.
eh pls eh.
umor da brape.
kau pikir kau maseh budak2 lagi per.
eh! wake up uh sia!!
this is not peter pan's world uh!!!
wake up frm ur world of fantasy..
i noe deep down inside u ur not like this.
nk ckp kurang kasih syg dari family, dah terlalu byk kasih syg drg kasih.
kau jer yg too fussy and mengada-ngada..
well..
watever u do..
gd luck uh.
lau satu hari nanti aku dgr mcm gini lagi,
better make sure kau tkmo nk lari kan diri..

till den.
fafa signing out.

and pls stop toking shit eh!
its very meraps ok.

21st of october 2008...

2008-10-22T13:40:00.002+08:00

woohoo..
i gotta tell u guys sumthing..
hmm..
guess wad..
an sound aku.. haha..

our conversation thru msgs..

an: Fill in the blanks! and send it back to me..
3 things u wont forget bout me..
>
>
>
name u wanna call me
>
The best word that describe me
>
u wanna be my?
>specify:-

itu ape dia anta aku tibe2..
aku pon fill in the blanks uh..
aku ckp..
3 benda aku takkan lupa sal dia..
mata sepet dia, beylo-ness dia, and pantat dia...
a name that i wud call him: my shayang??
The best word that describe him is sepet and pelahap..
i wanna be his: special sumone..

den he said oh ok.. nga buat pe and all.
so i realli didnt see it cuming..
so i forward the msg bck to him..
den he replied.
3 things my eyes smile and face (ehk? aku lupa)
a name he wud call me.. my baby
the word that decribe me his sayang..
>>>u wanna be my? >sepcify:- mine??

den aku mcm shocked gituh la. so yea.
i tot that was juz a stoopid bulletin msg.
so i said. wow u realli mean that??
he said.. yeah.. than??
i said.. than wad??
he said.. think about wad he said la..
(ab aku mcm slow giler uh aku tk paham)
i siad.. about wad? which part??
he siad.. the last part..
(abey aku mcm terstunned skejap..)
i said.. wow.. u realli want me uh?
he said.. yeah..
i said.. ouh if i said yes how?
he said.. if u say yes then im happy lor..
i said.. ok lor. then i shall make u happy then..
he said.. haha.. so its a yes la ni??
i said.. yup2.. eh awak. kite shy2 tau bbual gini..
he said.. hahaha tau takpe u..

haha..
kecoh skejap aku ngan farhah ngan mirah kt bawa blok 32.
haha..
so yea.
he realli made my day.
and seriously.. im loving him rite now.
and dapat tau kwn aku satu ni pon da attch. haha.. mangkok jer aku.
bukan nk bilang.. and year amirah is now with along. and i realli dunno wad to do.
its all up to HIM to decide..

kk la. aku nk layan syg aku tuh.
chaow!

mendak kaper..

2008-10-21T12:15:00.003+08:00

aniway... im in skul rite naw..
mendak giler sia..
cikgu bodoh ni is nowher to be found..
class end at 1 today..
and yet so many latecomers..
hehe..
aniway.
last nite i tok on da phone with chipsmore..
hehe. suare mcm budak2 drugs uh..
hmm.. aniway one thing bad about him is that dia penah lpak ngan
katak, aaron ngan jonny smue dulu..
kau! drg da mmg typical mat rep.. skali si mat roker ni lpak ngan drg..
mcm tk masok skal.
haha,.. kk tu crite lame.. so yea. forget bout it..
aniway..
b4 i tok on the phone with him..
i msg2 ngan sygku RAIHAN..
hmm.. (aku tau mmg tk perlu capslock part nama dia.. i noe i noe..)

maklom la aku da jatoh cinta ngan dia... nanti aku balek aku upload gambar si sepet ni..
haha.. he gt so many nick names.. i gave it to him..
example like sepet, pelahap.. and ade lagi la kn..
hmm.. he's a realli nice boy la..
comes frm a decent family.. gd family background..
(infact this tyme i noe his biodata. so farhah u shud be proud of me.. haha. coz i remember everything about him.. heheh u noe i noe..)
walaupon an quit skul sec2.. he did his n level and gt 10 points. and like shocking he's clever..
so yea..
day by day im falling fer him..
although he's not the type who sweet talks and everything a guy wud do..
something about him i juz love..
and he confessed yest nite he juz love me.. but he duno y.. haha pantat tol...

past stuffs.
saw khai in skul this pass few days..
and it realli spoils my mood fer the day.
lagi2 ngan his sulkish face.. mintak kene tendang jer.
shitty sia.
and guess wad...
i trust the horoscope thingy kt frensta..
and today the horoscope ckp i need to make contact with my past..
and da first thing come in mind is him..
god dammit..
sial tol..
wadda hell..

well.. i juz wanna wait fer thy perfect moment to be with him..
hmm..

and by the way..
chipsmore ajak gi tgk wayang..
yan pon..
an ajak kua on weekends.. aww..
touching.

like a star..

2008-10-15T09:44:00.002+08:00

hey hey..
guess wad??
an confessed he realli like me..
and then he love me..
dek ni suka nah nk beat ard the bush.
haha.
aniway..
if u were to click on my taggies button..
u will see that a "BLOGHOPPER" hate tagged me...

we seriously since yest im not over it yet..
coz that stoopid monkey called me a minah rep.
and fer ur info.
haf u ever seen a minah rep b4??
eh pls.
look like how they dress, how they looked like how they behave..
and like shit, u called me a minah rep.
ape..
minah rep ade dgr balck metal per.
pakai baggy2.. selekeh2 mcm aku.
mepek la dek ni.
sumpah im pissed off..
like wtheck.
hey hey aniway.
ppl who hate tagged here pls..
by all means.
if u realli hate me that much and u realli wanna have a piece of me..
do come by chai chee blok 32.
i'll be waiting man!

and btw,
ni zaman ape sia nk main minah2 ni smue.
i juz dun get it.
with that short skirt???
tattoos?? drawn-high eyebrow?? and botak summore..
mepek siak.
wow.
u see wad u make me into.
kn aku da kutuk kaum kao.
tu sbb,
kau tak tau aku sape tkmo nk mepek bbual asal boley je k.
and if u realli wanan bring it on.
hey like farhah said...
"BRING IT ON BITCH"

im back yaw..

2008-10-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

hey hey..
fafa in thy hse..
ahha..
aniways lots to say.
but!
im gonna cut it short..

bulletins:-
10. i gt off today and tomoro
9. tomoro im going to abg aim's hse with the rest of BCRA-ians..
8. Met up with jah and rah. farhah cudnt cum along.
7. tried selling that stoopid china phone but failed. coZ no shop wanna take it..
6. mamat's birthday. jah cuzzin.
5. was suppose to mit up with fad. but he never replied..
6. an was very sick today. worried fer him. sakit gigi sampai demam.
4. mum went to mummy hse with big bro. yy?????
3. y is my menses cumming soo laatee??
2. i am hungry rite naw. and guess wad. rah ate alot today. like dammn alot of stuffs.
1. i miss everyone whom i used to contact with especially rony. but sad to say. we cant go along.
0. an confessed he have feelings fer me. aww... an i am soo liking him as day goes by...

thats all folks. chao!

coz tonite will be da nite i will fall fer u..

2008-09-29T13:32:00.002+08:00

hey raya is juz arnd da corner yaw!!
tak sabar u noe.
and yes i noe.
da berzaman i never blogg.
keje la. very susah nk bukak comp ni huh..
so aniways,
lots and lots of things happened in this short one month..
well.
im getting to noe an better.
met him yest.
go geylang amek bju raya aku.
den we headed off to pasir ris.
member malu2 nk bbual.
but damn it he's so cute.
okok i noe.
its benn long tyme i never felt like this.
ouh! 17 yet so tall. tu muscle tuh hmmm.
haha..
so yea. i juz hoped that i can get to noe him more.
hmm..
later im going out to meet up with farhah, rah and hannah...
and maybe jah will cum along.
and yes.
in this bulan suci, everything is bck to normal.
alhamdulillah..
and home is cocking up.
evrything is done by me. god damn it having 2 guys in da house is such a waste.
tk guna langsong.
aku da mcm mighty bee.
super woman sak. bikin keje umah non-stop.
but fer my mum uh. aniting fer her.
siek pey ab n adek. hmph!
okok.
i'll blogg soon!!

kau.
beg blom beli.
kasot blom beli.
makeup pon.
rabak siek ni..

fafa i dunno wad to do.

2008-09-18T00:38:00.002+08:00

hmm. life goes on as usual.
sahur.. wake up at 12.
siap2..
gi keje.
dats all da routine..
well.
i dunno wad to do.
im in distress right now..
wad shud i do.
aku macam nk berhenti skola.
keje all da way uh.
but left few months aje.
bear with it la fafa.
insyallah after nitec, aku amek private diploma.
confem nyer ni.
well.
aku tau.
in life all i want is good life, family and frens.
but frm wad im seeing right now,
aku tkde arah tujuan.
hmm.

Ya ALLAh swt.
tolong la hamba mu ini.
ku merayu kepada mu..
tunjukkan lah aku jalan yang benar.
berikan lah aku ketabahan pada bulan Ramadhan ini...
Syawal pon nk tiba.
Let me thru all these challenges.

insyallah..
amin.

i realli missed every single thing..
let me off to another place where i can start anew.
coz all these things i hate revolves around me..

things juz gt worse.

2008-09-10T11:49:00.002+08:00

well..
i realli have no say in this kind of stuffs.
i want to ask or say.
but sumthing juz kept me holding all those werds.
i juz wished that everything juz goes as usual.
its not like she doesnt have any right??
its not that im holding back u. yes u c an haf all da freedom.
but i realli noe that u can noe da difference between good and bad.
like i said last tyme..
pandai2 la all of u bawa diri.

k.
so aniway,
i cant be with my gfs.
smue gi geylang..
hmm..
aku keje. mcm biase.
sha2(budak lama) n aisyah(budak baru) masok bcra.
and like everything cocked-up eh
naseb ade yus. ahha. buat kekek mepek2..
aniways yus send me mcm biase.
jah ajak lpak. so brought him along. ala dektu stakar sap rokok jer.
pantat pey tua.
haha naseb jah ade.
at last jah da nampak ni tua ni. haha.
mmg senang nk get along la. yus n his crap-ness.
da biase la kn.
aniways.
exam juz now mmg sumpah meraps eh!
ape yg aku blaja smue tk kua.
sot je tau.
ishk!!

k la.
bsok exam nms.
nanti bley blaja.
i wanna sleep.
later werk!
bye.

Best Uh Naik Kr Yus.

2008-09-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

firstly. woke up freakking early today.
went to skul.
do da project cpg. da nk abes. skali nurul dari admiralty otw home..
patah balek skola. hmm.. gosh u realli semangat uh. lagi2 nga puase tuh.
so yea.
bikin keje lincah2 den headed to werk.
check2 gaji da masok. haha. best seey..
bought ciggies. haha. dgr2 aku sakit. but maseh nk merokok ni.
haha.
pathethic kn. well.
so yea.
went to werk.
laugh my ass off today.
cvoz gt yus and jason da two shitt guys.
ahha. crite mepek2 la.
pasal motor ngan ikan la. pasal kereta ngan drift skidded la.
mepek2 uh.
haha. den as per normal..
yus anta balek..
hehe suka kn fafa. haha.
lpak jap ngan dia kt bawah blok umah aku. we were early la.
sampai kol 11:18. slalunyer kol 11:30 aru smp.
den nga best2 tgk drg racing.. a video inside hp yus.
skali mak aku aru alek.
mangkok sia aku.
but i wasnt takot or wad la. coz me n yus bukan nye matair kn. kwn rapat je.
aha. aku lak nga sap rokok. sempat tau buang sblah. haa. yus salam mama.
den mak aku nampak helmet.. skali dia ckp eh2 kau naik motor.. baik2 tau..
da la dia start. haha. sempat yus buat gelak. haha. ekke siak.
omg i juz gotta noe dat yus ngan aku da senasib,
wad i mean is.
his father passed away when he was serving ns (18 yrs old i guess)
bcoz of penyakit cancer. at sgh! waah. noting to brag about.
but kite same naseb. waah. dat part aku teros mcm stunned skejap.
and he was too wen he noes mine was da same fate as his.
well. there is such ppl who go thru da same fate as me.
so yea. thanks to him. im not alone!!
hehe. i enjoyed every moment with him da mcm best fren la sey. haha.

kk back to da story.
as mama was talking.
skali mak aku ni ckp benda sampai aku ngan yus ter stoned jap.
"ni bila nk balek ni FATIMAH??"
damn! yus tgk aku abey nga tahan ketawe.
tunggu mak aku naik lift. abey dia ketawe rabak2.
pantat tol. haha.
yus tanye asl mak aku panggil aku fatimah. name pekat sia.
haha. aku pon kekek2 uh. isshh!!

haha. smoked awhile with him.. gave him one more cigg.
den took off. haha.
well. bsok ni amek gaji ni. mak oi! lau nampak dia paisey sia aku,

"aniways.
dlam byk2 lelaki yg aku kenal and rapat dgn.
cuma yus je la yg kes first hand bual face to face ngan mak aku.
and bcoz of that i feel awkward. idk why.."

yea yea i noe..

2008-09-04T10:19:00.002+08:00

yes i noe i have been bz with werk and all.
but its gonna pay off soon..
im quitting thy mac cafe. back to BCRA. so yea.
wondering y im back to BCRA? coz they wanna pay me 40 bucks already.
and besides they need ppl.. and they are like a family to me liao..
so aniways..
school have been mia. hha. actuali me la mia.
lagi nk masok exam lagi aku tk dtg..
so.. have not been providing mc... attendance have been dropping.
bt i HAVE been studying. INSYALLAH. i will pass.
kk. met up with the two badots yest. dua2 tk puase.
yg satu uzor la. yg satu isap rokok. but konon nye puase la tuh.
mak oi! sape ajar tuh. haha.
hehe.
sumthing happened last few days..
i end up being fetched home by yus. like omg!! (oh my gosh!)
like the third tyme riding his kr. haha. pantat sakit okey selit2 tempat dudok. i stil prefer sparkky.
hehe.
aniways we had this conversation on the way home last two nights..
(he bought along his two helmets when he asked me this.)

Yus: " Fa, kau ade helmet extra kat umah?"
Fafa: "Ader la. asal??"
Yus: "haa! kau ade? asal kau tk bwk. penat sey aku bwk dua helmet...."
Fafa:" -___________-" "kau bukan nk tanye aku smalam. tibe2 kau cakap 'Fa, bsok aku bawak helmet extra tok kau k..' yeye orr jer..."
Yus: "LOL" " kk takpe sok bwk jer helmet kau.."
da gituh tkpe..
anta aku balek tk tau jalan.
abey aku tukang bilang way mane nk jalan. abey sesat skejap.
haha. kekek uh yus. omg! asl la kau ade matair. SHIT! i didnt say that!
haha.
hmm.. very adorable guy. btol pey papan.

rony have been missing me. and yea. i missed u too shorty!
haha. si pendek ni.
i cant believe im falling fer a short guy.
yea basicly he's few cm shorter than me. but still..
haha.
i like him. very funny and weird.. but cute. i think ive seen him sumwher.
maybe ages ago at bukit batok. maybe la kn.
nama nye jugak budak bukit batok. haha.
da tk tau mane chai chee. haha.

k la.
im actuali ready to go to school. da siap smue.
skali got to noe that class start at 12. and bodohnye aku bgn kol 9. like perfectly early!!!
o_0!!
hmm.. mcm tk nk gi cpg pon ader. but ade project uh! siak uh. abey im werking later.
seems like im gonna be late again.
but im so not gonna bring my werk uniform and that helmet to sch!!
coz org pikir aku ni gile. bwk helmet tapi nk naik bus gi airport. hahahahah.
i wonder my gaji da masok ke blom eh..
hmm.. gaji mac cafe. lau da masok bley aku naik taxi! nk beli rokok lagik.
kesian baba, yus, jason.. mangsa rokok aku. haha. dun worry ppl.im gonna pay u bck aiyte..

ouh ya. i had this dream last night.
ppl in my dream: amirah, farhah, jah
we were walking sumwher like a pasar place.
when suddenly i said hey! we are at bukit batok already. tibe2 tau.
wad happen was. i began to search fer my long lost childhood fren.
skali wen we reached at this particular community centre.
i saw hanizah. omgosh! my long lost best fren! skali got to noe.
amirah was her social werker partner at that cc. haha lame kape mirah.
haha.
den i was like crying la. lama tk nampak kau smue. den we walked all da way to this shopping mall. (which actuali doesnt exists!)
told jah and farhah tiz da place where i used to go ect..
skali saw this group of guys. drg mcm kacau2 kite. first we hated them la.
like so typical guys to kacau2 org.
den jadi members. haha.
we end up at this macD.
we sat. when sudenly came this grp of ex-convicts.
two of them looked familiar.
and i actuali asked them hey krg frm dazhong pri eh dulu. haha.
to my surprised. yes they were.
cant recall da name. rudy.. and... sum name uh.. i forgot.
name kes tak penah dgr nye.
skali alarm bunyi. halamak! sot jer.

shud i say bad weekend..

2008-08-29T22:12:00.002+08:00

idk man.
sumtimes when u thought that things wud go the way u wanted..
it doesnt at all.
even though u pray day and night yea.. it still not gonna change.
well.

to farhah:
i juz hoped u do ur best on tuesday. juz pray hard that u wud pass this phase test.
juz dun think that its gonna be thy end of ur life k. maybe there's a gud thing to y this happens la.
juz enjoy urself. loosen up abit. u've been stressing too much. nanti gt wrinkle da tk vouge lagik..(kk sumpah tkde link).. so yea.
the main purpose to y maybe jah wanna go out tomoro is maybe dia nk relax everyone la.
coz puase is juz arnd the corner kn. sumpah i tot that this actual plan gonna werk out.
but nvm though. its juz the way it is huh..
i feel kinda pissed but im not.
seriously.
maybe bcoz we planned to go karaoke fer soooo long but end up like this.
ok la. i mean i oso kinda broke la. but at least watching movie wud be ok kn.
lama tau kita da tk kua sama2..
yes i noe its not like we're tearing apart la.. (sound soo les) but.. its juz dat.
i dun see us going out together anymore.. where's all da laughter we had?? where's all da fun dose we had yest?? well. i noe ppl have been bz la. with skul n everything.
k im understanding. i noe. sigh!
i really thought that tomoro im gonna bring u guys meet rony.
well. fer several attempt of meeting up with rony, always failed.
no matter wad tomoro.. im still going out.
im not gonna make this mood of mine conquer my day tomoro.
yes. SITI DUN GIVE UP!
i dun care if its rain or wtvr.. im still gonna mit him.

ok i noe ur gonna make it up to us. okok.

to jah:
i dun care if things juz doesnt goes the way it is ok.
i juz hoped that WE, me u n farhah and hannah..
are as close as yest (not literally)..
and i noe that u r trying very hard to make things werk.
juz have faith ok girl. dun stop trying. hey u oso a SITI.
soo.. DUN GIVE UP.
but if u really dun wanna go. juz tell me k.
juz dun make me wait fer plans.. or make me wait fer u to reply da msg..
"hey bsok jadi ke tk??"
i dun wan answers like "aku tk tau uh. tanyer farha.. dadada.."
i wan to noe are u on or not.
ok. i think u told me ryte tomoro u werking with ur makcik?
so yea. if ur tired or no mood. juz tell me k?

so yea
THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS..
im sad la.. serious shit la.
coz I TOOK DA DAMN OFF FRM WERKING JUZ TO SPEND TYMES WITH U PPL.
I EVEN TOLD THEM. I MEAN LIE. SAYING MY RELATIVE SAKIT TENAT.
LIKE WTH KN. SO YEA.
I JUZ HOPED MY "LIE" JUZ PAYS OFF.
but is it worth it? yea maybe. haha. coz maybe rony ade.
but lau ngan rony2 skali tk jadi??
mangkok siak aku!!!
gi wayang uh srg.
and i mean seriously...

fucking panas sial!

2008-08-28T18:06:00.002+08:00

k. seriously.
today was fun2. but i was kinda cranky la.
coz panas giler sia.
sot je aku.
dari tk slekeh smp slekeh.
and wen we went fer thy excursion.
skali terserempak ngan..
Luke. Anisah Jerry, syazwani..
hmm..
pey ramai budak skola kt situh.
ishk!
so yea. bukan kite dapat naik pas tuh rounding spore.
eleh. but it was cool shit la.
so yea.
at last dpat naik bus.. balek skola.
tros balek.
and infact kt bustop nampak wakk kang wit the gurl.
haha. kekek la drg. mcm tk kene.
so yea.
kt lam bus. nurul mcm siak. gt tiz "young nyonya"
i belive is retarded. the moment she step into da bus, she sat and mumbled sumthing.
skali nurul ter-giggle. ape lagi. kekek siak. aku tahan jer sia ketawe.
abey teringat "kau yg ku kata syg" lagu ya allah!.. haha.. kite mepek2 la.
fid da ketawe kekek2.. jg ketawe la krg. at last dia yg ter blast sendiri.
haha.

my day was great la.
overall.

now i noe wad nurul meant.

2008-08-26T22:14:00.002+08:00

k now i noe.
nurul gt told me once bout tiz sumone..
well now i noe wad u meant.
ala. u noe i noe.. they dunno. maybe lily noe.
so yea
sumtimes ppl juz think that da whole world revolve arnd them,
so wadever they think kononnyer btol la kn.
well..
sumtimes we dun mean to criticize ppl..
but we juz wanted it to look like a "joke"..
mayb sumtimes we and i mean WE go overboard la.
but. we had fun rite. mane tau drg pon kutuk2 kite kn kn kn??
wadever happen we r sorry fer it la.
juz dun take it too hard yaw. take a chill pill..

we live to haf fun ryte??

aniways.
i'd study hard in skul juz naw.. hohoho..
so yea. mcm semangat gituh tau.
sad nurul wasnt there to study with us.
aniways i wonder how her court thingy goes..
okok.
in fact juz now in class.
sid was bored la.
so i started giving them jokes.
wow first tyme nampak bob ketawe rabak2.. kiut kaper.
haha.
lily u noe i noe eh...
haha!!

the joke of da day:
"there's a robbery happened at a bank.
thy only eye-witness was this mamak techincian.
he was repairing da atm machine wen it all happened.
so wen police was investigating...
tiz particular malay police asked this mamak technician
"kau nampak ni smue berlaku? drg bawak lari duit dalam kereta.
kau nampak dia nyer licence plate number tak??"
so tiz mamak happens to understand him but dunno how to reply in either malay or english language la.
so he juz nodded..
the policeman asked again..
"apa license plate number dia??"
as he only knew some malay werds.. he replied..
" Lapan Takda Habis. Satu Tiga Yea!. Pat tada Pat tada. Itu Church Pey Atas.."
(tiz was da part where he laughed soo kiut-ly.. haha. ni uh sid da blast dulu. paisey siak aku..
and si haprak tu was kinda ciut uurrggh! hehe..)
Question: so wad was the plate number????

haha. wen u noe already tell me kk??
haha. funny.
yg pasal gorrilla uh kekek giler.
haha. i can feel like my face merah. haha..
kk.
aniway after skul went sim lim square.
trade-in bro's monitor.. den mama bought himself a 630 bucks lappie.
haha. aiyoo! now tiga2 beradik da ade lappie. mangkok.
den da best part..
mama bought 3-in-1 printer!! woohoo!!
heppi siot.
now da ley buat aniting at home.
tk ya gi kedai. ehhe.
pemalas mcm babi tol!

aniways. nk jumpa rony ke tk eh?
haiyo.
bad day la.

2008-08-24T17:59:00.002+08:00

ouh.
i was awaken by da ringtone of my phone.
was wondering since wen i set my alarm.
checked my phone and it was fluffy who called.
allah! aku pey sot. kol 623 am tau.
kimak boiling jap aku. aku buat bodoh. aku silent hp aku.
den he called me twice again. siallah aku sot tau.
den it rained..
wahh..
best sia tdo. mcm babi.
bgn kol 1 or 2 plus uh. haha.. kecoh kn.
i ate many stuff today.. hehe. was reali hungry la.
today is ma hindustan movie marathon. haha.
was fcuking bored la.
watched:
Josh.. shahrukhan acted.
Na Tum Jaano Na Hum.. esha deol and hrithik roshan acted.

wel.
i think im gonna eat stoopid stuff again.
gtg. i'll blogg soon yea.
bsok skola.

today fun n laughter..

2008-08-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

hey hey..
guess wad??
today was fun-day..
met up hannah at whitesands. bought fusion berry cheesecake and himalayan tea frappe
and hannah bought herself oreo cheesecake and caramel frappe..
later on jah met us at mac oso. kesian dia, tunggu kite 15 min aha. sorry jah.
skali teringat. we can go mac cafe kat downtown sey.. haixx.
eventually we went downtown and eat summore.
haha.. in da middle of that..
me n hannah had thiz guy conversation.
bout having a guy name..
mepek2 uh kite make-up..
haha... tiz da result..
Jah - Ijad (guy name) Ijad_sparrow(mat rep name)
Hannah - Han (guy name) Han_achik(mat rep name)
Farhah - Farj (guy name) Farj_kecik(mat rep name)
Me - Afad (guy name) Afad_spade(mat rep name)

kimak name btol2 pey typical mat rep..
wakaka. meraps kann????!!!

well.. so yea.
we went downtown nyer mac cafe.
bought thy sandwhich. puki pey org..
dia pikir aku tk tau. they gave us da multi-grain bread.
but supposingly they're suppose to give thy foccacia bread unless we ask to change la..
when i ask y they give us da multigrain bread.
the person replied.. "urrm today is like dat.."
-____________________-""""
dia pikir aku ni baru beranak semalam per sia.
omg da bread so not tempting at all!!
ahha. tapi kerana lapar sgt.. we did finish it all.
haha.
later the pixx i put up kk.
so after that we studied fer a while..
maklum hannah and jah amek their o and n level.. aku pon mcm sibok2 tolong buat maths kn.
padahal tk tau. step macam paham la.. ahah.
skali nurul kol tanyer coffee bean yg paling dekat ngn national library kt ne.
so i said.. kt bugis sane.
den short while later she msg.. dgn penuh confidence..
"pack sia.. tkda org."
aku mcm ter-stunn jap. eh da kate pack pastu tkde org??
haha. skali dia reply.. ouh maksud aku pack. ramai org.
haha. jah nampak msg tuh jah ketawe kekek2..
so.. after that we teman hannah go to hai sing sec sch.
supposingly she's gonan take her o level eng oral.
skali dpt tau its at 2 pm. but she came at 430 pm.
omg! how careless can she be.
cheered her up. went chai chee lepak n tunggu amirah there.
farhah and zana came short while after me jah n anna reach 32.
kimak drg basah kuyup. ahah.
farhah went home tukar bju, zanah go meet ted.
so lpak at 32.. amirah came with nasi ayam and satay.. kecoh sia.
da mkn.. kite mkn lagik. haha..
da kenyang kite chill. today farhah gt a bit slow..
haha. maybe penat sgt kn.
skali arrive thiz 2 abg2 with "Harley-shaped" bicycle..
kewl la sia. tayar da mcm tayar motor.
skali check2 KHALID was member drg!! omg first tyme face-to-face ngan dia.
senyum lak tuh!! omg!! si papan nie..
haha..
lpak till 9 plus den go home.

wad a tiring day.
many stuff happen la.. juz dat i malas nk blog panjang2..
aniways.
bsok "keje"
go tgk bunga api.
hoped to enjoy!
maybe rony turon!!

(: bought bju yg ada gigi tuh!!

cinta pertama..

2008-08-21T20:11:00.004+08:00

Aku nk sgt2 tgk criter ni..
aiyoo..
crite tajuk Best Friend?
haaa..
ni criter bout tiz two girls..
frm two diff werlds..
They end up becoming bestfrens..
but did they took their friendship too seriously??
or they juz plain les??
hahaha.. tu la.
im curious.
aku nk tgk sal aku nk tau kesudahan criter tuh.!!
dammit! muz find da cd or dvd!!
urrggh!!

meanwhile.. while searching fer the movie online....

Saw thiz movie... nampak mcm best kn..
ni kisah2 cinta ni smue.. ish!
u shud watch this movie la.
best jugak.
very sedih.
but a bit complicated. aku sendiri tk paham sgt.
but overall i give *** 3 star je.

(: enjoy..

hehe.

2008-08-20T13:58:00.003+08:00

well today as per normal wakey2..
730 alarm rang. but snoooze till 8.
skali check2 tyme kol 830. ahah. aku gi snooze my tyme till 8 pm.
wth!!
luckily i was in tyme fer skul.
rony called. he's at polyclinic. aww. kesian deylo.
sakit yer??
kk. den..
masok class da sejuk. tot of bringing my jacket skali takot panas..
so juz bear with it la.
lesson as per normal. ms ho katekn.
her short ans question is soooooooo not-short ans.
haha. babi tol.
so yea aniway. sumone... like reali sumone cut thy hair. omg! ahha.
lily and nurul.. n sid.. u noe i noe yeah!!
hehe. so... did lots of qusetion. i juz hoped i pass my exa dats all.
insyallah dpt masok poly. even if i dun wan to... -_-"
i was waiting fer farid to cum skul. ahha. nk rokok aku pey pasal.
den at last da dpt. check2 tinggal 5 jer.. waliau! i contribute money byk sey.
but nvm la. lesson to be made.
kk.
saw kamal otw home. its like.. Kamal! class da bis sia. takpe2 gi amek kau nyer test.
haha. btol la ni anak ni.
aniways. saw shamir twice today. his face is soo the "goggle-guy" frm pendeks clan.
hahahx..

went home. saw mama karaoke-ing srg2. ate. den checked my tagged and friendster.
haha guess wad!
taufiq katak view aku. kimak member makin tembam per. or shud i say da naik badan!!

haha.. kekek uh. nk step shy2 mane konon. piiddaaHH!!
ni da bukan katak siak ni turtle.
hehe.
hmm.. i wonder hows jah doing kt mac cafe tuh eh. hope all thy best to her.
ouh ya!
today i keje. im werking.
frm 6 till 11. gosh! macam tk nk gi skola bsok.
but wtheck. gi jer la. CPG muzz complete. although i da anta everything.
so take a chill pill yall.

aite. i'll blog soon aite.
(:

YESTERDAY STORY:
aniways yest i watched this indonesia movie. radit and jani.
my gosh so exciting. bt so sad. kesian la.
the sacrifices they made fer each other.. no one can beat that.
gosh. ratings ***** 5 stars!
tiz only include those who love indon movie yea!

today is tuesday.. and no school!

2008-08-19T21:15:00.002+08:00

haha. actuali today skul.
but....
bcoz yest we finished our phase test.. so class mcm no one wanna go ryytee??
so yea.
den tomoro, skool at ite bedok. my gosh.
dat skul again..
haha.
well i realli need to go coz, i realli wan ms ho to go thru da answer fer thy test paper.
i realli wanna score well sia.
i mean like i flung every paper fer this module sia.
omg! i realli nid to buck up siak.
kk. fer wad i noe, my phase test i did very well.
but as fer my theory, i realli nid to study hard la.
i need to maintain da 3.2 gpa la.. like sapa sia nk flung..
okok.
so yea. i've scheduled my study weeks
frm 25 to 31.. i nid to concentrate on dmt stuffs..
den frm 1st till 7.. i nid to concentrate my nms..
naseb multimedia ade 2 subject aje. tk yah aku nk gi pecah kepale blaja.
insyallah! i pass tiz module yea?? i juz hoped even if i do badly, my gpa tk turon below 3..

k so yea.
today i woke up at 1230. msged jah. ate bee hoon soto wif mama.
den go out. pikir nk gi bedok corner but smue da mkn
so juz meet up with hannah and jah at bedok phone booth.
rounding2 kat bedok. i bought myself new mascara. ahha. teringin.
den walk our butts off to 32..
skali check2 farhah bwk turon aisyah, faz and fadh.
haha. da sedap drg lpak ngan kite??
hehe. enjoy my tyme with them.
den.. we plan uh tiz sat gi tgk bunga api..
my gosh! tk sabar sey, farhah was like wondering wad to wear.
haha. kekek la.
den fadh and aisyah da balek. lpak ngan ted and faz.
haha. fun ppl la.

aniways!! i gt a joke.

there's this father and son wanted to go overseas..
they need to take plane there.
so they travel frm their place right to their destination la..
den wen they land at that particular place..
there's this pilot shouts "hey that's my son"
Question: what is da relationship between the pilot and the son???

think hard yaw!!
da tau answer dia diam2 eh!
if u dunno feel free to ask me personally.. ehhehe..(:

ps: da joke is actuali realli straightforward la.
a IQ test. if ur smart u'll noe da answer. haha.

for all stoopid no emotion ppl out dere!

2008-08-18T00:17:00.003+08:00

hey yaw.
so yea.
y bother bout my life?
why view my blog if u juz love to tagg about ur "opinion"??
y call me a desperado if u dun even noe bout me?
dun u haf a better things to do?
i bet ur life sux fucking 100 times worst then mine..
if not y hate tagg?
haha.
tak ku sangka ade jugak org mcm kau idop lam dunia nie eh?
like hey! i dun hate u ppl, y hate me??
i dun make enemies.. y make one with me?
if one day i gotta noe who u are.. juz see wad i cn do yea.
well..
all i noe is dat.
tiz ma blog. i post what i feel.
call me names or curse me wadever shit. i dun give a damn.
coz to me all hate taggers are juz too coward to talk face to face.
action speak louder than words aite!!
so yea.
gth with ya.
im heepi. so dun be fucking kpo. prangai takmo mcm mak nyer!

aniways my day today was okey,
except fer layan-ing soo many customers..
lots of stuffs to do..
bsok 2.4 nye run.
so yea. i nid to rest..
hope i pass.
peace out!!

hmm..

2008-08-17T14:32:00.003+08:00

wow.. long tyme tk blog..
haha..
aniways.. have not been werking fer thy last few days..
haha. went kubor yest.
visit my dad.. well.. still miss him..
so yea..
den after dat, jumpa jah n farhah.
at a later day, i meet up with LUKE!!
haha.. soo skinny.. yet so weird. soo loikkee..
haha.
he's a fun guy la.. seriously. i feel comfortable. juz maybe da tyme not yet.
so yea..
aniways we go watch the mummy3 ..
haha. crite okok uh. i slept fer a while. ahha. tu pon luke mcm ckp"eh u tdo eh?"
haha. skali terbangun den i say.. urrmm no la..
haha..
den we go bedok south lpak jap. storyy2..
hehe..
aniways i miss rony.
haha.
i sense im like falling in love wth him. but
i realli wanna meet him!! must make a day with him.
haha.
so yea.
all da guys i used to contact. most of them da attch. i mean recently la.
wahh.. all the best u guys!!
haha..
so yea..
wens my turn??
i dunno lei.

aniways! bsok napfa. lari 2.4 km!!
haha
must be ready fer it! i bet mayb fid, sid or nurul da standby gi jogging ker..
haha. lily? entah lak eh??
haha...
wel meet u peeps tomolo.
nari keje. frm 5 till 11.. gosh!!
okok gtg.!

i'll blog soon!

puki! such a bad weekend..

2008-08-14T12:16:00.002+08:00

helo..
u noe wad tiz had suck a bad week fer me..
well. after i was left hanging.. he end things up..
ok i can take it.. i dun mind.. but suddenly he msg n kol me..
mcm tkde pape gitu.. eh siall la.. prangai tkmo mc pukimak bley tk??
haiyo.. den da maki2 aku..
dia ckp ape..
dia nk baik2 ngan aku, aku yg prangai.. waduh sedapnyer bahasa tuh..
eh. kau yg end things up.. abey nk take bck ur werd? eh nono hunney.. no such things..
well..
so moving on. i was afraid that i wud see him in skul..

kk in between of that..
i gt to noe thiz guy name hazwan* not a real name*..
i kinda like him. seriously. tot that me n him cud make it.
but suddenly one day he went pissed with me.. waduh!
aku pon peng uh. siall la. da kenape sia ngan lelaki2 ni smue??
tk puas2 per nk sakit kn hati aku?
eh.
den tkpe.. dia mintak maaf smlm..
he said wad.. that he was soori. he didnt noe wad he was doing.
he said sorri again and again. so yea.. i forgive.
(am i a gd forgiver? or am i juz being too nice?????)
gosh!...
den bout rony.. he soo cute.. i soo like him haha..
luke?? well.. i was touched by his werds la smalam.. eheh.
fer once la, he tok or shud i say sweet talk me.. haha.. kekek uh dia.
so yea.

den! tiz morning afetr nms lesson..
im suppose to go canteen.
and becoz of tiz.. my mood went down..
kk.. here wads hapen..
sumpah i ddnt see him cuming towards my way..
dia halang aku. sial la.
den he was like." asl u avoiding i?" puki la..
den i said hey! u said it already.. den aku move to the ryte dia ikot. to the left, dia ikot jugak..
u get wad i meant?? haiizz..
den he was like. eh takot per. aku nk ckp aje!
den i said. sape takot. den he said. tk tkot sini uh!
den i juz give my peace sign.. and juz walk off..
as i was mumbling and pissed off.. dok kt canteen nampak sai.
den sai ckp. kau da tk contact dia lagik? i said yea. dia prangai mcm pukimak.
den sai said.. aku nampak dia tegur minah rep tuh..
*i was wondering sape eh.. skali it ticked me!*
sai ckp.. ala pussycatdolls tuh.. haha..
ni confem anisah uh.
haha.. omfg!!!
of all ppl he contact that girl? tk de mata per nk tgk. haha. tk de otak per nk pikir.
haha. i juz couldnt get over it. haha..
so yea. he jollywell noe that everyone hates that girl. seriously.
omg! eh khai. tkmo jadi merepek ley tk. ape? dpt per hari2 ngan dia..

waaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiitttt!!
why am i being so bitchy bout tiz..
kk nvm. well. juz enjoy ur life yaw.
tk de kau pon tkpe. aku maseh ley hidop.
pelan2 aku bley bangun sendiri.. tk mcm kau.
k.
so yea. gd luck.
so much fer "ur thy only one that wud be in my heart forever"
or..
"one day u wud noe why i nid u here beside me.. y i nid u soo much... da da da da.."

gth with that.
luke.. rony.. or sape2 uh.
im on with ya.

www.merepektaklayan.meraps.com

2008-08-06T11:34:00.002+08:00

haiz..
mendak shia..
skul ends at 430 i guess..
yest mmg patot aku tk gi skola coz yest end at 130...
so yea. den tomoro end at 11. no cpg lesson.
aru pikir sok nk cabot. skali ade test. theory test.
so juz forget bout cabot-ing..

aniways saw elfie juz naw.
she and her usual self..
nk beli ayam 15 kg kape?
isnt dat a bit toooo much??
tell kakak! da giler eh??
hehe.
hope to meet everyone soon on friday!
tak salah im not werking. yea.
omg
tday werking.
im werking at macd cafe kat kallang now.
yes ive quitted airpot BCRA already.
took ma pay. ala. skit je. tot byk.. haixx..
84 bucks on my over times and few bucks on my 5 days.
haix. bursary on the way..
yeap! tomoro! 730 at kaki bukit cc. hey hey.
soo heppi.

urgh. feeling siak now.
crankry sia.
maybe coz sum ppl juz dun bother huh.
let it be uh.

yey! nari keje.

)':

2008-08-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

i knew thiz gonna happen..
i knew it one day.
im aware of it actuali.
and i told myself.
if thiz were to happen, i juz hoped im ready.
juz da thing is dat. he's full of fun dose.
i realli enjoyed every single bit of it.
but sayang he juz cant stand a few driftings..
i can see how much patience he has.. he has a few onli.
hmm.. i juz dun noe y am i tearing.
im so disappointed.
ape dia bley suka suka hati testing aku??
abey aku tk ley uh.
tanpa sebab dan alasan kau main kn perasaan!!!
ape nie?
do i deserve thiz all?
after all that promises? wher all that gone thru?
i can see how stoopid i am.
wait fer a guy whom i noe not gonna be mine!
i feel like slapping fafa!!!
im juz so saadd.
he dun haf da balls to tell thiz on da phone. padahal dia slalu yg akan kol aku.
ni tk. he told me off at msn.
i think i juz let this go..
juz let this goo..
now i feel like hugging slenger and badot..
da hujan da lam bilik aku..

thanks fer all thiz.
dun worry i will get over u soon..
i hoped..
wad a life. heartbroken always.

Mimpi yang tk sudah!

Apa makna impian
Datang dan pergi
Membawa hati
Menyusuri kembali
Jalan-jalan sepi

Kau kah di situ
Yang menantiku
Atau jelmaan
Dalam kenangan
Yang bernama pengalaman

( korus )
Siapakah di antara kita
Dengan rela menjadi pendusta
Siapakah dulu membina harapan
Dan siapa yang memusnahkan impian
Tanpa sebab dan alasan
Kau lahirkan perasaan
Bagai taufan tiba-tiba datang
Dan menghilang

Kau bayang-bayang
Masa nan silam
Ada ketika terbawa-bawa
Oleh resah mimpi yang tak sudah

i miss hannah babboonn!!!

2008-07-31T12:27:00.002+08:00

ala.. nari hannah gi Bangkok.
dia tk msg lak eh.
hmm. harap2 dapat bju uh!!! seriously nk sey.
hehe. i tk harap kn. but insyallah dpt la kan??
hehe..
well..
yest did my practice.
did not go to skul. woke up 9 in the morning.
amek duit gi poly. hmm.. sampai sane i think at bout 1045 or 11 uh.
well. byk jugak org. que fer thy number.
skali wen my number is called. gaved my ic.
then da clerk said there's an outstanding balance of 8 dollars.
den she asked y? den suddenly ticked me that isit bcoz of my smoking counsellin session??
but i said. i did pay fer thy first session. i realli tot that 2 of the session costs 8 bucks.
skali rupanye, 8 each. haiyo.
naseb mama gave me 50 bucks. so enuf uh fer thy payment.
den took my number again. and waited fer the que to see doct.
wen number was called, went in. yessa. a female doc. i dun like male doc actualli.
i regard them as perverts. hehe kk meraps.
so yea. told thy doc that i had stomach aches, headache, berry2, nausea.
den she press2 my belly. den she said ok..
i juz gt myself a stomach flu!!!
haiz..
took the prescription, and waited fer thy medicines.
skali kene charge 23.70 agaknye.
kinda mahal la. but i think da obat mahal uh..
so yea. went sarapan.. bought myself zinger student meal. hehe.
went home. eat. took medicine. rest.
den jah cum, booked her prac 3 again. hoped she pass!!
proceed to chai chee esplanade, practice our jumpstyle.
wen everything over, she go bedok library, den werk.
as fer me i go home chill den at 6 went 32 to meet others.
eventuali zaman went down. ahha. like amirah said
"zaman tkkan turon lau aku tkder.."
haha dats like kinda true..
played he's psp. pantat! wanted to borrow he's psp. but no.. he did not let me
bacin, abeh ade hati ckp aku matau ngan kau uh gi beli psp tok kau!
cb! haha.
abey biler aku sound kau kua kan 100 uh. den kasi muka kelempek!
haha.
went home as per normal.
tok on da phone with luqman. den with khai. msg2 with an and luke. msn with hannah,
fluffy, syah...
well.
he conclude:
hope that everything stays the way as it is..

buto la! *farid kamil nyer reaction*

2008-07-28T13:23:00.004+08:00

it's been a long tyme since i've blogg..
so much things happening here..
so i mcm malas kn gitu nk blogg.
haha..
well..
on las Sat..
i took off. urgent. sepatutnyer kua ngan jah..
go buy helmet kat ah boi. skali jah demam. so didnt go la..
called up farhah ask if there's dance pract.. but tkde.
skali member tanye nk gi main pool.. raiz, faizal and zahin ajak..
so i agreed.
siap2 smue. met farhah under her blok. member muka sedih giler tau.
kes bley nampak bekas nangis. so i asked her. and hugged. gadoh ngan kakak dia lagik.
aiyoo.. forever la. but farhah be strong kk?? tabah kn hati je. juz give in.
so.. smoke fer a while. den go central stop b. amek shuttle bus. terserempak ngan raiz and faizal so took da same bus..
otw lam bus.. aku ngan farhah bual2 mepek2.. kite yg terkecoh kat situh. haha..
farhah. u noe i noe..
den gt tiz one matrep hansem lam bus. haha.
i dunno y im looking at matrep..
da sampai mac. tunggu zahin. haha stick man. miss him. den raiz mentioned that kwn dia akan turun tau.
so me n farhah was like "who? sape?? hansem? tinggi?"
haha.. den raiz ckp. hansem! mcm taufiq katak. but lagi hansem.
me n farhah went up first. book the table. enjoy la seyy.. haha..
den skali ALIPP!!!! masok.. haha. yes! da guy kwn raiz tuh namenyer alip!
haha. dia cute sgt2 sial..
haha.. tk bley angs..
farhah da kene teguh mata tajam eh.. padahal aku yg tukang cui2 kat situh.
haha.
den fad n ayul sampai. farhah gi sap rokok ngan drg.
omg! alip was so cute wen he play da pool. hahahahahahhaa.. *cant get over it*
dia pon ade cui2 jugak ni. haha.
kk. wel eventualii we didnt stay up long kat pool.
me n farhah serta fad n ayul gi maz cafe. minom jap. eat2 story2 den me n farhah gi bigsplash. b4 dat.. ade tiz one group of cool guys. sdalah satuh budak chai chee, bawak scrambler. kimak member dia smue BERG2 GILER SSAAKK..
waduh!!!!!!!! koyak dok mata aku satu hari kua ni..
den me n farhah proceed to meet bhai.
thanks to him. im known as CINTA to his kakak and adek.
haha. according to farhah adek dia, wan, nampak hansem. but aku ni buta malam so aku tk nampak sgt uh.
bbual.. story2. enjoyable uh.
stoopius farhah go minom gin. abey da seeehhh..
haha. naik cab. tunggu lama sia. naik cab. farhah bbual mepek2.
den gt tiz place. undertunnel passage way. cool la sia tempat dia.
new road uh! haha. siap uh aku da klua kan motor. JAH! U NOE I NOE.
haha.
best uh sat.
sunday keje as per normal. 11 to 11. 12 jam. siak. but gaji bomb uh.
kirekan smalam uh. aku keje frm 11 to 11. haix.
penat dok.
kene bikin wine b ptg. den continue wine a ptg jugak.
aku habis bikin smue kol 830. siang perr..
den tolong2 drg. den alek.
alek lak. jah ajak jumpa. lpak jap ngan dia.
member ghairah sey nk amek pract nari. maklom da masok pract 3. INSYALLAH jah. u can do it!!! den kite bbual sal motor.
mane nk gi lpas dapat motor... step motor breakdown abey kite kene tolak motor to da nearest gas station. haha.
den aku ckp uh. lau minyak da bis. aku sanggop bwk minyak spare kat lam beg. kes macam2 benda leh sumbat. aku sumbat nyer.
nari kene jumpa farhah and jah. practice joget. tiz saturday dok event dia.
kat geylang football club. haha. nk kene pract jump ni...
so far tu je uh.
i'll blog next tyme!
i'll be back... maybe in 3 weeks tyme? hehe

i dunno wad day already.. lost count. haha..

2008-07-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

well..
there's most certainly many stuff i wanna story about...
but.
im kinda lazy to blogg la.
i think i'd be better if i record everything o haf to say and post it here rite..
so yea..
aniways..
today another day at bedok ite.
a very suay place according to nurul sid and lily.
haha..
i dun feel so.. maybe becoz im a bedok person?.. or aku yg suay jugak eh??
choi choi..
kk.. so yea. go eat prata as per normal.
den wanna go smoke. our usual place was taken.
so they decided to go under my blok.
actuali im quite scared la. takot kene tangkap ngan family members ker..
but gamble uh. sap je. i was smoking half way den looked front and saw mama was walking towards here.
da cuak kn. so i slowly blow thy smoke.. dropped thy cigg. stepped on it.
skali mak besah pon ade. so buat mcm noting hapen uh.
everibody salam. den dok balek. smue mintak lighter. nk light alek ni.
nurul da takot sal nampak org office2 nga jalan towards us la..
dia takot drg smue nea nye org ke. or hsa ker.
nk elakkan drg. skali disiplin nye org walk passed by us and saw nurul n sid smoking.
kesian nurul. aru nk matikan api. da caught red handed. lily da nampak tros matikan.
haha.. was her luck uh juz naw.
as fer me. i was thiz close to mintak sid senafas. alamak. tu lau kene tadi. mmg aku bunoh diri siak. da 3 kali kene. masok court teroooossss nie..
haha.
haha. da cuak kn smue. naik tingkat 11 sap rokok kt situ. den proceed to class..
haha..
mepek2 kn.
so yea.
in classs... amir was bored and started to draw cartoon version of us all.
haha.. funny siak..

see thiz..

Sid Mr Dan and Hafiz..

Suppose to be me. nampak2 cermin mata aku circle per. Haha. Dat head is Farid's..

Nurul in cartoon. haha. cute kn. tangan tuh...

combination..

combination 2..

hehe.. enjoy.

day 9..

2008-07-22T12:16:00.002+08:00

actuali yg my previous blog kn.
actuali day 8.. but aku gi blog sal day 7..
well..
my saturday was cool..
my sunday was cheerful..
hai.. rafi rafi... asl la kau mcm gitu.
haix.
so yea..
im in skul rite now.
tkde kje so i blogg.
aniways.
heard lot of stories bout thy classmates and school mates..
mepek2 la kn.
haha..
so yea..

nowadays abg aku mcm suka nah nk lapak ngan aku.
haha..
nk feeling teen kape bang??
sedar la skit tu umor da angka 2.. hahaha..
so yea..
smalam went to keje to take gaji..
dtg kol 12 skali tu bodoh pey lon dtg kol 2 lebih sial la.
naseb sempat dpt taxi. lincah2 sia gi outram.
da kene 14 ketol lebih skali hujan sial tol..
den gi tu counselling.. ok la..
previously..(last week)
BP: 110/80
PPM: 6
was ok. but i can do better.
(aniways da ppm is to check my level of carbon dioxide..)
Smalam..
BP: 96/60
PPM: 0
haha.. improved sia.
ala mesti la zero.. sal aku tk sap rokok since morning kn.
haha..
so yea.
got it over n done.
den nk kene gi bayar tu saman. da building was juz behind.
aku gi top up cashcard aku. den move on to HSA building..
skali aku kene tipu. cashcard top up 30. skali dlm 25.
patah balek kat tu 7e. top up again. siall la. peng tau..
its like i haf to walk in da freaking rain uh.
da top up. balek tu tempat lagi. gi bayar.
den call jah. nk jumpa kt bedok.
move on to bedok. otw.. dlm train. gt tiz punkish rockish chic.
ok uh cool. liked thy sweater/jacket. cool shit.
jumpa jah kat banquet.
jah ckp "kau guess sape ade kt sini?"
( i looked arnd saw some mats n minahs.. makcik ngan motek dpn aku.. and some ppl uh
was wondering sape sak. y jah so eager??)
fafa "sape??"
jah "tgk uh.,. look arnd.."
fafa "-_-"
jah " kk.. kau tgk budak lelaki kt blakang aku.. kenal tk saoe tuh"
fafa "sape?? mat rep boncit je.. sape sia.."
jah "amir!!"
fafa "haha.. amir?? *gave alot of thiking..* OUH!! AMIR.. haha.."
jah cheeky sia..
ouh shorty la. aku pey bodoh aku gi tgk. skali da girl beside him was looking at me.
paisey uh. matair dia la tuh.
alamak. bang tk bwk motor ker jalan ngan family.. anak sape je tuh.
ouh anak kakak dia.
haha..
after banquet. jalan2.. sementara tunggu farhah.
den met farh at 32. lpak.
alamak. byk story la aku nk bilang. but tgn da penat uh.
mat mintak lighter.. nk bukak cutting QIL..
ala..
malas la aku nk blogg..

overall.
my day went great.
thanks to rony.. and some msn guy. i forget da name..
they make my day.

realli missed sumone.
however. nampak si boncit tuh. haha.

day 7..

2008-07-21T01:00:00.002+08:00

haha.. sorie been bz with werk n got no tyme to blogg.
such a tiring week la..
keje tk abes2.
den stoopid me go n sleep late everyday.
sal tk ley tdo. wad can i do la..
soo.
werk have been fun! seriously.
yest. me mirah jah farhah and hana went parkway to play pool.
b4 dat.
i was werking in da morning shift la.
i was doing float. cool la. coz i've been floating fer 2 days straiht.
haha..
so yea. werk morning. pikir la dpt nampak rafi. skali member amek off.
so. yea. after werk. rissa keje ptg. so. sementare nk tunggu tyme to go out of that place.. i sat down la. den suddenly kecoh. yus was talking on da phone but kecoh uh.
den i juz realised, he was toking with william. member kene buang la sei. sedih kape.
so yea.
i needed to go to parkway straight after werk. so yus kinda volunteered to send me la.
so yea. *not thinking anithing...* haaha.. wadver la fafa.
so.. member wanna send me off. i told him im going to parkway. so i ok with him la to send me. so called jah. n farh. den nk naik motor si bengap ni...
nk kene pakai helmet. god dammit da helmet was big la. size L. mak uh.
wad he said was. tu cutting nye helmet. still i dun get da point y it muz b big..
haha..
kimak. naik kr pey la pnat. ade ke dia nk aku share seater ngan dia. tk nk aku.
matair org siol tk nk aku. ishk! but seriously. dia bwk lagu giler sak. aku melorot2 je uh. but i managed to keep myself comfortable.
da smp parkway. tangan aku menggigil. haha.. sal lengoh sgt sgt!!
he was da first skinny guy whom i *hugGed. coz kr lau pengang tank kan da mcm comsider hug rider kn. hah.
ala.. u noe i noe la kn.
okok..
so yea. it was his last day. den da tk nampak dia lagi.
abey shafiq paitao keje nari. btol la ni anak2 ni. carik nahas kn.
haix..
so yea. ive werked 12 hours straight! i freakking tired. pape i update pix taken on Saturday okey..

btw.
i reall miss khai siak.
i juz cant let him go.

pictures hunney!!

2008-07-17T23:49:00.005+08:00

Oh My Gosh!!

Hannah posing Lawa..

Cute Jah.

Cahrlie's Angel tk menjadi..

They wanted to take picture sgt. ley bilang per. aiyoo!!

bee. baboon. gajah.

Sumhow i kinda like my position. hehe. yg lagik dua tuh. random.

ni sumpah random.

hahakz. mcm budak giler.

Jah nk bukak pencak berserakk..

Sweet Us!

Tak sia-sia aku n jah go pasir ris..

EnjoY!
ps: gambar nk amek ngan farhah tk menjadi. sal da penat.

day four..

2008-07-17T23:36:00.003+08:00

hey hey..
guess wad??
i gt a bad flu today.
god damn it. im pissed la.
tot its gonna rain. but it didnt. very sot u noe.
skul wad olrite.
had our Ms ho class.. which was flat as always.
copied some notes. which i didnt understand. At All..
den. went fer break. saw dat male-she student. she's ok la.
but i overheard she said sumthing like kasot merah. den i terasa la. coz i was
thy only one who wear red shoe wad..
uh. nvm. let it go.
so yea. ate hot dog bread. and drank iced milo. my breakfast.
had some smokes. den go fer our cpg lesson.
damn. that lesson is easy. but was freakking boring la.
nv though. so yea.
was supposed to meet khai. but hehe. i was being bad la. coz im suppose to meet him. but aku mcm purposely dun want to go meet him.
actuali i was being dared. hug him in public, and i will get a box off ciggies for free!! however. it backfired me. haha. now i haf to buy fer him ciggies. so unfair ok.
coz da dare was suppose to be bout me. not him.
haha..
so after skul. i went pasriris. met up with jah. and den hannah.
we go lepak fer a while. took some pixx (which im gonna post later)..
study a bit. den go meet farhah and fie at 32.
skali my brother was der too. btol uh!
menyebok jer. haha. had great tyme.
so yea.
had a great day today.
ouh ya not to forget!
tomoro morning im gonna jog with hannah and maybe jah will follow along.
see how la kn.
ok. dats it. done!

im so in love with enrique iglesias!!

day three..

2008-07-16T21:15:00.003+08:00

haha..
well.
today im skuling at bedok ite.
well..
stoopid place. so empty la the skul juz naw..
not many student come to skul i guess..
haha..
so yea. first lesson. i slept. yes i did take some notes but..
i was too sleepy to concentrate.
so yea.
class was ok juz naw.
some particular guy was soo fanatic wen he saw this hot chinese girl.
haha. she look so ah lian. but cute ah lian like dat. ok la.
nurul and i was a bout to go smoke. skali kluar. saw her. she smiled.
it was break tyme after dat. we girls and the guys go mamak shop and makan.
saw the girl again. was with some guy. confem chop2, her guy la.
haha..
hampa skejap dok si kai.
da makan and all. we proceed to smoking session. haha..
den masok class balek.
back to that stoopid classroom. more like a storeroom uh!
haha..
so. after skul. proceed to 32. met up with farhah and jah. stoopid jah fickle minded.
skejap nk tron skejap tk nk.
we planned bout the dance thingy la. farh wanted me n jah do thy jumpstyle.
i ok la. but dunno was to wear sia.
mampos!!
den.. nk kene dance hip hop lagi. mangkok. might be a freaking tiring day on 2nd august la..
we tok2 fer a while. tok bout guys la. duh! haha..
maybe thiz Saturday go sap sheesha. with farh. and her "Bhai" .. who was soo eager to meet me n jah. dunno y. haha..
n i want to go club on 26. insyallah la eh.
ekk.. nk masok club pon nk insyallah eh. haha.. meraps.
so yea. overall. today was great.

~~he went out juz now. dunno with who. im jealous. haha kk meraps!!~~

day two..

2008-07-15T11:52:00.003+08:00

today skul was okaey..
byk budak tk dtg fer dan nye first lesson.
yea.
so went fer thy first break.
kua skola.
and guess who me n nurul saw??
haha.. ehem2.. kiut sia dia.
first tyme nampak di bawak motor.
and i cant get over it fer like 10 minutes la..
omg. he was freaking cute la kn..
hehe.. so we proceed to kedai mamak.
lpak sane jap..
so was bored. and isap-ping rokok london merah is no gd ok.
kerasss la sey..
so.. we wer bored. farid ajak main pakau.
den yan arrived. join uh.
nk masok second match. aku da semangat tau nk main.
skali aku mcm rasa lain mcam kn. so i turned to my right.
saw a group of ite students.. skali guess who i saw.
mr jackass! haha..
kimak. aku tgk je dia sia.. senyum je member..
bley tegur aku tk nk tau..
biler da nk sampai blok opposite dia call aku..
haha..
den abes kn game. den meet him on thy other blok.
jumpa je dia mcm tersenyum2..
haha.. cute uh.
tu takpe.
den aku mcm tersengeh2 uh. hehee..
gave him a couple of kiss kiss muakzz.
hehe.. he was being notty la..
haha.. i was laughing the whole tyme..
hehe..
terkepit2..
hehee..
so yea..
kiss him fer thy last tyme den i go off..
so yea..
lots of guys have been getting to noe me..
i noe. da mcm siak kn aku.
hey there's no wrong in makin frens rite?
so yea..
later on that day.
met up with jah. tok2 with her fer a while.. den came along farhah and fazanah.
haha.. fazanah was witing fer ted. again.. haha they will never end it la kn.
den she n jah was toking about that day at banquet.
haha.. kekek siak.
ouh ya!!! i almost forgot...
shortay!! WAS LIKE FREAKKING KIUT SIAL.
siak pey jah. she was looking at himm all the while la..
frm the tyme he stop his bike.. till he's out of sight..
haha.. damn that guy was so cute. sadly.. da ade yg punye la kn..
haha..
aniways..
my cousin.. SYED KHAIRI.. added farhah on frensta..
haha kekek siak..
farhah was like omg! ~~so syafiqah siak~~ suke uh member..
den i was like.. omg! SO.. i added him up.
hey! ders no harm rite. my cuz is hot! and surprisingly. iqah was added too.
wad a small werld.
haha..
so yea..
hermy called me up. didnt tok that long with him. coz i was so bored..
and i purposely tok crap. and make him bored so i can continue tgk crite the longest yard..
hehe..
i noe im kinda bad knnnnnnn...
den chatted with fluffy whos real name is eshashafiq.. pelikk kan name..
heee... tok with him fer a while.
den hykel called. tok fer a while oso.
den thy last person to call. HIM. saved fer thy last. haha..

aniways.
u noe my ex. primary 5 ex. kamalruzaman.
haha.
his brother was the guy frm dinodi..
haha.. den he send his song la. i listen to his voice. sedaapp la sia.
haha..
soo..
ouh ya! and luke was realli making my day la..
although we tok crap. but. he's fun uh.
hee..
okay la.
dats it fer today.

things are back to normal again. i doubt so it will remain like this.

day one..

2008-07-14T21:59:00.003+08:00

well. today goes well.
i'ts been clear that we r not gonna contact each other animore.
sumhow. i think it was all planned.
maybe he was waiting fer thy right moment wher im gonna do mistakes.
so he cud juz ditch me juz like dat *snap.
so yea.
aniways.
im doing fine..
school was ok.
gi amek test bodoh tuh. and i gt like 21 over 30.
not memuaskan. but ok la kn.
after dat, went fer break. wanted to eat but no appitite.
well u noe i noe. hmpmh.
den. 12 oclock lesson, dan ajar.
aku cabot kol 1 gi aku nye smoking counselling..
haa.. mepek sia. buang2 duit aku je.
ape mmg ade org ke yg akan quit after pegi counselling tuh???
haha..
den met up with farh and jah. gi cgh coz yaya mum's masok hospital.
juz hoped she'd be ok and get well soon.
den fie jumpa mama jap. den lpak skejap. den dia balek.
me farh n jah gi lpak 32. man i was hungry la. haha.
da anta farh balek. den i me n jah go 7E gi top up dia nyer ezlink n i bought sandwhich.
dden jalan balek.
i gt home... mama n fir not at home. zaman je ade.
so yea. bsok bdae zaman!! hepi 20th. haha..
so yea. my mum was like asking me wad to do on his bdae. and i go like... "entah??"
haa..
blur siak aku. budak umor 20 tahun. nk buat pe eh. confem merayap ngan members.
confem nk enjoy. btol tkk?
so yea.
aniways.
life have been bad. i always knew it la. everytime on holiday. sumthing gd WILL happen. den wen skul reopens. that's wen everything suxx. every effort juz wen down da drain.
well. its not like im regretting la. im juz pissed. but now. manageable la..
im ok.
even the weather let me down. haixx..
buck up la fafa...
aniways i've made a decision that im gonna take private diploma after my NITEC.
juz need some space frm schools!! maybe taking at MDIS.
yea.. den maybe after dat, see uh. if i can further my studies.. den i will. no prob.
but chop2 by next year july i muz finish my motor! mesti nye. duit da siap dok.
tunggu amek jer. wakaka..

Nobodys Home - Avril Lavigne

i've let u go.

2008-07-14T02:31:00.002+08:00

olrite.
u noe wad.
its tyme.
i've tried my best to let tiz happen.
but thanks to u.
u've let me down again.
i realli appreciate all those things u've done fer me.
thanks. reali.
i will not n never forget everything about us.
it'll remain as a memory in this lil heart of mine.
but if u think im cold. ur colder.
it hard. but i cant do aniting else animore.
u juz kept me hanging again n again.
its freaking hard.
well.
like i said b4.
u haf my blessings. enjoy ur life.
im sure u cn get over me juz like dat *snap..
and u can get a replacemen oso juz like dat *snap
dun u wori bout me. i'll be fine.
well honey.
u did not hurt me at all!
u destroyed me completely.
"...ku menanti bila kah kau kn kembali.. hingga kini. tiada berita darimu
ku harungi.. perjalanan hidup ini sampai nanti.."
ye.
aku kn siape. i noe wher i stand.
aniways. our love will nevr b forgotten.
if u nid help. im here fer u with arms open.
yea. i wont say bye like u. i'll say.. c ya arnd.

Over (GMA Version] - Lindsay Lohan

a song fer u..

confusing..

2008-07-12T01:57:00.003+08:00

well..
after such a confusing moment in my life.
i asked him again.
well. b4 dat i met farhah and fie kat 32.
ajak jah. but jah kua ngan adek nye.
so yea.

told farhah n fie bout him.
drg gave me a gd advice la.
yea im gonna take ur advice..
so i called him up.
asked him. all my doubts la.
he said he was scared.
he nid me. he wan me.
we r each other possesion.
ok. fer once i think he' serious bout dat.
but some parts realli made me doubt bout him.
i dunno la..
ala. laki lau da hansem ker cute ker.
they r prone to contact more than one girl pe.
mcm aku. been der done dat sia.
well. i was siak siak at that point of tyme la.
but now's diff.
everything's diff.
u can feel. yes i noe im like still hanging on.
which i do not noe y.. *-_-
haix.
God. plz show me a way to get out of thiz mess plz.
show me wads right and wads wrong. at tis moment i cant differentiate it.
den gt another guy. hermy. he's nice and all. but sumhow juz naw he was like a pest.
ok. put aside the "he like me" part. but he keep saying he misses me, kept calling me biler aku nga keje. padahal aku da bilang sey. that i'll be werking.
well. i dun miss HIM dat much la. but im wondering y my hp senyap je eh.
sumtimes. i feel like im letting him go. sumtimes i wanna keep it.
now i want to let go. but confem nye chop2.. nanti tk jadi.

k la. im sleeping.

ooooo..
anyone wana date me?? im open! im free! but no serious stuff ok.. im not into it.
~~aku rasa hati aku da tertutop untuk lelaki. i need a break. on hiatus.~~

u did not hurt me. u totally destroyed me,

2008-07-08T21:29:00.002+08:00

baby..
tAnx fer telling me the truth..
juz dat im freaking sad rite now.
how i wished u haf told me that earlier.
or sumthing.
coz u gave me a lot of hopes.
and now u said this.
its ok i undersatnd. i noe.
we're still young and more things to ahieve in life den juz love itself.
i noe we muz sacrifies. but it feels like im da onli one whos gonna do dat.
i noe u dun wanna hurt me. yes i noe u love me.
but tiz is juz so suicidal..
tell me again y am i tear-ing so badly??
well..
if u nid a fren to be by ur side. i here.
if u feel sad. i'm here fer u.
well.
juz so u noe that. wad ever u do.
u haf my blessings. u haf my faith. u haf my trust.
u haf my everything.
juz haf a hepi life.
ur my greatest thing that happened to me, fren.

im juz in a confused state rite now.
yesh i noe teen love doesnt lasts.
hey! look on the bright side. we're young.
im heppi fer u. though it hurts alot.
juz noe that if i find a replacement. dun u come bck,fren.

~~deep inside my heart tells me that there's sumthing else.~~

Im an angel fer today..

2008-07-06T21:32:00.002+08:00

hey hey!
i juz came bck frm DARUL MA'WA..
they had the jamiyah 15 yrs carnival thingy..
all amal nye benda and stuff..
firstly mmg aku tk nk pagi..
i was suffering la.. coz my two knees was giving me prob..
but.. woke up at 545.. met farhah. den make our way to eunos.
stoopid fendi said we muz be there exactly 7. ye la..
sampai sane je. drg aru kat raffles place.. sabar je kite.
kite tunggu uh drg.
sambil2 tu we're like cam whoring la.
not much pix. coz gambar buruk..
BURUK OR WHUATT!!!
haha..
soo..
da jumpe drg smue..
make pur way there.
smapi sane i made new frens..
they brief us about wads gona hapen today and so forth..
i was stucked with muhamad effendi la.. tic was also with me..
had a great tyme! my gosh!..
kak di was fun man! haha.. a male-she..
haha.. fun la sey dia. hoped to meet HER sumwher..
haha.. tic was like realli curious to noe how she looked like
coz da whole day she wear da shades. omg! i did dat too...
haha.. paisey dok. tk sek sia jual ice blended bubble tea. well.
everything was melekit. every joints was making probs. every muscle was aching.
but every single sweat i drop was reali worth it.
i felt fresh after dat la.. fresh dalam segi iman! haha..
well..
was missing shayang soo badly.. hmm.. lom reply ni msg..
wonder wad he's doing.. haa.. wanted to mit him. but i was like freakking tired sia.
haix..
so yea.. sok skola. damn!
my red moda poala shoes was like ruined la due to dat stoopid melekit shop.
very muddy coz asyek2 kene amek air.. haiz.
now i need to iron my clothes.. lap lap my shoes. clean n pack my stuffs
FER SKUEL TOMORO!!!
haha..
k la. aniting i'll blogg soon..

ku menanti..

2008-07-03T16:12:00.002+08:00

lagu ku menanti became one of my fav song yaw.
i dunno y. but i juz love dat song.
hehe. ade hati nk karaoke lagu ni.
ni mama nga karoke sendiri ni. pening la kepale aku dgr.
haha.. aku nk join. but lagu aku nk nyanyi smue takde.
smue lagu slow rock. lagu lelaki.
i gt no prob nyanyi lagu tuh smue. but parah uh. suare bass je.
haha..
so yea.
today i never go out.
tk lpak pon. coz smalam da penat giler kn.
well.
sit at home. makan. baring makan. chatt..
boring sak. such a pink day.
so yea.
i miss khairul nizam.
haha.
member gi amek test tadi. out of 4 papers. he passed 3. ok pe kn.
ader ke dia kol aku biler aku nga sedap tido.
haha.
den ade hati ckp aku nye suara mcm ex dia. haha. funni him
so yea. moving on.
later he'll be having his prac n revision.
so yea. all da best hunney.
kk.
school is gonna restart soon. like Monday!!
my.. my..
im so gonna miss my frens and all man!
gonna miss all da fun we had like going to jurong swimming
where hannah and mya ade.
man...
such a short holiday and so much things.. as in great things happen.
now that school gonna restart. imma concentrate on studies man.
hehe. ade chance pegi skola same2 la kn. but tu pon lau member nye schedule same.
wakaka.
welll. im gonna start my job back on 11th. having appoinment on 9th.
taking my smoking counselling on 14th and 21st. den go pay on 21st oso.
well.. 15th is my bro's bdae. confirm tkkan ade kat umah nye. merayap ngan members.
omg. bout dat ayin thing. i haven explain to my bro yet. coz he's like
not always at home. asek2 balek camp. macam mane nk bilang dia kn. haiyoo..
so yea.
well.. my fingers now very tired.
off to east coast tomoro. go tan!
bye!

vivovooommmm!!!

2008-06-30T13:06:00.002+08:00

haha.
went out with khai.
met him at bout 3 at bedok.
move on to vivo.
smp kite makan2.
he kept saying "susah uh nk ckp ngan u."
haha. to me its funny.
kept asking him wad du u mean by that.
i think im juz being to slenger kn.
haix.
haha..
den gt these 3 rp of malay family. makan kt banquet bt drink plain water.
ala. plain water yg beli 60 cent nye. haha.. kekek siak.

den we jalan2. tgk shades! lawa dok. op nye. khai nk beli.
hehe.
kite tgk2 uh bju2. ted sumthing uh. mahal giler nnye! its like hundred plus.
den masok kedai mango. den gt tis nice bju. but ngah takde sen. so diam2 je.
tk bbual byk. hehehe.
kite move on to toys r us!
omg! that gundu. sengaje bwk aku kt tempat barbie. which i hate!
he took this furry stuff. and put it on me.
he took my pic! i look like kelempek uh.. sot skejap sei.
den. we went to da bear bear shop. i forgot da shop name.
cute la sei. he jollywell noe that i hate pink. but sengaje nk tunjuk2 benda pink.
he said. if he were to buy me a pink bju. no matter how i hate da color. i wud still wear it. well.. will i?? i dunno man!
soo...
after that randomly we talked bout crite WANTED! hehe.
so we actualii bought da tickets and watch at 7 pm. well.
while waiting da entrance to open. ternampak pulak ex dia yg recently one.
dia yg tegur. so i looked at her. muka mcm this sats girl uh. but bukan uh.
ooo.. member nampak. muka kinda cuak uh. but buat bodoh.
hmm.. well.. members dia pun tau.
well.. aku kat situ da mcm tak kene gaye siak. i feel so werid.
however. i overcame that. we juz enjoy da movie.
omg!! crite best sial!!! i realli enjoyed it uh. tk sia2 duit aku.
haa.
tapi da worst thing was!!.... ANGELINA JOLIE MATI!!!
soo sad sia. hot hot mama!
haha..
so. after that show. i realli wanna pee badly. tahan pey tahan. queue pey panjang.
den da lepaskn. den. sap rokok jap. den saw dhiana. budak spa jelita. dun wan her to see me. so we bounced off to thy mrt.
on thing surprised me la.
he said. if i were to be a few distance frm him he'd die.
i noe la swit talks. but suddenly i feel stunned.
i dunno la if he reali mean it. or juz a random sentence.
well..
da smp bedok. took 222.
inside da bus. he was being realli irritating with his penguin keychain.
haha. cute. but irritating.
happy feet nye keychain. well. if u notice. im blogging every single detail.
y eh?
haha.
soo..
had a great night yest.
reali fun.
well gonna lpak later. insyallah!

lama tk blog. so here it goes.

2008-06-28T13:49:00.002+08:00

olrite2..
after thy kiss scene.
we became closer la.
well. he did mention of "us" la.
juz that he scared us wont last.
well.. i jz say. we'll juz see..
even if its juz fer a while.. i realli never regret aniting la.
seriously..

kk well..
so.
i went shop and extended my hair.
it tooked freaking 2 hours. and farhah was kinda late fer midnight shift.
haha. bt still love her.
well..
extended coz of cik liah's wedding..
so. saturday was da day dia nikah which was on 21st.
so friday night. i was werking la.
sampai umah je mak aku kol ckp mama kat umah nenek ngah bikin inai. nk tk?
so aku turon la umah nenek aku. carrying on with wedding stuffs.
den gt this small girl k la nt small la. i think her age arnd sec 2 or se c 3 like dat.
she drew da inai pattern pey la buruk. omg. i think i draw it myself lagi mulia.
damage my hand onliy.
saturday itself. ramai siak org ader. sedare aku smue ade.
den bak tidor umah sini ngan kwn malaysia dia. kimak tak best siak aku nk tido malam2..
sal tilam aku yg double tu dia amek. abey aku tidor tk sedap.
haix.
den saturday happening la. farhah turon. fie turon. jah tk.
took pictures and all.. bodoh pey zaman amek gambar ngan dia buat muka siak.
tk guna pey abg.
farhah was crazy about syed khairi la. mane2 dia pegi nampak muka dia. haha..
kekekek sak.
well..
so.
part nikah was ok. cik razak onli say da "aku terima aliah binte yusof ibrahim dengan mas kawin tersebut" lincah2 and was bold la.
haha. i tot he can say that coz he's kinda slenger.
abey abg aku ngan sedare aku maseh ley kutuk2 dia kat blakang. sial tol. haha.
aku pon pasang telinga uh.
kk..
cik liah lawa uh. nanti if i gt da tyme i'll post da pix..
hantaran was nicely decorated. cool.
kk..
so.. me and my bro was freakking tired la. bak was shouting at ppl mcm tarzan.
plan tok aku tk cock up sia. macam paham la dia.
lpak ngan budak2.. tok sumthing with agus. bout skool. rafi was freakking annoying.
abg aku da seiik.. sap rokok sampai 3 kotak. mentang2 free..
sunday me farhah fie and hannah became berkat girl.
haha.. kite kasi2 oreo kat budak2..
hehe. den this rafi guy. pemain bola sepak gelang united dulu.
came down der. he and his small daughter. cute la sey.
sumpah dulu aku penah amek gambar ngan dia eh time k1 ke k2.
haha...
den he was looking at me and us la.. i fine him handsome. weish! bapak and laki org tuh. haha..
den. after da berkat was finished. we go eat. den give them money and balek la smue.
omg! i was so freakking tired that i slept frm 6 pm to like 11 pm. itu je sak. haix den tk ley tdo.
so monday im suppose to werk. bt tot i cud haf mc. bt no one's gonna cover me.
so pegi je keje.
again i was de only lady or female werking petang.
so..
moving on in life.
i love my life rite now.
i dun wan these happening things in life juz end like dat.
i love wads going on in life now.
im deeply in love with khai.
wad ever it is.
ok.
today, tomoro and monday is my off day! woohoo..
guess wad.
i took off my extension which doesnt last me half a yr.
haha.
gonna cut my hair to bob hairstyle!!
ok la. later meeting jah and farhah.
gi minom dok!!
baileys..
credits to my werk-mate. Yusri.Shafiq.Shaiful.

2008-06-16T13:04:00.002+08:00

had fun. someone send me home.
thanks fer thy cigg..
love ya.
confessed everything.
now.
normal stuff..
wel.. i wanna go siap.
pape i'll blogg again.

finali he kissed me

stage 3

2008-06-15T10:39:00.002+08:00

well..
now things jus gt worse.
well i find it funny.
to talk about contraception and all..
haha.. its juz too weird.
well.. fer once i its was all a new person.
i was kinda disappointed.
but hey. everyone needs it rite??
haha..
olrite.
im not gonna hang around like this.
its like a monkey hanging arnd tree knowing that the branches are not safe to hang on.
well.. im able to take dat risks. but no.
it takes two hands to clap.
wth!!
im not suppose to wait a guy like that sia.
dammit.
wen i thought the happi part juz started. always haf a bad ending. cb.
sumtimes i think imma failure.
haix..
well.. count me in fer thy next guy who want me to be his gf.
im all giving up fer HIM.
urrrgghh..
dun worry i wil still keep da memories.
haix.
no respect. go. outs!

olrite. i'll blog again aite.
actuali i juz woke up. haha.

i shud do thiz..

2008-06-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

i think and i think..
wad shud i do next.
i think everthing is falling apart..
seriously.
hmmph.
i think its tyme to let it go.
its juz a stoopid feeling.
i hate the feeling.
its tyme to let it go.
slowly. but need to let go quickly.
i noe that he noes wad i noe and i noe wad he noes.
so yea. im cool with that.
there's a better and more complex chance of him being juz gd friends.
yea.
noting wrong with that aite?
yea.
even i wud wan my life to be like da After Summers novel..
its hard.
seriously. its hard.
dammit.
im confused realli. realli confused.
bt at the same time. no one can do nothing about it.
rite?
its how i feel. no one can change that.
im nt terasa or sumthing. bt a bit la. haha.
well.. juz let fate decide. who should go with who.
i've tried. now its ur turn.

okay..
frens huh.
aite!!

freakking out

2008-06-14T01:21:00.002+08:00

werk haf been great.
nari spatutnye buat bc b.. but syafiq mintak tukar.
so i did first class..
abey aku yg abes cepat.
yus ngan syafiq abes lambat. slenger nye yus. trolley kat sane bukan nk gi check.
amek kau lambat..
wakaka..
den.
went otw to bustop. yus said bye.
den fer once aku mcm terpikir benda mepek la.
watch dia n syafiq walk all da way to carpark...
"fafa! bye" yus..
haa.. kekek la dia.
but..
haha.. nvm.
so yea..
ouh ya btw.
khai n jah was in da same theory class.. kecoh sak.
aku ade la terkial-kial ngan keje aku msg2 ni dua badot..
haha..
kekek la sey. y i miz such a gd action!! urgh
nvm.
den balek tyme. online.
skali gt tiz guy add me in tagged. so he asked fer my email.
i gave.
we chat2..
den skali muka mcm penah nampak.
nk tau sape tak?
ex aku siot! kamalruzaman..
kimak kecoh sak...
wah.. lama benar aku tak nampak dia. he was my pri 5 ex.
haha. well its a gd thing he remembered.
haha.. and im like haywire here sia.
cant get over it yet.
well..
gonna meet khai on sunday.
yea.
so well..
ngantok mau tdo.
sok keje. yea.
~~member pon keje~~
~~kamal called me dear. asl aku mcm suka ni. no! haha..~~
MANGKOK!!

2008-06-12T23:45:00.002+08:00

Suatu hari, CINTA dan KAWAN sednag berjalan- jalan
di kampung..
Tiba-tiba..
CINTA jatuh ke dalam telaga..
KENAPA?
kerna CINTA itu BUTA.
Lalu, KAWAN pun terjun ke dalam telaga tersebut.
KENAPA?
kerna KAWAN akan buat apa-apa sahaja demi CINTA.
Di dalam telaga, CINTA hilang..
KENAPA?
kerna CINTA itu halus dan mudah hilang kalau tidak dijaga..
Apatah lagi sukar untuk mencari CINTA di dalam telaga yang gelap.
Walaupun gelap, KAWAN tetap mencari CINTA..
KENAPA?
KERANA KAWAN ITU SEJATI DAN AKAN KEKAL SEBAGAI KAWAN..
Jadi....
HArgailah KAWAN anda.
Selagi kita kita rasa dia bererti.
Walaupun kita mempunyai teman istimewa.
KAWAN masih setia.
Walaupun kita mempunyai banyak harta, KAWAN tetap berharga..

So love ur frens..
Love not onli ur GUY.. But love ur frens too...

xxx ILOVEMYFRENS xxx

guess ape..

2008-06-12T23:39:00.002+08:00

hey hey.
nari tk keje deh.
kayaknya aku uda lama ni ngak blog.
haha.
well.. maklom la da start keje..
well..
by bsok aku da masok roster.
kene jb. business class..
haiz.
den. juz naw so swit of farhah to teman me go do my hair.
haha.. thanks alot hunney. i owe u one. nanti date ngan zaman eh.
wakkakakaka..
it takes to freaking long hours lah.
coz they haf this new method.
well.. now dat my hair is long. i feel good! haha..
even though i love my short hair.
ala demi cik liah's wedding kn.
haha....
so. mum saw it and goes mcm rambot mama dulu.asal skit.. duh. mesti la. haha.. takkan nk bikin tebal2..
mak aii..
haha..
well.. i go and wathced crite eiffel im in love again.
coz i bored.
tunggu org msg2. no one at all..
haix.
jah go her motor theory class..
well..
after thy hair thingy, farhah and i go smoke den took cab.
let me off at chai chee bustop. den she go werk.
maklom la da midnight shift..
haha..
k la..
aniting i'l update summore.
sok keje.
sebel aku!!
waduh...

bee love hunney

2008-06-11T00:31:00.002+08:00

well..
these past few days haf been a testing week fer me.
coz.. i feel like as if im being testing alot.
be it in patience or love or family..
wad ever la.
i noe im being tested.
soo..
i begin to let myself out.
be free. its tyme to let her go.
juz let go of her. once is enuf.
wel..
we juz see and wait aite.

so..
been sleeping late lately.
i dunno y.
watched full hse finish already.
actuali im kinda sleepy rite naw.
juz kill tyme.
tiz thursday insyallah jumpa bro fendi and gang. tgk uh.
tu pon drg mcm lom confem.
so i confem do extension hair on thursday.
coz i gt no tyme la since da keje.
haiz..
i think im gonna be mia like sumone kot.
but dun worri.
hmm.. tiz sat sun keje ke tk eh?
hmm..
tot of going out. entah la eh.
k la.. gtg.
bye.
blogg soon.

i take back my werds..

2008-06-08T23:33:00.003+08:00

at da point of me trying to get over u..
u always pop out of no where..
haiz.
apa nk bikin.
sum part of me wanted to say it cud be fate.
but, i doubt so..
well..
i miss his voice. his look. haha.
only i noe how he looked like.
kekek.
ok.
so.. actuali. playing hard to get is realli annoying.
but u like making me wait. it realli hurts.
but even if u dunno that u hurt me. u still cheered me up.
well. i shud not make any judge-ment right now..
but da thing that bothers me rite now is dat..
in a very serious voice(to me la) he said i miss u.
well. it'd kicked me fer a while. but still make me think.
wads dat suppose to mean?
well.. like farhah always do.
chill la kn..
haha..
well.. cik liah's wedding is realli juz arnd da corner..
man i cant wait to go change me hairdo.
ala. fer few months je la kn.
haha..
man! i seem to be anxious about things nowadays.
well.. haha..
i dunno y..
welll.
i better get going.
tomoro's a big day yeah.
cant risks any tiredness.. keje bro! haha.. at bcra. well noting to be proud abt.
but coz i love da pay day. dats all. wakkaa..
kk. nytes.

ps i think i love u.
u la sape lagi.
u...
my best babes..

hmm.. gd news and bad news

2008-06-08T13:35:00.001+08:00

wel..
its been a great pleasure to be with u.
spending tyme with u.
eat with u.
joke arnd with u.
well.
if i were to hurt ur feelings in anyway,
im so sorrie aite.
thanks fer thy unforgettable memories we had.
i came to realise ur juz noting bt juz a crush.
well..
after watching full house, i realise sumthing.
i noe deep inside u, theres sumting.
if u were to ask me if i have been hurt or wad.
yes. coz i felt like ur juz making me feel like im juz a pengubat rindu.
welll..
its ok. i do that to guys too.
but wad a karma. hmm.
well. juz to let u noe. if u nid a fren to be by ur side. im here.

shit la.
problems everywhere.
i feel like going far away man!
wadda hel sia.
am i dat bad?
y ppl giving me soo much probs nie..
dammit uh.
shit.
urrgh!
juz kill me sum one pls.
mama. i noe its been hard on u.
but u cant juz depend on me all da tyme wad.
ade lagi dua anak lelaki tu buat pe?
tak guna pe. ape? fatin yg tak guna?
ape aku ni mcm abg aku.
keje dapat gaji tk ingat kluarge. habis kn gaji trus mintak mak duit.
curi duit aku smue. wtf.
abey si bodoh tu.
mentang2 dia paling terpandai. kirekan smue dia bikin smue btol la.
dia melawan ckp org. tinggi kn suara. berselerakkan umah smue.
tak tolong satu benda pon. itu yg dijunjung??
sedangkan aku di sini is trying my fucking hard to make things better..
wad did i do wrong sey.
bley jadi giler tau.
everything is flopping away.
my studies. my attendance. my life.
i need to get a grip of myself.

stoopid question. my first tyme

2008-06-07T15:12:00.003+08:00

Honestly what color is your shirt?
`white and black..
Honestly, whats on your mind?
` to go out or to watch full house..
Honestly, what have u done yesterday?
` went spa, took pay, went bedok, bought tshirt, bought donut,go home, sleep, woke up at 9 plus, watched bangku kosong, den watched korean drama, den sleep.
Honestly, have you ever been in love?
` DUH!! and i think i am ryte naw..
Honestly, feeling anything unusual today?
` erm.. kinda. maybe longing fer sumone and ciggies!!!
Honestly, is your heart still occupied?
` nope. was never occupied.
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the fone?
` erm... i think sharil.
Honestly , are you jealous of somebody right now?
` well.. not realli.
Honestly, what makes you sad most of the time?
` to force myself to think that me and him are juz frens. padahal, i like him so much.
Honestly, are you LOVING someone right now?
` well. my frens said i am. i dunno man!
Honestly ,what are the things you don't want in life?
` fuckers. who think that aku ni hidop hanya utk pengubat rindu kekasih lama krg!!!!
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
` yesh. stoopid berg guy.
Honestly, any plannings in near future?
` well. change my hairdo dats wad imma gonna do.
Honestly, do you love someone very much?
` sadly, yes. i think. but wad to do. he never see me. i think.
Honestly, does anyone like you?
` hmm.. i dunno go ask them.

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY

*Anger Section*
What do you do when you're mad?
` juz think of him. and im cheered up.
*What's the worst things you've done when you were mad?
` i dunno. ususaly i cry la. no violence.
*Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
` haha!! yeah. my lil bro. heheh.
*Do you curse when you're mad?
` even wen im not mad. i cursed.
*When was the last time you really cried?
` few days ago.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?
` haha. mcm lyric mroon five je. yesh i do ever b4.
What usually makes you cry?
` when i think of daddy, whose not arnd animore. and bad stuff that are happening.
Are you normally a happy person?
` ouh yeah i am!! actuali its hard to see me cry. seriously.
Does being with your friends makes you happy?
` damn yes!
When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?
` haha. if its not sarcastic, of course im heppi.

cb

2008-06-05T18:06:00.002+08:00

kimak.
at last surat saman sampai.
cb. da sebulan lebih aru smp..
kau, mepek sak.
aku kinda sot la.
but actuali im cooling down rite naw.
now da thing is.
aku kene tunggu makcik aku nye wedd over den aru aku ley gi
counselling smue.
ala counselling brape je bayar,
8 ketol. 2 counselling.
ala. jah cakap counselling skejap je. tak smp 30 min.
haix. but still. bercinta tau nk gi tunggu gaji aku smue.
btw insyallah aku start keje on monday.
mesti gi siang2 la kn.
must siak/ jadi on da 20th aku dpt gaji den aru ley gi counselling smue.
haix. naseb bukan kene byar 300 sak. mangkok siak aku byr 300..
haha..
well. wad a suay sey.
now mama noes im smoking. well. insyallah dengan izin-NYA aku try quit la.
haiz. abey lau influence da kuat kat skola. kat luar. nk buat pe.
sudah tercatat dah im gonna smoke. but lau aku usaha nk berhenti.. tu lain crite la.
ok.
i try not to smoke. try distract me with sumthing else. kau aku gi buang
lighter aku yg kiut color purple lak tu. maseh byk gas sey. alamak.
tkpe2. 30 cent je. no prob. ley beli lagi.
well.. aku nga tunggu aku 18 je. den my mum no need to worri abt me kene saman lagi.
i think i noe y she dun let me smoke. coz im under 18. yeah.
i noe. well. we juz haf to wait fer thy big moment la kn.
anyways. im gonna change ma hairdo maybe by nxt week saturday?
muz be b4 cik liah's wedd la. kate nk melawa. mane tau aku ketemu ngan jodoh aku ke.
wakaka.. mepek k. ishk mane tau kn. haha.
talking bout dat. im soori ppl i cant follow u guys go bugis and lau pa sat.
aku firstly nga broke. and aku mcm malas nk gi coz yati and black tak de. mat pon tak confem.
well der will be a next tyme aite. ala. lagipon abg aim ade. sape nk gi layan siak.
okok.
well.
aku nk tgk crite winter sonata ni. i brb. maybe later i blogg again ayte.

sori juz naw ajak kua tak ley.

bee-u-tiful day today..

2008-06-05T13:28:00.002+08:00

hey2..
fer once i tot dat da fad guy gone.
it wasnt true.
ade ke patut dia msg aku 630 pagi.
aku lak lupa letak silent mode.
haix..
abey in 10 in da morning he strikes agiain.
he said. asl aku senyap je. sial la.
da kenape sia ngan dia.
so wen i received jah msg abt today lpak plan.
aku reply msg fad.
i was like..
mean la.
i said.
"asl ngan ko sak. y u kept msging me? abey pagi2 buta msg org.
kacau org tdo kn."
tros member tak reply sak.
haha. i noe im very mean. but i haf to la.
tak ley biar kn org naik kepale ngan aku la.
haix.. guys eh. tsk tsk tsk..
well.. insyallah aku keje on monday nxt week.
i noe skuling. but i need to werk la.
pahse test is on either tuesday or wednesday.. insyallah ley pass..
haha..
ok.
so.. i want to download songs so much that i go download bearshare.
so da imesh sak.
skali nk lagu dua insan ternampak lak name khai18. confem dia.
haa..
well.
so moving on in life.
juz naw i go check out my punjabi suite.
cool. so loving it and tak sabar nk pakai. and oso weave my hair..
aaaa!!!! wee~.. new look temporary..
haha..
k la.. later im goin out to lpak wif jah and maya. insyallah farhah ade.
ok.
tata. loves.

still thinking bout HIM. ouh. abg berg.

noting better to do..

2008-06-03T14:39:00.002+08:00

well.. been home frm juz naw.
nk kua mcm malas uh. sorrie.
well. was listening thiz long ago song.
janji padamu..

"andainya kau jauh dari ku.. dekati hatiku
andainya kau yg pegi dulu hampa la insan ku
jangan tinggal kn ku. jangan persiakan cinta yg murni..."

lama sak tak dengan lagu ni.
da last guy who sang thiz song was hafiz airport.
well kenangan siak. k de lagi satu lagu.bt i forgot.
man dat was like two yrs ago??
haha.. siak.
cb.
well.. dat stoopid fad kept msging me. walaupon aku tk reply. he kept msging me.
mangkok.
well..
bsok and thursday tk skola
i juz wanna spend tyme "alone"
as in go sumwher. haf me alone tyme.
been moody nowadays.
well.. seriously i tot today was wednesday tau. mepek kn.
haha. fid pon pk cam tu tadi.
well.. i gt like 5 days sak. free days!!
but i dunno wad to do. or wher to go. damn!
stoopid exams.
well.. i wanna go haf a quick nap.
regain myself fer tonite late chats. muahahaa...
mcm paham.
and dun call me fad!! im not a guy! n neither im loving a guy name fad.
lau..
k mepek. done.

hey hey..

2008-06-03T09:38:00.002+08:00

supp..
da 2 hari tak blog.
noting much happens.
met up wif farhah n da mrning yest.
beli rokok.
haha. ntah da kenape nk sap rokok sgt kn..
since sunday sak.
so lpak jap ngan farhah n fazanah..
crite mepek2..
den member choa kol 12. left me all alone.
sempat blaja jap.
haha.
sepatutnye blaja on sunday.
but lain crite lak jadi.
haha.
gd tymes..
well.
smalam. small bro's bdae. ala. 13 yrs old je.
haha. aru masok sec 1. bile mau kluar secondary skul.
haha.
tot dat mama want to buy him psp. but abg tk kasi coz laptop ade buat pe..
haha.. lain uh crite lau dia nk belikn aku..hehe.
well.. nk tunggu psp lama uh. takkan dec aru nk beli..
haix.
cik liah's wedd is juz arnd da corner.
tat tyme ade family meeting aku tk join. malas uh.
balek2 crite same.
juz cant wait fer thy big day.
cheyy mcm aku ni yg nk kawin gitu..
gonna be thy kendarat. insyallah. lau aku tak malas uh.
lau duit jatuh takpe. lau tk. burn sua..
hmm.. las lpak was on saturday.
went out wif mirah n her boifey wan.
haha. she changed alot uh. wow. so proud of wan to change mirah..
cheers. but..
takpe la.
did my test. scored 80%. ala. pass la tu.
aku blaja ok.

malam smalam chat as per normal.
kawan baik aku kn, asik2 cakap name fad.
eh fad is noone siak.
mampos tak nk tau. menyusahkn aku.
aski2 msg2 aku. call2 aku. cb tol.
hate him siak. prangai so ZULFADHLY
tak suka. tak suka. tak suka.
well.. ni lau dia kol kn. like wad nurul say. maki den letak sudah.
malas uh nk layan2 budak lelaki yg aku tak kenal.
ade hati ckp dapat numbor aku dari kwn pey kwn. mangkok je.
pk funfair pe shia..
well..
aku teringat elfie.
coz juz naw mama tanye sal dia.
mana la aku tau dia kt mana skrg.
da ilang. tros lesaaaaap..
mat pon tanye sey sal dia.
mat ckp asl buih sak.
mana lah aku tau... abey ade hati ckp aku pon buih.
sedap je ckp gitu. sape yg plan sey. not me!
well.. naseb aku kua on 31 sey. lau tak terperap sak kat umah
tunggu org kol sal plan BCRA outing.
mangkok.
ape nk jadi.

k la. gtg.

sads..

2008-06-01T12:54:00.002+08:00

well..
today i feel kinda down.
since yest.. sengaje nk kua coz i nid some thinkings..
i went out wif jah, farhah and mirah with her wan..
jumpa je hujan lebat..
den im still in confused state..
i dun wanna make da biggest mistake in life.
well.. sumhow i think im on dat path. unlucky me..
but still i wanna discover sumthing i never did b4..
i wanna try things out.
still. ur almost here.
haiz..
naik bus parkway shuttle bus.. i was kinda sad.
i think my frens noes la.
well.. but again. asal kn aku nk lari, confem dia ade siak..
haix.. wad to do. nk katekn jodoh bukan siak.
stop meddling wif my feelings can. unless u haf sumthing uh..
urrghh.. fine me some peace to tiz thing plz.
well. im confused rite now coz im suppose to go out study..
jadi ke tk ni.
i dunno.
well. lau tak jadi takpe. i can go study on my own.
i need ciggies man!! dammit. dari nk quit tak quit2 siak.
semangat seminit je.. hahaha..
well..
layan kn seseorang semalam malam. kite story2..
msg2 my best friend(or....) bout today. tired. slept. woke up.
and now blogging. da mandi ok. wangi je.
hmm..
kita maseh mudah dalam mencari keputusan..
ok.
gtg.

erm..

2008-05-30T23:52:00.002+08:00

well..
went out to bedok corner..
makan carrot cake..
woiishh my fav!
jah mkn some odd pasta..
haha.. stoopid aunty looked.. no actuali stared at me bile aku sneeze..
mepek kn.
wads her prob..
haiyoo..
den make our way to empire donut.
used to be munchy donut. but now empire donut.
ok la. uniform kinda cool..
well lama tak mkn donut. but juz naw aku tak beli uh..
well.
da bis makan. make our way to chai chee.
lpak ngan farhah.
wel.. not much happen today la. coz morning je da happening.
haha.
wake up call sia.
waduh.
now juz finished chatted wif aslam.
going to sleep.
wow.. surprising fafa tdo cepat on saturday nite. haha.. or friday nite?
well wad to do. my day was kinda bore.
hmm.. hoped tomoro is sum gd day. mirah ajak main pool ngan matair nye,wan.
maybe furqan ikot. well lama uh tk jumpa dia. ouh. baru 17 eh.. ahha..
hmm.. hoping farhah cud cum along. but member kene gi keje kawin kn.
nid to confem wif jah. so yea. pape aku contact dia sok pagi.
k la.
ngantok.
love every moment as my days passing by...

Siti dun give up..

2008-05-30T12:29:00.003+08:00

well..
was awaken by thy msg of sumone.
msg2 dia.. fer a while..
den tot dat i cud sleep bck.
haikkel lak msg.
abey org da reply. bukan nk reply balek.
so..
slept fer a while
den woke up at 11..(actuali tk ley tdo uh)
on my lappy.. appear offline kt msn. changed my pm n nick.
den heard vibration. my phone. he called.
bbual jap ngan dia. he was having his break time. keje sei member.
put down da phone wif him.
i dunno y i was smiling.
den mat sepet gi hi aku. sum unknown guy who add me at tagged.
den. chat jap ngan dia. boring la him.
den went bathing. ate. den now blogging.
heard sum cool song. like tiz one..

aku bukanlah
wanita yang semau gue
tapi aku lah si cewek cuek
kamu mau apa?

aku mencari sebuah cinta
yang ada di hati
jangan-janganlah kau mempermainkan
cinta ku lagi.

jangan ganggu aku
kalau kau masih
punya persaan
biarkan diriku sendiri saja
mengahdapi hidup..

nice song.
jah lom call..
maybe later i nid to go anta bursary.
shit. bsok last day. so i realli nid to go anta.

check tiz out!!

2008-05-29T17:17:00.003+08:00

aku mendak tau ni.
tu sbb aku edit gambar bodoh ni..
haiz..
haha.. getting to noe a guy whom i used to noe in da past..
haiz.. everything is cuming bck..
but one thing i noe dat wud never cum bck.
my dad. hmm..
well.. im gonna post again.. at nite. haha.. insyallah!!

sumthing random i've created..

2008-05-29T16:18:00.003+08:00

CINTA KARMA

Mengapakah kau menghancurkan
Cita-cita yang kita binakan
Mengapa engkau yang menyelapkan
Setelah semua yang ku serahkan..

Bukankah aku yang kau cintai?
Bukankah ku yang kau sayangi?
Bukankah kau yang menglafaskan
Apakah cinta yang kita bina akan berkekalan?

Sayang.. Cinta kita tak berpanjangan
Ketika aku sedang berada di alam khayalan
Terbayang wajahmu, menjadi bayangan..
Sayang.. Kau yang inginkan perpisahan
Apakah aku tidak setanding denganmu??
Ataukah kau yang curang di belakang ku??

Mungkin satu hari nanti..
Kita akan bertemu lagi..
Hanya satu ku ingin kau mengingati,
Akan ku lari jauh ke hutan
Membuat kau sebagai satu kenangan
Titisan airmataku tidak dapat dibandingkan dengan hujan
Tidak ku mahu lagi merasakan kesakitan
Walaupun selama ini ku menelan segala kepahitan
Apabila Cinta dan Jodoh tidak berpanjangan

Tidak akan ku melupakan..
PERCINTAAN..
Yang kini hanya menjadi satu lagi kenangan..

Sedih kn?
well..
i wrote thiz thing since sec 4..
i was searching fer sumthing else and found tiz book.
old book.
opened and read old stuffs.. haha i was weird.
so juz decided to post tiz in.
well.
enjoy while u can!!

huhuhu.. sob sob.. pfftt! im hurt! im hurt!

2008-05-29T14:55:00.004+08:00

y does everything have to be this way?
y muz i feel so bad..
padahal noting tau.
haiyoo..
y everything is falling apart?
cheyy bbual mcm baru break. k mepek mepek.
well..
my day today quite bored.
but thanks to Rizal, i gt da ok song..
wanna hear? tak ley!
haha..
so..
started my day bad. ending.... lom tau lagi.
jah called juz now bile aku kat lam bus..
member tanye khabar..
well i said i gt bad news. bout abg berg. well.. member tros.
kau ok tak. takmo nangis tau.
haha.. cute sia jah.
haha..
well.. i was a bit upset la..
coz ppl haf been meddling with ma feelings sia..
wth!!
hey! go get a life and fuck ur own dick ok. tak mo nk sibuk2 mempermain kn prasaan org uh.
haiyo.... stooopid la.
well yest abg mickey(fendi) msg aku.. tanye khabar.. well right timing i need sumone to talk to.
so i kinda blurt everything out to him.
he said. juz get to noe him better la. so that i can erase the doubts on my mind.
well to me.. he kinda sound like. well adik. da la yg sudah tu sudah.
haha..
the thing is i dunno wad to do la. if i noe i wud haf done it. tol tak?
hmm... k back to jah.
jah ajak fafa gi bedok corner sok. coz mcm da lama kn tak pegi sane.
kite plan tu tungu farhah abes skul den we go together.
well... bsok i nid to anta my bursary form to cc kaki bukit.
hmm.. shit! date due lagi satu hari sia. kimak. mama bising je.
hehe.. sorri mama.
went sw. tak main pape. bored. mr chan bebel je.
sap rokok. hey! i nid to quit kn! stoopid fafa.

wad a bad week.

all i need noe is.

Live.Love.Laughs

Now i fell. gona pick myself up again..
get moving and be strong.
well i noe dat farhah n jah are gonna help me thru tiz.
thanks in advance. lau tak tolong kn. bustard sia.
haha..

damn..

2008-05-28T19:48:00.002+08:00

shit..
i think sumtink happen.
it juz gt worse.
damn.
skrg aku confused.
wad was i doing in btwn of thy life?
aku hampa tau ni.
i gt no say la.
but Siti dun give up.
let me b there wen ur heart stops beating.
its ok. i've been thru shits in any relationship.
almost 10 of them.
well..
well.. i think mama noes dat i smoke..
coz aku nye bodoh g sap rokok kat lam bilik..
but i tot bau da takde sey.
well.. wad to do. peng uh.
hope tomoro is another great day in skul la plz.
im having pms. hate it so much.

like lily said. every happiness always have an ending. its either ur prepared or not.
but well. i was prepared.
stil i can contact. bt hope it doesnt get worse.
coz once its worsen. im backing off sia.
my firasat was true. i knew it all along.

well.. its all a SIGN..

welll.. ppl juz hoped fer thy best ayte.
Amin.

2008-05-28T16:50:00.002+08:00

read thiz if ur in love.. haha.. its so true.. believe me.. im in dat situation..

17:You look at their profile constantly.
16:When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up,you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.
15:You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again.
14:You walk really slow when you're with them.
13:You feel shy whenever they're around.
11:Your heart beats faster but slower at the same time when you think about them.
10:You smile when you hear their voice.
9:When you look at them,you can't see the other people around you, you just see him.
8:You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.
7:They're all you think about.
6:You get high just from their scent.
5:You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.
4:You would do anything for them!
3:While reading this,there’s one person on your mind this whole time.
2:You were so busy thinking about that person, you didn’t notice number twelve was missing
1:You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

kekek sial..
aku nga bace ni benda bodoh ni uh..
kat cpg lesson..
den skali.. aku kekek srg seyy..
tadi kai.. as in kai quan. haha.. tegur sal perfume aku..
chey chey, member tau tau je tu perfume aku.. hehe cute sak dia..
btol pey cinonek..
haiz..
stoopid pms.. hate it sia..
hmmmmmmm...
so.. bout my life now.. ever since im crushed.
still i dun get thy point tau..
am i like clapping one hand.. coz if i do.
i muz stop sia.. tak nk aku shiok sendiri srg2..
but u can see tau how much concern he haf fer u..
thy way he looks at u..
how he calls u..
u can sense how convincing it sounded..
unlike dat stoopid muthafucker zulfadhly sound..
tiz is more real tau..
hmm.. i kept telling myself not to tell him.. coz im not! never..
bt pls la..
onli god cud explain how i felt sia..
his characteristic is soo...... ishk! geram tau.. mcm nk gigit..
haha..
am i da one who plays hard to get or isiit him??
so confused now u noe..
takkan seseorang tu nk testing2 fer no reason kn..
lau hot stuff takpe..
but i believe dat one day, sumthing juz gonna happen..
well.. i noe dat every happiness has a sad ending..
well..... if he cant move on or wad.. den dun make me stuck to u la.
den more i wanna refrain myself frm him.. da more truth is coming out..
ape nk bikin.. ni la wad happens wen fafa is hearting sumone..
abey nk step tak tau.. step tanye sape la. wth..
yes i like u.. so wad..
im gonna stand up fer myself and my feelings..
i dun care wad ppl say..
yeah!!

WEE~~

2008-05-27T19:37:00.002+08:00

well.. woke up freaking early today..
phase test day!!
well.. i was like soo prepared fer it..
semangat tau..
haha..
mama woke me up at 630.. but my phase test kol 930 seyy..
wadda heck..
den woke up arnd 730.. ahha.. need to do sumting first..
showered, siap2 smue..
kluar, go shop bought myself nescafe coffee.. coz i was soo freaking ngantok..
make my way to da busstop 222.. wen i realised that my last blouse button tk di-button..
buat malu aje.. wakakaka..
stop kat sblah tampines sec.. took 28 which was freaking ramai org..
i tried to tap my ezlink skali takde bunyi kua..
sot sia.. skali aku malas nk byk songeh i juz dropped a buck inside..
did not take da ticket though.. pemalas..
at last ade tempat dudok.. sat and was listen to my fav song..
den skali gt a missed call frm some org giler la..
i called him back. but rejected. sot. so i msg. ask y called.
he said. turn back. damn!! not again. i replied. baik uh.. haha..
he was in da same bus as me..
wow.. da turon bus.. org giler tu jalan bukan nk hi kape..
langgar2.. haiyo.. so sombong..
den i was like. yelah tu..
den member tanye aku start kol brape. isiit?? kk i forgot wad he asked.
den i said. i dtg siang sey. den he was like. asl gi dtg siang.. ke nk...
damn! prasan. pikir aku takde keje lain nk sengaje gi skola ngan dia..
haha.. kk.. honestly, i tried doing dat. but failed.
bile nk, tk jumpa.. biler tak nk, asyek2 jumpa.. haiz..
ni da straight tau 3 hari muka dia.. haha...
well..
abey member ckp. bsok jg nampak muka u sudah.. wow.. same2 i was thinking like dat..
haha.. pantat sia..
haiz..
abey aru alek sap rokok pon nampak dia lagi..
hehe.. cute sia..
hey2..
kk..
mepek..
well............................
time to chat!!!

hmph

2008-05-26T21:01:00.002+08:00

i juz dunno y coz today mcm mood down giler sia..
ye nampak je senyum n ketawe but actuali mood down sia..
maybe coz of Monday Blues...
haiz..
went off frm class dj dan early..
make my way to bustop..
saw org giler.. haha..
member nk balek..
den make my way to raffles place..
meet mama..
den.. make our way to her massage place..
quite funny uh da place.
hmm.. after all da shits... i haf to go thru..
we go mkn at banquet.. ate fried kweh teow..
den balek.. kimak mrt pack giler sia..
wad a day seyy..
damm..
den thinking of wad is happening around me..
haiz.. juz wanna ask.. whers QIL?? wad hapen to it?
asl mcm da takde jiwa lagi.. or mmg tak penaha de pon?
hmm... pusing aku..
well..
juz hoping sumone wud juz cheer me up..
im sick and tired la..
im backing off.. in any situation la..
i gt wad i wanted all along.. truths and wished wishes..
im satisfied..
yea.....................................................

y cant i juz forget about it or juz move on or juz get over it???
stoopid la fafa... stoopid bee..

to some ppl who doesnt appreciates us..

2008-05-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

kau nk buat pape kau buat la..
aku da tak kuase nk layan karenah kau lagi..
kau takmo nk complain pape lagi..
kau takmo nk step tak tau crite lagi..
aku lpas tangan..
its all up to u uh..
gasak la ape kau nk bikin..
wad i noe lau kau buat cerita mepek2 kat blakang aku..
siap kau..
tak sangka eh.. org sanggop buat gini..
ade jugak manusia mcm gini..
aniways im so damn realli seriously disappointed wif u..

aniways..
had fun and great today..
went out wif khai fer some revision on studies..
had fun wf him..
go see da "capsule" thingy.. maklom aku ni jakun tak penah tgk and naik..
cool stuff..
he have tiz cool hp..
haha..
funny guy..
so slenger and giler..
well..
thanks fer everything.. one gd memory..
yg pasal ic tu.. haiz.. a memory..
so yea..
back to van helsing.. chaw..

2008-05-25T00:04:00.000+08:00

fun day sey

2008-05-24T23:55:00.002+08:00

wow..
thanks to my lovely babes i had a realli fun day..
well. woke up.. did my hse chores..
waited fer jah to call..
smue da siap.. den jah call aru bgnn..
fer once i tot tak jadi..
so relieved wen jah called..
den.. make my way to 32.. met farhah and hannah...
den gt crite abt some fucker again..
haiyo..
den jah turon.. skali sluar aku kene gum sey.. as in chewing gum..
karot sey..
i tried my very best to make da gum out of my pants..
den succeed..
make our way to bdok interchange..
pikir farhah nk topup ezlink.. skali tak jadi..
so bus parkway da tunggu..
make our way inside da bus.. den de moment aku nk amek gambar..
i saw a missed call and a msg..
haha.. khai called.. member nampak aku kt bdok..
damn i did not saw him at all.. paisey sey..
hehe..
kk back to da story..
jah was hungry so we go banquet and eat.. nana saw me..
den jah stoopidly make a bad look at some fat girl smp budak tu complain kat bapak dia..
kimak.. kecoh seyy.. aku jugak kene beredar dari situ ngan jah.
hey jah! say thank u to me!! haha..
den.. farhah mcm 50-50 nk gi east coast.. pemalas tol..
den we took some pictures which i will load later..
pas tu kite g main pool..
wow.
lots of things happen today sey..
so hepi..
hmm.. btw saw tiz abg botak.. me n jah saw.. masyallah. ganteng banget deh..
hehe.. well.. dats all.. babes.. i love my frens.. except.. haha.. u noe i noe..

2008-05-23T12:52:00.002+08:00

sejenak daku pun terpanah..
melihat dia di depan ku..
dia menjerat hatiku
meratapku tajam..

ku akui tubuhku melonglai..
sempatku memuji dalam hatiku..
jangan fikir aku kn bercinta
ku hanya kagumi.. hanya memuji..

tiz song played in my mind..
ni la.. all bout yest..
da bus was kinda late..
but nvn though..
den board da bus.. not dat ramai org la..
so-so..
i sat and was wondering if fid was in thy bus as me.. or..
den.. while i was thinking of my dearest.. dearest hp...
i looked at tiz guy who looked realli like khai monyet.. remeber.. bro's member??
serious sia. muka same.. da pendek.. same!! haha..
den speaking of da devil..
bila bus da nk kat stop kat bustop skola..
kn bus double-deck..
saw ppl cuming down.. saw fid.. den sumone maybe i noe la..
check2.. si nizam tu..
haha... member jalan menonong je..
ye mmg dia pusing... and saw me..
abey bukan nk hi kape tau.. hehe.. aku nk tegur but.. hey! girls dun make any first move ok!!
haha.. so juz i juz look at him.. walking.. masok skola..
den carry on wif sw and went to eastpoint.. makan jap.. den took my phone..
haiz.. macam2 org aku ngan fid encountered.. haha. went home.. chill and slept..
woke up.. online.. den tiz badot go nudge me..
ade ke dia ckp aku sombong.. padahal2..
we talked nonsense la.. i told him im gonna sleep late.. however..
i was kinda sleepy wen i was chattign wf him..
haha.. den.. bila aku da nk offline.. farhah lak online.. bbual ngan farh jap sal today.. den signed out..
den tiz badot go and call me..
we talked fer a while.. i wonder wad he was thinking wen he talked to me on da phone.. haha gt tiz part i kinda knew wad he was saying.. cuma aku step "huh? wad u said.." hehe.. kekek la dia...

da letak telephone ngn dia.. listen to song.. den sleep..
well. i cant sleep at first.. golek2 den can sleep.. den woke up late..
hmm.. today lpak? maybe.. i need to study..

insulting sia

2008-05-22T22:45:00.002+08:00

kau..
sot la..
bbual ngan dia pon mcm ~~siak~~
pantat tol..
if u dun like me being a fren..
y in da first place..
puji aku, call me fucking sweet names, haf da heart to give ur number..
im bumped sey..
now i haf da full reason of y guys sux!!
pain in my heart and ass sia!
dammit..
im so gonna over it..
even though i enjoyed every conversation wif ya...
so wad..
hmm.......................................................
me + berg guys = Enemy!!
enuf is enuf..

sad sad..

2008-05-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

haiyo.
bingit tau nari..
first suroh mother kejot kol 615,
630 lak dia kejot..
abey i took da bus late..
firstly thy weather was freaking hot..
takpe2 aku redha..
den.. de freaking bus was freaking slow and late..
aku da mcm cacing kepanasan siol..
dammit..
den bile bus dah smpai..
ramai org lak tu..
naseb ade tempat dudok.. tu pon org makin masok makin cramp..
kene gesek sane sini uh.. sot tau..
tak suka tak suka tak suka!!
den..
Shit! im suppose to "terserempak wif sumone (covering my cheeks..)"
well.. tak kesampaian.. den.. da sampai busstop.. fidah pon was inside da bus..
haha.. kekek siakk..
went level two classroom as per normal.. naseb class air con seyy...
haha.. wad a relieved..
all da long i was kinda gelisah uh.. dunno yy..
sumthing happened in class juz naw..
class dj dan.. haha.. sialla.. ni uh batu.. chibai!! 3 ketol siakk..
haha.. kimak phobia sia nk tgk tuuuuuu...
haha.. so freaking funny.. abey si kadir tu maseh nk cui2.. hahaha.
kekek siakk...
after dat class... im supposed to go take my syg backk.. my phone la..
namun.. tak kesampaian again.. coz i haf to go to spa jelita.. gt appointment..
haiz. ni bsok takde class.. stakat sw je.. so maybe after dat, aku ajak fid gi eastpoint uh..
hmm..
hoped my syg is ok.. i noe u miss meeee...
haha...
overall my day sux la..
juz hoped to end it in a gd way..
peace out.

MISSING ABG BERG/CUTE/SLENGER/EVERYTHING NICE...
i wonder if he misses me.. but who knows wad that hamba Allah swt is doing and feeling.. haha.. mepek per aku...

2008-05-19T20:55:00.003+08:00

so..
days goes so fast..
tiba2 da tuesday..
wow..
i've been encountering lots of shits and sweets..
gt many stories i'm hearing..
wadever la.. asl kn kau bahagia sudah..
so..
as i was saying..
my luck haf been turning away frm me..
frm me being hepppi.. im being moody..
tiz all bcoz of dat guy la.
haiz..
went is thiz thing gonna hapen..
im so gonna be over it..
he realli reminds me of fairuz..
ooohh.. tat cutie.. if onli ur taller..
haha..
i've been lepakking wif jah n farh all tiz while..
kit bbual mepek2..
make up stoopid stories..
haha.. weirdos.. haha.. mee too..
so..
tiz afternoon i watched crite.. "qabil khusry qabil igam"
kau.. crite soo sad u noe..
air mata meleleh je. naik kering mata aku..
haiz.. at last most of da character mati..
haiz... so sad la..
den met up wif farh..
go eat KFC.. kite kn touching.. since jah's not ard at dat moment..
so.. went macdonalds.. beli iced latte..
den walked all da way frm bedok to chai chee..
by da tyme we reached der.. da ramai org..
den gt tiz grp of china men and women gadoh2..
kimak bising tau.. sot la..
den after dat i went home..
now im back wif hp-less again..
wen am i gonna get my phone.
haiz..
wed!! tatz shud be da day.. im gonna wait fer my sayang..
oh syg ku.. oh W580i..

imagine thizzz...

2008-05-16T22:55:00.003+08:00

u've known a guy whom freaking down to earth guy..
a very rare guy..
fer the first tyme u saw him, u tot he was like a very diff kind of guy...
u tot he was juz a guy like other normal guy..
he's cute, tall, fair.. everything wad a girl want..
u tried getting his attention.. but u tot u failed..
after a few days.. he start to talk to you.. and finally u gt his mobile number..
he start to msg u.. call u..
den cum the stmf part.. he calls u cute names no one ever called u b4..
den.. u and him started to meet up.. go werk together.. chill together..
juz like a normal close frens..
he asked u if u like sumone.. u said yes.. and u wer kinda referring to him..
but u told him otherwise.. juz a stranger or a classmate or a "sumguy"
although he sounded like " i know whos da guy.. its me" type..
he still play da "hard to get" part.. coz he onli knows u as a fren..
after a few months having a crush on him..
after knowing his mum.. and him knowing ur mum..
da mcm kawan rapat giler..
one sudden day, u gotta noe dat he's acting diff frm u..
u get to know that he gt himself a girl..
he spilled it to u on da phone..
(as usual u talk on da phone wif him)
u were like.. fuck!!.. den suddenly tears of "joy" came rolling down ur cheeks...
u were so heppi fer him till u kinda back off..
u waited and waited fer him till months over.. all of ur frens were like "hey stop it with that kind of behaviour la.. try moving on"
but u juz cant.. u keep think about him.. seeing his faces everyday and everwher..
u juz cant stop tinking about him.. kept talking about him to ur frens..
but u know that u and him were meant to be frens onli..
den.. one day.. he called u up.. saying all his probs to u abt he n his gf..
a part of u wanted them to break up.. but bcoz of ur love to him..
u helped him in da relationship..
without him knowing, u meet up wif his gf and talk things out..
she decided to chill things out and move on wif him..
and becoz of seeing him so heppi wif his gf..
u went home crying on ur mum's lap.. spilling every bit of secret u held over the past few months... and u decided to move on to an new counrty..
maybe Melbourne.. u packed ur stuffs and decided to move on..
u called him up and told him that ur'e going away..
as a close fren.. he kinda shocked and hated u fer telling him last minute..
he kept asking u y to this sudden changes..
he kept calling u n msging u but u buat bodoh la..
at da very last moment, wen u took da cab to airport.. he came to ur hse..
he asked ur mum of y ur doing tiz.. he sense that sumthing is juz not rite about u
since he have a "gf".. he actuali "broke up" wif da gf bcoz da "gf"
knows that u love him..
the way u advice his gf wen they were fighting.. is as if ur his gf..
he confessed his feelings to ur mum.. that is wen ur mum told every single detail about u loving him.. he was so bumped and shocked.. ur mum asked him to stop u frm going Melbourne while he can..
so he took da cab and went straight to da airport..
meanwhile.. u reached at thy airport.. crying on why does this happen to u..
y muz da one whom u tot were da one fer u end up like dat.. u were so disappointed in ur life so much dat u wanted to leave Singapore.. u tot dat u cn move on in life if u r not thinking about him..
u saw an empty seat in front of da passport counter and sat..
"departing in half an hours tyme"
ur heart beat so fast.. coz ur gonna start a new life..
u took ur bag and walk towards da counter..
suddenly....
someone shouted ur name ".....!!!"
u knew it was him.. u stopped coz ur thinking.. how da hell he knows im here..
u can hear his footsteps getting closer and closer to u..
u wiped ur tears and looked up..
he's standing in front of u acting so blur and asked u..
"y are u avoiding me and y are u doing tiz to me? am i not a part of ur life? im ur best fren.."
without any further a do, u walked away frm him..u said..
"im so stoopid to love sumone who never looked me deep enuf.."
"dont u love me animore?" as he catch ur left hand..
u stopped.. and turned.. seeing his cute berg face..
looking at him like a 5 yr old blur kid..
he said.." all thiz while i've been stoopid.. here's da truth..i started to like u since da day i've met u.. i tot ur da one fer me as we're getting close at da moment.. i tot u knew i love u.. but sad u kept saying u love tis stranger. i never knew that was me till juz now.. im so sorry if i've been giving u probs and sadness all thiz while.. i nver had a true lover like u b4.. i never was in love wif dat girl i called gf.. we were juz frens coz i tot u liked sumone else..and she haf been da one who helped me to try to move on in life.. i purposely said that she's my gf.. coz i want u to think that i haf gf and im heppi.. i purposely said that im having probs wif my "gf" coz i know u're gonna be there fer me... y didnt u juz tell me that u love me if u realli accept me as ur best fren??"
silence kills dat moment..
tears were falling off ur cheeks.. straight away u hugged him..
he said he was sorry.. never meant to make things hard fer u.. he wiped ur wet face..
and hugged u again...
u were so heppi knowing that finally his urs now..
and since dat moment u knew u gonna haf a new life ahead...
he began to kneel down, took a ring out of his pocket and said.." wud u marry me?"
u hugged him and said yes.. (while da ring was still n his hand)..

haf u ever wonder if that happens to u in real life..
how wud u bear wif da situation??
will u wait fer da guy whom u had crush on fer such a long time??
well.. if i were dat girl.. yes i will wait.. but not fer long..
well.
occured to me many tymes.. but pls la.. many more guys still out there la..
hmm.. actuali.. juz naw me, jah and farh was making up tiz stoopid situation uh..
haha.. kekek sial..
we tok nonsense la... mcm2 scene siakk kite crite..
haha.. they made my day sia today..
actuali aku tgh hampa ni.. bcoz of him la.. aku mcm da so over him la.. try my luck again next tyme.. k la.. gtg.. enjoy while u can!!

ku hanya kagumi dgn si dia...

2008-05-15T20:02:00.002+08:00

kpale aku pusing banget deh..
ntah kenapa hari berlalu gitu slow sekali..
aku ingin bilang kamu..
tapi..
aku takot deh..
emanggnya aku ngak mau kamu pikir aku suka gila sama kamu..
cuma.. aku kagum sama kamu..
kamu ngakk akan mengerti perasaan aku..
aku teringat cerita apa artinya cinta..
waduh!! laki itu ganteng banget gitu!!...
sperti yg berlaku pada aku skrg ini..
aku berasa malu mahu melihat wajah nya yang begitu..ishk.. aku tak terkata2...
aku berasa gini kerna aku tiba2 rindu gitu sama laki itu..
aku rasa dia tahu aku suka sama dia..
cuma dia..... aku ngak tahu apa motivenya..
dia selalu menanya aku soalan yg pelik2 gitu.... aku kadang2 jadi pusing deh..

andainya dia tahu perasaan aku terhadap nya..
aku cuma akan berkata bahwa aku cuma suka saja sama kamu..
ngak lebih ngak kurang..
aku tahu kita akan berkawan sahaja..
aku tahu..
begitu sama aku..
waduh!! pusing la sama kekasih gelapku ini.. cuma dia bukan gelap deh.. hehehe..
apa kata sahabat gue itu benar kok..
kita harus berkawan sahaja..

"" oh.. tuhan, ku cinta dia.. berikan lah aku hidup..

takkan ku sakiti dia.. hukum aku bila terjadi..

aku tak mudah untuk mencintai.. aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta..

aku tak mudah mengatakan aku jatuh cinta.. ""

2008-05-14T22:00:00.002+08:00

SHIT!!
NOW I JUZ REALISE HOW BAD I WAS WEN I POST THY OTHER POSTS...
HAHA..
DAMMIT..
MAN!! PAISEY2..
HAHA..
WEELL..
FARHAH.. HELP ME BEB..
JAH TOLONG!
NOT AGAIN SIA...
SOB SOB..
I THINK I JUZ MAKE DA BIGGEST MISTAKE..
IM NOT SUPPOSE TO LIKE OR LET ALONE LOVE.. SUMONE..
btw..~~im not in love ok..~~
hmm..
well..
juz need to concentrate on family and frens..and skul..
well..
even if there's no luck in me falling in love again..
its ok..
sooner or later i'll move on btol tak???
haha..
well..
juz let me be heppi while i can.. juz enjoy da feeling of living singlehood..
~~which i dun think i wud survive in singlehood~~
damn..

k la..
i noe la im lame..
well..
u shud noe wad..

maybe wad farhah say is true..
kwn2 sudah..
wad im feeling in my heart no one noes... except.. HIM (as in allah)..
k la.. maybe i'll blogg soon..
aku tak nk org pikir lak aku ni shiok sendiri..
haa..

wad a guy..

2008-05-14T08:08:00.002+08:00

hey2..
guess wad.. i came to skul today lincah siot..
haha..
well..
met up wif HIM in da bus..
wow..
he's...............
damn.. im speechless sia..
but cool uh.. he doesnt look like malay..
damn.. he's qite tall..
i think he pierce his tongue..
coz his "s" is so peylat.
haha.. guess wad his name is....
i wont tell... haha...
so... he's da same as jah.. pract one.. best seyy ttgk drg bawak helmet gi skola.
haha..
aku lagi.. nak step mane nye rider aje bawak org nye helmet.
haha smangat seminit je..
haiz........................
well yest nite..
tok on da phone wif BRO den cant sleep..
den tok on da phone wif HIM..
well.. i slept well yest..
so no terkial-kial wen i woke up juz naw..
weell..
i dunno y mr DJ DAN is in my class..

damn.. i hoped my day goes well today..
plz!!!!

semakin serasi..

2008-05-13T21:31:00.003+08:00

damn.. am i like having infactuation again??
shit shia...
dammit..
but he's so cute..
haha..
he makes me feel.. degap degup whenever i see or think bout him..
y am i feeling this way..
haha..
shit...
pls sumone help bee..
bee's getting much more honey than bee usuali does..
"Tuhan kirim kan la aku.. kekasih yg baik hati.. yg mencintai aku.. apa adanya.."

haha..
reminds me of dat song..
well..
i'll write again soon..
haha..

ouh ya..
actuali im now stuck btwn two incredible guys..
but i muzn't do any stopid stuff first..
i muz analize their prangai first..
one of them was wad i wanted all along.
the other wan was perfect romeo seyy...
damnn..
im in dillema..

LOVE IS IN THY AIR.. FEEL IT..
chey da macam mohabbatein seyy.. haha

freaking shit!!!

2008-05-12T13:02:00.002+08:00

damn it..
get to noe more guys lately..
da name?? tak perlu tau..
but thiz one guy haf be realli testing my patience siall..
dia pk dia mane nye big stuff siak..
SARCASM IS THE WERD MAN!!..
kimak..
sot sial otak aku..
but never mind.. i believe on retribution!! go QIL!!
kk takde link..
well..
hmm..
i need to cut down on the numbers of guys sakk..
i think i juz cut to two..
its ok if i dun get to noe da real them..
i dun mind..
well.. naw aku ade misi..
wakaka.. i think farhah noes.... haha..takpe nanti aku bilang jah..
haha...
well.. met sum guy named taufiq.. muka familiar sak..
dia dulu campor budak2 chai chee..
well now 20 yrs old... knows hazwan.. haha.. small werld..
he ajak his sedare.. so da AM sia.. so short n.........
ok..
den me n farh had a great day.. dammit we smoke like hell sia..
i dunno y..
fer wad i noe was dat.. i was so dizzy... n couple of guys keep msging me..
sampai aku malas nk layan.. and well.. i vomittedd!!!..
dammit..
i never go skul today... kimak ni confem attendance turon sia..
but heng! aku ade MC..
so...
talked on da phone wif one fucker.. sial btol.. he said we shud move on and that we shud not contact again.. so i agreed to it.. tapi he keep msging me and he keep calling me.... sial... wadda hell he want sia i dunno.. den he kept talking sarcastic wif me.. aku mcm nk bagi je.. but i backd off..

well..
after i put down da phone wif him..
sum matrep mane call aku.. sibok je tau..
haha check2 BRO
haha.. bbual lame siol... dammit.. shit! i juz realise sumthing.. i talked nonsense wif him sia!! haha..well.. coz b4 dat i took panadol.. and i was kinda sleepy..
but talking to him made me like wake up call sia.. dia pon sekaki bbual mepek haha..
sial la..
haiz...

you noe wad..
im thinking sumthing rite naw..
ppl who dun noe half of pls uh dun talk like as if u noe me like since forever eh..
bbual tu takmo mcm paham..
i hate sia if a guy whom i juz noe make a fucking bad impreesion of himself..
da uh i had it...
plz!! sum one help me..
i suppose to be on hiatus... not da other way around..
haha..
farhah!! tijah!! help.... haha..
k la2...
i'll blogg soon....

so not coincidence!!! hiatus da name..

2008-05-08T20:47:00.002+08:00

kimak mepek sia..
things went so weird nowadays..
some weird girl comment n msg me in frensta..
asking me whether im hendra irwan's ex...
wadda hell sia...
but "she" sounded so eager la to noe..
tu takpe..
suddenly after months..
wan that same old hendra irwan chat wif me..
i go like shicked.. duh..
member tanye of i miss him or not..
mepek sia..
if i wanna go bck wf im la. or do i have any regrets la..
mapek kn..
den... add farhah to da conversation..
bbual ngan dia..
it juz dun sounded like wan's da one doing da chatting la..
coz fer wad i noe..
he have no comp at home.. he usuali borrow kwn nye laptop..
entah btol ke tak..
den.. he's typing usuali very lambat tau..
abey tadi mcm cepat gitu kn..
den..
he was like..
no job rite naw... so-unstable income..
masyallah!!

i juz dun find it coincidently kwn wan comment me in frensta..
and he out of sudden chat wif me..

haiz..
well..
juz to let u ppl noe..
i dun wanna date any guys rite naw..
frens will do.. not fucking hanky panky shittings wif me at all..
im going berhenti berharap...

china man.. zhang yun..

2008-05-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

otak btol..
i dunno y but i can sense da "hinting" behaviour of him..
nowadays..
haha...
k i noe mepek la.. but i myself juz cudnt help it disturbing him..
haha..
dia fun la..
asalkan aku keje eh.. i tried my very best not to layan kn sgt..
pls la.. member da ade yg punye ok..
siap letak gambar matair nye kt hp ok..
but da weird thing is dat..
he love to disturb me..
always so heppi wen he does dat..
i dunno y..
there was a moment of me n him..
da mcm scene hindustan la sia.. haha.. kekek siot..
member amek gambar aku lagi..
kimak aku nga selekeh sia dia amek..
tapi bukan satu dua..
3 ke 4 sia gambar dia amek..
haha..
funny guy.. but tidor pe gambar aku..
ker????..... kk mepek!!
wee..
wad a day..
soo many stories in so little time to change ppl..
haha..
well..
juz luck bebey..
nytes..

ma favourite song....

2008-05-07T09:04:00.002+08:00

saat kau pergi
~~berlinanglah air mataku~~
betapa cinta ku rasakan
kebahagiaan itu
kini lenyaplah sudah

tak pernah ku inginkan
perpisahan ini terjadi
ku hanya bisa merelakan
jika memang kau pikir
ini lah yang terbaik

reff:
tak perlu kau beri alasan
mengapa kau ingin pergi meninggalkan diriku
karena ku yakin mungkin semuanya itu bisa
membuatmu bahagia

~~sepenuhnya ku menyadari~~
bahwa cinta itu tak mesti harus memiliki
namun ku akan terus selalu menyayangimu
setulusnya hati

tak pernah ku inginkan
perpisahan ini terjadi
betapa cinta ku rasakan
kebahagiaan itu
kini lenyaplah sudah

hmm.. best tau lagu dia!!
reaalii reminds me of da freaking bustard part..
haha..
well..
dunno if i deserve it or not..
but definately he doesnt deserve me at all!!!

again wif da shit behaviour...

2008-05-06T22:27:00.002+08:00

hmm.. got new news...
well..
realli dunno wad to say..
im realli kecik hati la..
now smue terserah kpada Yg Lebih Mengetahui...
i realli lpas tangan la..
juz hope things get better after my makcik kawin..
wel.. juz move on wif life la..
well.. thiz guy..
juz cannot get loose of him..
~~juz make him pay back everything..~~
yea... k gt some confidence due to someone..
haha.. well.. hope to get things better in fiture..
well.. not gonna waste ani hopes n faith to move on in life kn..
kk.. gtg..
need to try out sumthing.. wakaka...

dammit wif boys..

2008-05-05T21:37:00.002+08:00

shitful day today...
i wont brag aniting today..
juz felt like crushed into tiny pieces today..
dammit..
had it wif guys sia..
wadda hell they want wif girls??
kini ku berhenti berharap..
its always been like thiz man..
damn it retribution..
da sparks go off at the wrong timing..
hmm..
ouh God..
find me a guy whom i can realli spend my life wif..
a guys who realli reflects me in his eyes..
hmm.. kini baru ku sedari selama ini ku dikecewai..
haiz.. im done..
done wif all thiz shits.. no more feelings fer now...
juz frens will do fer me....
i trust no guy...........................................

2008-05-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

well.. woke up early today..
at ten bebey..
gi mandi siap2 smue..
den headed fer work..
hmm.. smpai je da ramai org..
haiz.. den waited fer a while den abie pon dtg..
well..
bile abie nga amek stock..
aku coco-up jap ngan register..
haha..
ala.. ppl make mistakes.. abey si linda bkn nk tolong.. byk soal sak..
wadda hell siol..
den.. terserempak ngan nico.. siak..
teringat siol sec 2 member mintak stead..eeee..
stoopid la fafa..
haha.. well.. tok fer a while..
den dia da beli donut den dia jalan..
after all dat ~~shits~~.. i go lpak wif farhah..
well standard mesti ada rokok.. smp gulong pon jdi..
beli gulong.. abey tak tau gulong. kekek la farh..
den.. byk uh story aku dgr.. now aku da lpas tangan uh..
ape nk jadi..jadi la.. i gt no say..
den... jah pon turon.. member keje kol 7..
tok abt budak2 yg dok sblah kte.. mcm gay sak.. sumpah..
toking bout gay..
well..
farh told me dat some of da lws peeps wanna join our dance crew..
well.. kite kn 4 je.. so better la wif many ppl..
but lws.. aku tak caye kn sgt la..
but hoped it went well..
well..
ppl better be commited to tiz crew man.. lau tak..
i'll screw dem up yea~!!

spa jelita...

2008-05-02T23:19:00.001+08:00

well... woke up early today..
kene kemas umah nari..
man! da weather was freakking hot and aku kene kemas umah..
siak la..
aku kemas umah sampai mandi peluh siul..
weish..
skian lama aku tak kemas umah kn..
haha.. penat seyy..
den gt sum confusing moment wif fizah n a black hat..
end up me meeting her n shirah at katong..
da place wher i met mother oso..
went to golden chance coz mother wanted a new bracelet..
haiz.. mcm2 tau.. da beli satu nk dua lak tu..
haha.. but i told her not to buy two.. buang2 duit sak..
imagine 1,436K... haiz.. cukup!!
haha..
so after dat.. jalan2 jap kt furst lady..
gt tiz bju lawa la seyy.. pikir nk beli skali no small size..
takpe la.. moving on.. nk beli kasot.... takde size besar.. masyallah!!
takpe moving on..
beli ice cream cone.. strawberry.. den go geylang mkn..
nk mkn.. mknan mostly smue da bis.. so takde rezeki aku la nk mkn..
den end up buy roti john.. well.. tak suka2 pon abes jugak..
wakakaka..
den..
walked all da way frm geylang to eunos.. kat guthrie building der..
the place wher spa jelita is located..
gi facial wif mother.. best siot..
muka fresh la seyy..
bought some product der and go fer a facial treatment..
mahal la seyy.. ni pon aku kene bayar balek la seyy..
haiz.. total cost.. 1.7K.. about der uh.. den i go schedule my appointment..
maybe nxt nxt friday.. at 2.30 like dat. wee...
den go chai chee seafoood restaurant wif mother..
ni part makan mcm2... sampai perot senak.. haa.. well maybe coz perot masok angin coz i nvr eat frm morning.. stakat roti john je..
haiz.. den naw.. blogging..
well..
been very tired...
so need well rest..
but someone wanted to call.. lambat nah..
haiz..

haha.. wad a funni day..

2008-05-02T15:36:00.000+08:00

not funni la..
mepek la..
well.. wake up..
got sumone msg.. pikir sape je..
rupanye si kecik tu..
dia suro kol lau aku da bgn..
so i kinda took my own sweet tyme..
mandi dulu.. makan.. coz sumhow i noe if i call..
its either he haven wake up or.. bz la..
so.. watch tv.. chat wif farhah.. asking wad tyme lpak..
den..
at last..
i called him.. hah!! member tak angkat la sia..
sot jer otak aku..
so i tot i might be bothering hym so i juz kept quiet..
so moving on in life.. met wif farhah n jah..
fie cant lpak coz member demam.. call aku nangis2.. dunno y..
den sakit2 da nangis is considered she's realli in pain la..
ok.. but maseh ley chat ni.. haiz..
den wad she told me is she n her mum go see doctor..
juz hoped dat fie's well soon..
den.. lpak kt chai chee..
well.. not da usual place..
we tok stoopid2 stuffs..
den go pay my hse n phone bills.. surprising bill aku stakat 30 plus..
wee~~!! den jumpa yaya n rifdi!!
wee! rifdi da besar tau.. so cute... haiz.. haha.. k fafa brangan...
den.. went off early.. coz mama ajak gi tgk bju pengantin fer cik liah..
haha.. lawa la sia bju dia..
siak btol.. haha.. jeles aku.. wakaka.. wens my turn.. oh ya i forgot..
dat guy msg me.. ckp aru angon.. see wad i meant.. i noe la guys.. haha..
well.. now nga very ngantok n penat..
bsok tak skola as usual..
well..
nyte2 ppl..
ouh ya..
i edited my frensta profile..
cool..
bye

bsok labour day..

2008-05-01T15:32:00.000+08:00

yeah.. bsok tak skola..
den friday pon tak skola.
about da saman thingy.. aku kene jugak..
coz i so called break da law.. coz no smokers under 18..
kimak..
lau drg run a spot check kat smue budak lam skola tu kn..
confem kaya sak government..
dpt 30 ketol frm everyone..
sial btol..
bukan nk kasi chance ngan aku ke..
ape je..
kk.. im not gonna be over it till i pay dat 30 bucks..
burn sak gaji..
haiz..........................
naw...
confused...
to call or not to call...
abey member bukan nk reply.. pantat tol..
reply la.. ok ke...ni bukan.. senyap tros..
aku rasa aku tdo pon cantik uh..
haha.. ni farhah ckp nk jogging nari lam kol brape bukan nk lang..
haiyo..
haha..
well.. aku pon mcm semangat seminit je..
ape nk bikin bsok..
i mean nari..
lpak kol 2.. den fie kene blah kol 4..
jah blah kol 6 sal keje..
den left farh n me..
ape sia nk bikin????
aku mcm suspek kuat kn.. bsok drg pangggil aku keje..
but dunno la kn... hmm..
fafa.. bile nk quit keje bodoh ni..
sigh..
well... today kat skola learned sum new stuffs..
subject cpg..
hmm...cool jugak la.. but sayang class abis siang nari..
hmm.. seriously... im fucking bored sakk..
ape nk bikin ni...
nk kol ke tak nk.. abey si dekni bukan nk reply..
da la.. pape i continue sum other tyme..

back to square one again..

2008-04-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

mangkok sia..
tak habis2 aku kene saman..
ape? tak cukop2 pe..
haiz, partly my fault oso la..
tapi da bagos2 im cutting down smoking..
was realli sincere to quit..
like, i can make it man without smoking in weeks..
at least i cud try..
wad hapen last two days was..
wanted to cip in money to help nurul buy cigges..
i dun mind cipping n i dun smoke at all..
but tot again.. y not haf da last few puffs or last ciggs..
so we smoked..
and we chose da perfect place to smoke...(im being sarcastic)
haha..
well.. aru stengah sia.. skali cikgu disiplin tangkap..
sial la..
ngan nurul2 skali kene..
anyway nurul if u read tiz.. its not ur fault ok syg.. dun blame urself..
things juz hapen the way its suppose to be..
maybe bcoz of karma..
yea.. ni smue ah sal fadly.. knowing that tiz wud hapen to me i wont give him hopes sia.. honest mistakes uh..(k seriously part fadli ni.. mmg takde kene mengene ngan
kene tangkap sap rokok.. mmg takde link langsong.. haha)
ok..
well..
today cum to skul cpg lesson..
ja0p lagi break tyme aku n nurul kene gi jumpa head course, mr seah..
hoped noting bad like kene saman again wud hapen la..
hmm.. insyallah.. hope so la..
hmm.. aku lak nga dtg bulan.. lambat sia.. sot sak otak.
tu takpe.. kene malam smalam.. n i haf to endure da stoopid\
cramps all da way in skool today.. wad a day man..
but,
realised sumting today..
aku mcm tak rasa takot ke bingit ke.. furstly bcoz of nk kene jumpa seah..
n another thing is, aku lupa bwk ezlink(and my ic)..
haiz..
sakit sak perot.. shit uh..
kk gtg.. chaw..

aniways..
got to noe sum guy name zulfadly..
nice guy..
super funni..
well..

to all da stoopid pey babi...

2008-04-26T14:40:00.000+08:00

hmm..
wher shud i start furst??
well.. gt bad news bout fie..

nie la kan.. budak2 da takder keje suka carik pasal ngan member..
ah, umor je makin meningkat.. tapi prangai lagik mepek dari budak2 kecik...
haiyo..
one thing, lau org bbual sal org lain. yg kau terasa tu apasal???
nampak sah kau guilty of sumting kan..
da tau kau buat salah tu take da fact je ah kau tu mepek..
ape??! MALU? tau pon malu... da tau asl buat gitu?
huh.. sape yg suroh buat gitu??
nampak je mcm budak baik.. dpn org smue ckp baik.. smpai org junjung kau...
tapi ini per kau bikin? haiz.. kesian kan..
ni nama nye siapa makan cili dia yg terasa pedas.. haha..
pls la.. lau nk setel pon, setel uh sendiri.. asl nk kene tarik2 org..
abey yg krg smue mcm side dia tu kenapa?? i dun get it..
kate dia da bukan member??? tapi asl back-up dia?? ape? dapat per setiap malam...
haiz.. ker sal tak dpt..
i dunno la.. fer wad i noe.. sebagai member QIL aku akan back up member aku..
another thing..
krg lau da tak suka si dekni asl tak tarik diri je? asl kene bbual mepek2 blakang dekni? abey bile dekn i ader.. krg bukannya nk sound dia.. smue step baik.. mepek uh!! kalau mmg da benci sgt ngan dia, asl tak kua je? asl ber-dua muka dgn dekni...
byk ehk crite sal krg.. prangai tak ubah seperti budak yg belum matang.. prangai hypocrite siak.. i dun get u ppl uh..
aku kesian kn org yg tertua kat situ.. kalau kau mmg anggap drg mcm adek2 kau.. sepatut nya kau bimbing drg.. bukan dgn kau skali terjerumus dalam hal ni..
haiz.. padahal krg ramai members.. lau kat luar lau krg jalan together2.. kan lawa da mcm satu family.. jg bilang aku semenjak dia buih krg abey krg benci dia?? haiz..
ni confem ade org ketiga.. tu pasal smue berubah btol takk?? haiz...
i reali dunno wad to say sey..
i juz pity dekni...
ppl juz tak tau kenang jasa budi org... tak guna jadi manusia...
haiz.. i juz pity da guy dat haf to see this everyday of his life..

nie siape2 yg bace.. abey terasa jgak.. tu krg pey pasal..
lau tak tau crite, b uat hal tak tau k.. takmo pandai2 buat hal ehk..
last warning sak ngan krg yg da tau crite yg involve in this matter..
lau aku dgr crite sal fie or sape2 yg involve QIL.. watch out..
ley bbual per.. tapi dpn2 uh.. takmo blakang2 okay!!!
dun be a bitch.. and dun be mepek..
be urself..

2008-04-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

these are some cool braids i saw over da internet..

hmm..

2008-04-24T13:35:00.000+08:00

been bz wif skul..
actuali aku mcm malas nk gi skola coz..
skola slalu start kol 8 abey abes kol 4 la.. kol 5..
mcm mepek gitu kn..
abey lau blaja all da way n fun takpe..
nie.. skejap blaja.. skejap tak.. n not fun at all..
i admit dat i've not been close to my ite frens..
coz.. i dunno y..
hmm.. sumtimes their jokes i dun understand but i laugh along.. haha..
ok la..
den...
been hot nowadays.. making me sicker.. shit sia.. skejap sejuk.. skejap panas..
random giler seyy cuace..
well..
been not contactting fadhly coz.. i realli malas..
seriously, i dun see him as a lover.. but as a frenly love..
hmm.. how to say it man!!
damn it...
den..
been lepakking wif farhah an aisyah juz naw.. meet hannah fer a while.. den member chao.. blaja o level pon mcm bukan blaja.. haha...
pract dance wif farh n sya.. fer their nurses day audition..
den me bored. go webbie check out some cool braidings..
later another blogg i show ayte..
well..saw aisyah basyir and fateha.. drg furst yr infocom..
haha.. terkejot skejap aku..
haha..

skul again..

2008-04-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

well.. back to skul again..
since last week aku sakit tak dtg skola mc 2 hari..
well..
i did a gd job in shifting my bed and lappie..
its like a room makeover..
kk.. not tat makeover la.. juz mengalih2 kn benda je..

naw im skul doing tiz freaking dmt subject..
kinda boring.. all about computer again..
but its a gd thing its not latha.. naseb la ms ho..
although she can be realli irritating..
but nvm..

kk gtg.. kene bikkin sum stuffs..

showdown!!! wee~

2008-04-21T03:59:00.000+08:00

guess wad..
nari is da big day fer abg azmi..
haha...
our hard work payed off today..
smue da handsome2.. especially moi partner..
and am.. and amar.. and my loved bro.. fendi..
haha.. kite practice2 sampai berpeloh2..
fie.. farhah and aisyah.. u ppl did a gd job yea..
walaupon pada kite dance cock up...
abg azmi ckp perfect.. haha..
padahal. dia nga makan sey biler kite nga joget..
macam paham la dia..
well..
after all of da embarassment and cock ups..
we had a gd meal.. okay la.. sedap jugak.. at least better den da day b4..
nasi putih?? ape sey..
abey tu takpe.. time ertunda-tunda.. mepek2..
karaoke sana sini..
kite gi tempat gelap jap..
practice lagu church, get loe, bounce..
pass tu.. kite gi jumpa fendi kat dj pey tempat..
aisyah kene nyanyi. haha.. had fun.
den.. patah balek umah fendi.. tunggu dia pack2 stuffs fer ns..
den patah balek lagi kat dj..
kau pey penat aku..
den tak habis habis drg nyanyi.. naik giler sak aku.
pey la pening.. memang la suaranya sedap.. tak bedek..
but berpadah2 la.. haiyo..
den..
took picture wif abg azmi again.. wif all da LWS..
den salam2.. den chaw..
we took cab wif abg fendi to pasriris.. anta dia gi ns..
den.. salam fie.. took mrt wif farhah..
dalam mrt.. farhah n me mcm lapar gitu kn.
so da turon bedok, kite gi inspirasi beli mkn..
farhah beli mee rebus.. i bought mee soto..
well.
balek tros makan.. pey la pedas.. but standard.. maseh ley tahan ok..
haha...
den waiting fer abg fendi to msg bout da gst offset thingy, member tak msg..
so i end up sleeping..

wake up fer a while..
eat sum titbits den naw nga nk tdo alek..
so yea..
bye.. chaw..

2008-04-18T09:07:00.000+08:00

well..been sick as per normal..
kepale mabok..
i think ders sumthing wrong wif me..
coz i've been having headache since last week..
its eiher sumthing wrong wif ma brain or my body is juz weak..
hmm..
well..
woke up quite late..
mandi all..
den teman my mum go tekka go see her gelang..
den.. me n mum went to mustafA center to search fer da flower clip..
but mahal gila seyy..
satu clip gitu cost $6.90..
wadda hell sey.
den.. took cab home.. kpale pening giler seyy..
den.. singgah khan saab's shop.. mum minom teh jap..
den go b uy sum stuffs at kwong seng shop..
den go home..
on da way home terserempak wif nizam.. haha.. abg wati..
aniway.. da perfomance is juz realli arnd da corner.
hope no cock-ups..
hmm.. i jz remembered.. i bought gelang india fer 10bucks..
well lawa la.. but i plan to buy more..
den im gonna change my room image soon la..
tunngu da baik sakit den i'll do.
bsok tak skola..
nari tak skola..
wow.. its like im having another 1 week xtra holiday..
haha..
well..
later lpas maghrib gotta help aunty tulis kad jemputan.. yea..
k la.. gotta go. pening sakk..
bye..

u guys realli hurt me deep!

2008-04-13T14:11:00.000+08:00

seriously..
today is such a fucking bad day..
aku keje da tak btol..
at least bile aku sampai tempat dance atleast dance la ehk..
ni tak.. smue buat muke taik..
pikir aku suka pe..
yg satu, aku tak nk point fingers or sebut2 ah..
buat muka taik tak sudah2..
haiyo..
fer once wen i joined tiz team is bcoz i tot u ppl
are matured enuf to dance with and make ur own decision..
but my my.. i sympathy u ppl.. tsk tsk.. cant even make a gd impression of urself..
tu takpe.. i can let it go ah..
fer once i tot the day wud go well..
abg fendi ajak gi bowling.. den saw lisaa.. den we tot nothing wud go wrong..
coz she was wif two other guys.. tau la fendi mane suka..
den there was a commotion.. den dat boy gi stare abg azmi.. kau wrong person sak..
umor aru stengah jagong.. haiz..
den.. we go bugis n eat.. thanks to abg fendi.. he blanje me n others makan...
coz he wanna make it up to us.. TAK MCM SESETENGAH ORG YG TAK TAU JAGE HATI ORG,
KITE JUGAK YG KENE AMEK HATI DIA.. JUZ PISSED ME N OTHERS OFF!!
tu takpe..
den bile kite nga haf fun lam bus.. kite kekek2.. realli thousands n million kisses n thanks to fifie n farhah... they make my night seyy..
abey bile da turon bus..
sumone msged farh..
smue macam salahkan kite seyy..
ape nie.. man! i was blowing out of my mind sia..
man! ppl! are guys been FORCED to dance in thiz dance??
if u guys are.. den dun bother to dance la.. we're not forcing anione sia..
btw if u guys are being forced.. y accept.. haiz..
well..
like there's a quote frm sum ppl "its all days of our lives.. we cant blame others.. juz blame ourselves.. wad to do.. its life wad.."
wadda tuuut....

well.. sape2 yg membace ni.. harap anda tak terasa..
dun worii.. we wont make da same mistake like wad we are doing naw..(dancing wif unknown ppl in da first place)
hmm.. wad is passed means passed.. lau aku ader buat silap dgn krg..
harap dimaafkan..
i forgive u..
but fer some egoistic ppl whu thinks they never make mistakes.. ~~go get a fucking life.. ur OLD enuf to think wads gd n bad..~~
well..
realli... i've tried my best..

new dunks!!

2008-04-12T14:11:00.000+08:00

well..
guess wad..
da beli!!..
new dunks beb..
haha...
well..
now i feel more relief..but i haven buy barbell la seyy..
cam ne nie..
haiyoo..
need to buy!! dun care if i dun eat....
but must bo pian beli jugak...
hmph..
bsok keje... abes kol 3..
kene tros gi queensway..
hmmm..
mane sakk nk beli.... hmm..
well... but bsok must buy!!
kk..
hmm..
two more days till skul reopens...
baju mane aku letak ehk?? hmm..
den kene gosok lagi.. haiyo..
penat sakk..
kk... i need to go bikin schedule fer my week..
bye!

sick!!

2008-04-11T14:40:00.000+08:00

DAMMIT..
IT HAS BEEN LIKE 3 DAYS STRAIGHT IM SICK..
well..
my stomach haf been giving ma probs...asyek2 kene gi toilet..
den my nose n my throat.. is rather sore..
da tadi buang kahak da kuning takpe... abey ade darah skit la..
haiz..
mak aku da sound aku.. its as if she noes i smoke.. coz my symtoms is so da smoker..
juz came back frm work..
later gonna tok on da phone wif fad..
well.. me n him okok la..
but to think more than dat.. im not readi yet...
well i still have like 7 yrs of enjoyment..
haha..
sat gt dance pract..
me n farhah plan to wear da dance pants..
man! we're gonna look hot..
firm ass..
wakakak..
den tomoro im not werking..
im going to buy shoe.. not ani shoe.. but nike dunk beb..
must buy sia!! if not... i wont go to skul..
hehe..
toking bout skul..
im left wif three days till skul reopens.
hmm..
gt maself a new bag.. shoes!
hmm.. im changing my image thiz module..
hope im gonna like it..
well toking bout changing image..
may hair now realli sux la...
da sblah pendek.. abey grow lambat..
sttoopid sakk..
hope gonna grow faster, longer and thicker..
k takmo pikir mepek2 ehk..
hee..
k la..
chaw..
gtg..
bye..

he confessed!!

2008-04-08T14:38:00.000+08:00

well.. guess wad..
my colleage named zhang yun.. chinaman..
confessed that he liked me..
haha..
kekek la sia..
i realli tercengang siakk..
haha..
after werk..
went home realli quickly den siap2 smue..
den bile part nga tunggu jah..
lambat..
called her.. den she said dat.. fie wanna talk to me..
so we confrenced.. fie ckp tak jadi ah sal tempat tu tutop siang giler..
den mcm wasted kn..
haiyo..
hmm..
i realli dunno ah..
hmph..

so we changed our plans.. went to 32 and lpak fer a while..
actuali b4 dat me n jah gi mkn.. well me alone la..
i ate chicken chop.. not dat mengenyangkan la.. but i juz eat it..
den went 32 to meet up wif fie n farh..
but end up farh turon lambat skit coz dia gi antar comp kat umah shira..
den..
went everyone was der.. we kinda lpak fer a while..
kenangan amek gambar fer straight 4 days was recalled back..
kimak da genap one yr la sey gambar tu.. mcm skejap je da one yr kn..
hmm..
rindu la sey bdk2 bcra..
den yest nampak mat n matair dier.. we talked fer a while..
actuali we met mat after me n fie went "shopping".
haha.. i shopped a half-hooded jacket.. which was kinda cool..
and a black dress.. which was ketat wen i tried on..
haha..
but kinda worth it la..
hmm..
we did manicure.. fer 9 bucks.. kaler lawa but fer me it doesnt last long coz..
im werking remember.. so susah nk jage kuku..
den.. lam train nk alek ternampak dino.. our ex-bcra.. haha.. he's like da realli old timer nye bcra la seyy.. wow.. realli glad to meet him.. but i doubt that he saw us..
teringat dulu.. dia la yg ajar aku cam mane nk sumbat R1 and R2 kt lam cart BC..
haha.. kenangan beb.. den dat stoopid mat go n talk bout peicai.. haha..
kinda miss hym la.. da jokes we made dulu.. haiz.. wadd a night..
den..
kinda went home and sleep.. yeah..

well.. aku tau da lame aku tak blogg..
but wad to do..
da bz keje.. dance lak tu..
hmm.. i try not to be mia in blooger ayte!!
outs!

khikhikhikhi..

2008-04-01T14:40:00.000+08:00

well..
today was such a long day..
bangon je mandi.. breakfast koko krunch...
den went meet farhah n fie..
dance practice beb...
kene joget ngan habiel wakakakaka..
eye contact dia maut beb..
gua tak ley angkat sakk!!
HAHA..
den after dance i went to munchy donut werking beb..
den at 9 gitu fie n farhah went to munchy donut..
isap rokok ngan drg jap den went to werk back..
haha..
farhah told me sum funny story..
kekek sakk..
farhah u noe i noe..
zhang yun realli make my day..
sad to say dia da ade gf..
dia suka nah kacau aku tau..
pentan sane pentan sini...haiz.. abey nk buat aku jatoh..
dia suka ckp "beautiful girl"..
haha... pantat..

naw da bis keje im at home..
mak aku masak sotong tinggal skit jer..
tapi aku bersyukor ade makanan di umah ku ini...
amin..
den tok on da phone wof fie n jah skejap..

i dunno y but naw im thinking bout 3 guys..
fadhly...
habiel... and
zhang yun...

kimakk gotta go siakk..
kk pape bsok malam aku blogg lagi ya..
bsok tak keje.. off..
going shopping wif my mum..
bye..

i feel light..

2008-03-31T15:58:00.000+08:00

well..
as per normal i haf to werk..
naseb abie was der to talk to..
byk customer..
supposingly im having dance pract tmoro afternoon..
aku nk mintak pagi tak ley siakk..
prangai seyy nyonya tu..
hmph!
den bile da nk masok maghrib...
mumy n dady(parents rian hertutty) wif taty and zizi masok kedai...
i greet out loud..
haha..
den mummy was kinda shocked to see me werking der..
they bought couple os donuts..
den i wanna salam mumy.. den mumy passed me ten bucks..
den i was like.. tak payah la.. susah2 je.. den she said nvm its ok amek jer..
hmm..
den i said thanks alot mumy n dady.. salam them.. den they choa..
i did not see rian lak ehk..
hmm..
so werk as per normal again den went home walking..
took sum pictures this morning.. and edited them..
wanna see???